Author's Note: There'a a lot of mandatory stuff I have to say here, because I'm going to approach a touchy subject in what I hope is an engaging—but what I know is inevitably going to be in a controversial—way. TRIGGERS: The most offensive and prominent is sexual involvement of a minor. This is only for the purpose of fantasy. In the real world, this has serious ramifications. Minors CANNOT CONSENT. This is NOT an example of acceptable behavior. Incest may also bother some people. Involvement of members of a family romantically and/or sexually may not be legal where you live, and is something that many people do not accept or want to witness. Because one participant is a minor, this falls under non-consensual sex which is just as illegal as intercourse with animals because they can't legally agree to the act. Formatting Note: This story is from Matthew's point of view in the FACE family. He starts off as a toddler and grows throughout the story, but because of this, the "journal entry" feeling means that this will be written as if it were a diary that was picked up from him and read. Matthew's character improves his skills as most children would over time, but he is very young when he first starts writing. As such, INITIAL GRAMMATICAL AND SPELLING ERRORS ARE A STYLISTIC CHOICE TO MAINTAIN AUTHENTICITY. If this prevents you from wanting to read this, then don't.

my papa is perfect. he makes food thats so good. its better then mamas. mama is really pretty but he isnt pretty like papa is. papas hair is soft and almost yellow and smells so good. papa has such a good voice when he talks french. hes teaching me to talk french to.

papa and me go out for deserts but we dont tell mama. wed tell alfred but hed tell mama so we dont take him to. wonss we did took him but he told mama about the hole thing! i told him it was a secret but hes just no good with those.

papa has hair thats long and wavey and I like it a lot so I told mama no dont cut it when he tried to cut mine. i want hair long and wavey like papas because it looks good the way it is or tied up wen he makes food.

papa is smart to. sometimes mama tells him you dont know anything but thats wen hes mad and after that they say im sorry. i like it wen they dont fite becus its good wen there nice. when they say i love you it makes al and me really happy every time.

papa reads me storys then wen i now the hole thing he tells me how to now it in french. i told him the story of the three pigs in french and i messed up on the second part but he said very good anyway. i was happy becus im gunna be better at french then mama and well be able to talk abel to talk about going out for desert rite in front of him!

papa makes my tummy spin when he says good things about me. mama and al to but papa is so good to make proud. i love all three ekwal but i love papa a lot. wen mama dose something papa likes he kisses mama. he asked me do you want kisses to and i say yes.

papa lets me have kisses whenever i want and it makes me feel speshul. he kissed my forhead a lot but wen i told him he shoud kiss me like mama he laffed. he says are you sure and i say yes. for a second he did nothing but then he did it rite on my lips and my heart pounded hard.

now wen i tell him kiss me i dont have to ask for it that way becus he nows thats what i want. If mama and al arent around he kisses me on the lips and when he dose I get so excited that i can bearly breath! i love papa so much.

i know that theres nobody papa loves more then the three of us but the way he loves mama is different. i now that if i hadnt asked, he woudnt kiss me like how he kisses mama. i ask him in what other ways he dose things speshul just with mama.

he used to not tell me, but i got mad at him for that and i say to him i won't eat until you tell me the secret and after almost to days he got scared. he says to me ill tell you everything but you CANT. TELL. MAMA. i say i promise and i mean it becus i trust papa a lot so wen he says something i lissen becus hes a good papa.

sometimes now wen mama and al are bisy he lets me go to his room. at first all he woud do was pick me up and put me on his lap and kiss me. i hold papa tite wen he kisses me becus it makes me feel so good! i start to feel so good that i cant take it and we have to stop and just cuddle.

then won day he says to me are you ready for more and i like just kisses but im curius and i always want more of papa so i say yes. he says this is something mama cant now and i think its becus if he new hed be jealous that i get this stuff to.

i say okay and he puts a hand on my hart. its becus he loves me i now it. he starts touching around my hart and all over my chest. it feels good but wen he slips his hand under my shirt my eyes get big. his hand was cold and it made me shivver.

then papa gets this look on his face like he dose wen he dose something rong. usualy something that makes mama yell at him. he always feels so bad when mama gets mad. he stopped touching me. i think he got gilty after all.

hes a good papa. im sad that some things are for mama only. i dont like it wen papa is upset so i hug him tite aggen. he hugs me back and he rubs his face in my sholder. he says im sorry im so sorry but i wasnt mad so i dont now why he says that so much to me as he holds me.