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BPOV

"Jacob, please hold me." I begged as I lay curled up in a tight ball under five thick comforters on my small bed.

"I don't know Bells. Why don't we just put you in some flannels?" He replied with eyeing me with concern.

I shook my head with as much fervor s my weak frame could muster. "No, because when I sweat I'll be stuck in wet clothes."

He sat there for a few more minutes looking extremely pensive. I was about to ask again when he stood up out of my rocking chair and took off his shirt. He was a complete vision of beauty. Tanned skin, strong build, yet soft eyes and a smile that could rival that of a lighthouse in the fog. Of course I didn't ask him to lie in bed with me half naked so I could feel him up, or vise versa. Right now I just need his supernatural body heat and he knew this. Though his smile betrayed him, I knew he would enjoy this, as would I.

Jake and I discussed our friendship years ago. Though we were very physically attracted to each other our first kiss was rather gross. I felt like I was kissing my brother and he said that he felt the same. Sometimes we acted like more than friends but that was just our nature. We were extremely comfortable around each other, stemming form bathing together the first year and a half of our lives. We had experimented with each other, not or of lust but curiosity and the sheer fact that we each knew that the other was safe territory.

So, why the hesitation to hop into bed with me now? Well two reasons first being we are much older. We may be just friends but Jacob's raging hard ons are getting more difficult to veil. Second: I, Bella Swan, actually have a boyfriend. I am dating the most gorgeous boy at Forks High. Well, I use the term boy loosely. He's more of a 109-year-old vampire. He and Jake almost had it out more than a couple of times, until I explained it to both of them clearly; Jacob is my other half, Edward is my soul, either be civil with each other or find a new girl to fight over. In my heart I knew I was serious, I could never live without either one of them, but I must've sounded serious enough because they've both been pretty civil with each other ever since.

This brings us back to present day. Edward went hunting for the weekend and this is the first time I got him to leave without sticking me with a babysitter like some unpredictable pet.

Jacob let a small sigh escape his lips as he pulled back the covers exposing my overheated skin clad in purple lace bras with matching boy shorts. Being that my bed is so small I was forced to lie on top of him.

"I can't believe that you never told me", he said his words dripping with annoyance.

"I don't know how you never knew", I replied with a small voice. I really wasn't up for a full conversation and I knew that he would hear me no matter how softly I spoke.

"I don't know if I'm more mad at you, or more mad at myself. How is it that I never noticed? You're not even a good liar!"

"It's not about lying Jake! I never lied to you. It's about disclosure. I never fully disclosed my entire medical history to you", I argued.

"Leave it to you to use big words when your throat is about to swell shut", he pointed out.

I so didn't have the strength for this argument. But, maybe he thought talking would keep me conscious, not that I was in danger of passing out, then again he's never seen me like this.

"Jake!" I huffed. "Please can you just hold me and shut up?"

Next was Jake's turn to huff

"Hmpf", was his childish response as he wrapped his arms around my waist. They were so long he could have wrapped them around me twice, but for now they served their purpose, to help me with my deep chills.

After a few minutes of lying in silence Jake whispered. "Are you sure you need me? Your skin feels like it's on fire".

"Can't you feel me shaking? It feels like you left all the windows open and have a fan on. I need you", I whispered back hoping he could hear the sleep in my voice.

Nothing more was said until I woke up a few hours later.