Disclaimer: I do not own anything except for the plot, all characters belongs to J.K Rowling.
A/N: It's a sequel to If Only. I posted this a a second chapter to If Only first but it works better as a sequel. If you haven't read the prequel please do that, it will make more sense. R&R :)
This is my wedding day, the happiest day of my life. Why, oh why does it feels like I'm having the worst day of my life. The heaviness in my chest, the tears on verge in my eyes and my the voice in my head telling me to not to look him in the one we shared while I was walking down the aisle almost made me change my mind. Beside the hurt and sorrow he tried to cover in his facial expression I also saw both can see through each others façade. Well, of course we're best friends or at least we used to.
I couldn't bare you look into the eyes of Ron either. I know I would be searching for a pair of green eyes in the redhead's face. Ron will also notice that something isn't right and ask me about it. He may be thickheaded but he isn't dumb. He will see the pained expression of mine like Harry did.I have wondered if it were wrong of us to make that decision all those years ago. It was for Ron's sake, I have known how he felt about me since 4th the time I didn't know how to react.
With the Triwizard Tournament, being worried about Harry's safety, Ron's childish display of jealousy and constantly bothered by that annoying cockroach Rita Skeeter it became confusing all together.
But it was also through out our 4th year Harry and I bonded. I soon understood Harry efforts of always making me stand on Ron's side even though it would result in him being alone.
"Harry, I've been thinking and I noticed how you seem to put everyone else's feeling before your own."
"What makes you say that, Herms?"
"I told you not to call me that. You told me to stand by Ron so he would feel better and not think he anything less than you. I hope this does not have something to do with Ron fancying me."
"How did you know?"
"Even though that thickheaded dim-wit hasn't realized that he really fancies me, I can see the signs Harry. "
"Well, you sure are the brightest witch in our year."
"Thanks, not that I ever been told that earlier. Oh, look at that beautiful sunset!"
"Yeah, quite spectacular" Putting his arms around me as he said so.
I felt the embrace as we stood a moment enjoying the view from the astronomy tower. Harry's right, this was quite spectacular. No wonder he liked this place so much.
"We should head back, it's dinner time and Ron must wonder where we are."
You know I won't choose between Ron and you, you're both my best friends."
One day you will have to..." It was barely audible but loud enough for me to hear. I was about to give him a piece of my mind as he flashed me a smile and grabbed my hand dragging me towards the stairs.
"Let's go, starving to death already."
I let out a laugh and decided to let this one slip.
A tear ran down my cheek as I remembered how everything started to change after the last peaceful moment we had at Hogwarts before the war. It's still one of my best memories from Hogwarts til this day and I work there as a charms professor. I was weird when you thought about it. My most treasured memory of my school days is not with my soon to be husband but with our best friend, Harry. I guess I'll always wonder how our relationship would have evolved if Ron wasn't in the picture. Would Harry have Ron's place at the alter and not be the best man? What am I thinking? I love Ron and we're getting married right now. How can I have these thoughts?
I looked at Ron, he send me a goofy grin as always. The war had matured him as it been doing to all of us, however I can se the little boy who never could eat with his mouth closed. The same boy which temper had a fire as red as the color of his hair. The boy that loved me since 2nd year. I turned my head look at Ginny, my maid of honor. People thought that Ginny would end up with Harry. She had a crush on Harry since the first time they met at platform 9 ¾. The crush later led her to falling madly in love with Harry. They started dating after Hogwarts and seemed to be happy. Shortly after the announcement of Ron and I's engagement they broke up.
I've asked Ginny several times why it didn't work out between them but I never get a real answer. It would been great if they were together, then I wouldn't worry about Harry being alone. Somewhere deep in my chest I felt relieved that it didn't work out. I really shouldn't have these feelings towards Harry but I do, I can't deny it anymore. I know if I don't do this I will spend the rest of my life wondering what if I was with Harry instead of Ron. Maybe I've been putting off these feelings and thoughts because marrying Ron is the right thing to do. It's what people expect of us. Well, people expected Harry and Ginny to get married and they're not even together anymore. I know finally know the true reason why things didn't work out between them.
He still loves me, Harry must have asked Ginny not to tell me to make sure that I stayed with Ron. Some say the memories you cherish and the people in those memories is the persons who is the most important to you. I guess they're right. The memories I hold dear is all shared with Harry. I should have noticed this earlier It was wrong of Harry and I to have that deal after the war. I've been told that I was the brightest witch in my year but this with left Hogwarts stupid and have been immensely stupid for a long long time. It's time for me to wake up. Yes, just this time, for once I will be selfish and make a decision that will hurt Ron. I've been thinking of Ron's feelings for over ten years and I just can't do it anymore. I love Ron but I love Harry more. Harry and I have been in love with each other for over 10 years and we've been denying it for the same amount of time.
"Do you, Hermione Jean Granger take Ronald Bilius Weasley as your lawfully wedded husband whom you promise to love until death do you apart?"
Why did it took me so long to come to this conclusion? Ron will hate me for the rest of my life but I have to do this.
"Hermione?"
"Ron, I think we need to talk.."