A/N: Hi guys ! Here is a new story I wrote the last few weeks. It will be at least 20 chapters long.

First of all, English is not my native language so I apologize for any mistake, I know my english is not perfect but it's getting better (hopefully.)

Warnings for this story: No real warnings for now, it's a gay romance so if you don't like it don't read it. Finn is a moron for most part of the fic (maybe until the end, i don't know yet.) Karofsky's a jerk. There will be fluff as well.

The summary I wrote sucks. I just want to tell you that Puck does not bully Kurt because he's got a secret crush on him, it's more elaborate than that.

It settles during Junior year.

I think that's all for now, so enjoy !

I don't own glee...

Chapter 1:

Kurt was staring at the other boy who was kissing a girl. The same question was turning again and again in Kurt's head. Why him ? He was thirteen and could see most of his school mates having their first boyfriends and girlfriends. At first, he acted like them, trying to find a girl he found pretty, but just that was a challenge. The girls all the boys liked were the least interesting for him, they were shallow and not even that pretty.

But in reality there was no girl Kurt wanted to date. They were really great as friends, and he was better than any boy at being friends with girls. But there was always this thing that made him feel lonely and different. He didn't want to kiss any girl. He wanted to kiss this boy, Finnegan Hudson. The problem was that he knew that Finn didn't want to kiss him since he liked to kiss girls. In fact, there was no boy at school who wanted to kiss other boys.

Kurt had met only one boy who wanted to kiss him. But he was really mean and had done things Kurt didn't want, he was still having nightmares about him.

And finally there was this other boy at school. He was the meanest of all. The other kids didn't bother Kurt before he came back to school after summer camp and called him "faggot". After this day, the word was in everyone's mouth and Kurt was always alone. He was alone because no one wanted to hang around the school queer. And when he was alone, the same boy, Noah Puckerman, was always somewhere near to remind him that he had no friends.

And that was why Kurt had a crush on Finn. Finn was not as bad as his best friend, sometimes he told Puck to leave him alone, that he was going too far.

Their first year at McKinley high was the same overall. There were more students but still no one like Kurt. The boy was still spending his days alone and he was becoming okay with that since he had no choice.

One day, he felt particularly lonely, and when Puck had shouted "faggot" at the end of the day, Kurt lost it and walked to the ridiculous Mohawk boy to punch his face. But he failed and ended up unable to move as Puck was twisting his arm in his back.

"You wanted to say something Hummel ?" He asked.

"Stop calling me that you brainless moron !" Kurt spat at him.

"Look at me Hummel." Puck said making Kurt turn but still holding his arm painfully. "You call me a brainless moron again and you end up in the dumpster, get it ?" Kurt shot him a death glare that could have killed him if eyes had the power to. "Get it ?" Puck asked twisting Kurt's in an awfully painful angle. Kurt was still looking at him in the eyes, challenging him to hurt him more. He would not give up in front of that jerk.

"Hey Puck c'mon the cheerios are rehearsing let's go watch them." Finn appeared behind Kurt.

"I'm kind of in the middle of something in case you didn't notice." Puck said not breaking eye contact with Kurt.

"Actually I'd be glad if you went away to take a look under the cheerios' skirts and released my arm." Kurt stated bitchily.

"C'mon Puck their rehearsal is almost over you can play with Hummel later." Finn said. Puck sighed and tightened his grip on Kurt's arm.

"Don't forget what I told you !" He warned him before releasing him.

In moments like these, Kurt's lonely imagination believed that Finn had come only to help Kurt. That he was even jealous that Puck had held his arm.

Yes, Kurt's wild imagination could go far in his fantasies. But at the end of the day he knew perfectly well that none of this was true.

He was beginning to think that his life was crap and could not be worse when he started junior year. He was walking through the parking lot, wearing his brand new outfit he had bought especially for the day. He was hoping to make friends this year.

But then, when he looked straight in front of him he saw him. He had grown a lot and was bigger now. He was scary. He smirked when he saw Kurt approaching and it reminded him of the day they had spent together, when he wanted to do all these things Kurt didn't want. The boy stiffened when he saw that around him were Azimio, one of the most brainless jocks, Puck and Finn. Karofsky told something to Puck and Kurt saw puck hesitate, before nodding.

"Hummel ! I've been missing you you know." Puck said approaching Kurt. However the boy didn't reply, he lifted his chin and kept on walking. "You can't ignore me like that, I want to introduce you to my new friend." He grabbed Kurt's arm and dragged him to the big jock. "Karofsky, this is Hummel. Hummel this is Karofsky." Kurt managed to get off Puck's grip, he was really scared of Karofsky.

"Got to hell Puckerman !" He shouted before storming away.

"No, no, no ! That's not how it works." Puck stated grabbing Kurt again. "I'm not going anywhere, you're the one going somewhere, it ain't hell but it's not far." He stated.

And that's how Kurt ended up in a dumpster for the first time. Karofsky had been leering on him, Azimio had been laughing. Puckerman was holding Kurt's arms and his legs were held by no one else than Finn.

That's when Kurt should have realized that Finn was not worth loving. He should have realized that Finn was as bad as his friends and that nothing he could do would make him like Kurt. But Kurt was stubborn, had always been. He had been dreaming of holding Finn's hand for years now and he would not stop just now. After all he had been corrupted by the bad influence of Puckerman and Karofsky. It was nothing else, he had been forced to do that.

So, that day, Kurt didn't do what he should have done. He did not give up on Finn. He knew that it would hurt him sooner or later but didn't care.

A/N: I wanted to inform those of you, fellow readers, who have read Time to leave, I'm almost done writing a sequel, I'll let you know precisely when I publish it.

If you all could tell me what you think of this first chapter it would be wonderful !

Love you all !

Ant.

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