Hey guys, the Palex juices are really flowing from me right now! Here's another one shot fan fic to The Frey's 'How to Save a Life.' It's a great song, if you haven't heard it I strongly suggest downloading it! This takes place a year after Alex leaves in Love is a Battlefield. I own nothing.
Step one, you say 'we need to talk'
She walks, you say 'sit down it's just a talk'
She smiles politely back at you,
You stare politely right on through.
Some sort of window to your soul
Cause she goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You began to wonder why you came
Alex was standing in her new apartment in Ajax. Everything was unpacked, except for one box and she wasn't so sure she wanted to open it just yet. As Alex sat down on her bed, she remembered that horrible day a year ago when she left Paige.
"This is the right thing to do, but it still hurts."
"You make it sound like cough syrup."
Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend.
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known, how to safe a life.
Alex had moved in with her mother's cousin and found a job, like she said she would. She had saved some money and finally had enough for a place of her own. Paige and Alex would text now and again, just small talk, nothing big. At the end of the day they still cared about each other and wanted to know the other was alright, but they hadn't met face to face since they parted ways.
Now Alex was sitting on her bed, all alone, staring at a box that held the key to her past. Everything important to her was in that box – the box so simply labelled, 'Paige'.
Let her know that you know best
Cause after all, you do know best
The cowboy hat from the Jay and Silent Bob movie premiere. Alex remembered their first dance, it was magical. And when she put that hat on Paige's head, smiled at her and tucked a strand of her hair behind her ear, Alex knew they were more than just friends. She could see it in Paige's eyes. That's why she took that leap of faith later that night and finally kissed her. Even though Paige obviously freaked, she knew it felt right and would come around eventually.
Try to slip past her defence
Without granting innocence
The white blazer that Paige wore to school the day of the premiere, which Alex ended up wearing the next day to school because she had slept at Paige's house. She had nothing else to wear. It still smelt like Paige, and Alex could never bring herself to give it back – that night was so special to her.
Lay down a list of what is wrong
Of things you told her all along
The picture of the two of them they had taken at Graduation. Although they had broken up, they were still friends and meant so much to each other. Alex noticed how you could see the love in their eyes. Though Paige was scared about going to Banting, Alex knew she could do it and that they would eventually find their way back to each other.
Pray to God she hears you
And I pray to God she hears you
The birthday card Paige gave Alex when she turned 18, along with the white gold hoop earrings she bought for her. Those were even more special to Alex because Paige had bought them with her own money, not her mother's credit card. She looked at them now and wanted to cry.
Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known, how to save a life.
The movie stubs from their first date. The red dress Paige bought Alex when she was working at Zanzibar. The CD Alex tried to get Paige to steal, which she ended up taking herself. The spoon from their whipped cream fight in the cafeteria at the mall. Alex's Chemistry notebook which held the tattoo she was going to get, and endless doodles and notes from Paige declaring her love, and what they might get a chance to do later that night. Paige's 'P' necklace that she gave to Alex so she would have always have her close to her heart.
Alex never thought she was the sentimental type, so how come she still kept all of this stuff? Alex looked at what was left in the box. "I can't do this." She mumbled sadly to herself, putting her head in her hands.
As she begins to raise her voice
You lower yours, grant her one last choice
Strive until you lose the road,
Or break with the ones you follow
She will do one of two things
She will admit to everything
Or she'll say she's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came
Alex picked up her new phone and dialed the number that would forever be ingrained in her memory.
"Hello?" Paige sounded confused, she didn't recognize the long distance number.
"You know that I would have done anything for us, right? To save us. I would do anything to have you here with me right now." Alex always got right to the point and Paige knew instantly who it was.
"I know. I would have too."
"What happened between us? I mean, how did our love just disappear?"
"We're two very different people, Lexi. And we want different things."
"It's that simple?"
"There's nothing simple about it. Don't you remember the pain? Everything we went through? Getting over you was the most difficult, complicated thing I've ever had to do. Everyday I question whether it was right or not."
"So then, you're over me?"
"I have to be. I struggle with it every minute of every hour, but I know I can't live in a world where I'm in love with someone who I can't be with. And I know you can't either."
"You know there is never going to be anyone who even comes remotely close to you. You're my everything, and always will be."
"I know."
"Will I ever see you again?"
"Maybe. One day, yes. When we are in a better place."
"I love you."
"I love you too, Lex."
Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known, how to safe a life
How to safe a life.
As Alex hung up the phone, she thought to herself, 'Are we really over?' Paige had said it, but somehow, even though it was tainted and jaded with pain from the past, she had sounded hopeful. Like maybe one day they would find each other again. Alex hadn't lied; there would never be anyone else. It was always Paige, and would always be Paige.
'No.' she thought, 'our story is far from over.'
How to safe a life.
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