It was a cold spring morning and nothing seemed to be going right.
Parents yelling at me left and right and friends... Abandoning me one by one...
I ran out the door and down the street to my school, rain started to pour down and I continued to run.
When I got inside I wasn't rushed by anyone saying good morning or anything I just walked over to where Paige was and sat down.
My name is Max.
This is my Sadstuck.
Paige turned towards me and smiled her usual smile that always cheered me up, She started to talk about something completely random and I laughed but out of the corner of my eye I saw the some who I used to be able to trust and call friends Sarukia and Raina along with some others they just walked by me glaring at me and mumbling something under neath their breath.. Laughing.
Like normal I would ignore them and walk away... But this day would not be anything but normal.
It was around 4th hour that things started getting weird, I was in American history when a loud knock on the door startled me in my half sleep haze and I looked up wiping my stray black hair away from my face I looked to see the teacher walking towards the door when the person burst thru.
"Now where is Karkat? They said he would be in this mother fucking place." The voice said pushing the teacher walked to the front of the class room and looked at everyone grinning as everyone began to whisper and talk loudly, He had horns on him that curved up a little and he looked gray literally his eyes were gray but the whits were yellow, the teacher threatened to call the police he began to mumble to himself," Trezi said it was a possibility that Karkat could be a girl this time." He looked around till he spotted me and grinned "There you are Karkat."
I froze on the spot and looked to my side wondering if the crazy clown was talking to me or someone else but he walked closer to me as I looked down and away from him."Hay Karkat your comeing with me Me IlL explain everything when we get there." He said grabbing my hand and pulling me up out of my desk.
I flinched and broke his grasp on my hand and walked slighly away form him. "Hey bro I'm not Karkat and you.. You can't be fucking Gamzee it's just a story!" I said staring at him.
He just smirked and chuckled," Well guess what mother fucker it's a hell of a lot real and guess what else sister your Karkat."
I looked at him and walked away," Ya right that's ridiculous me Karat?"
He grabbed my hand and looked at me seriously," Only Karkat will react to this."
I turned around to look at him now feeling very nervous standing in front of the room, I watched as he took out a small blade he had on him and cut his hand and to everyones surprise his blood was purple and immediately a delicious smell wafted over me and I wanted to touch it for some reason I started to zone out till he walked closer to me and grabbed my hand with his bleeding one and my heart skipped a beat, I looked up at him as an energy shock wave burst threw me and covered me the pain that rushed through me made me scream and I collapsed to the everything became silent there became shocks and gasp as they saw me, I had horns and my complexion was gray, the white of my eyes had turned yellow and my blue eyes had gone gray with a slight redish tint, my ears also became pointer like Gamzee.I stood up but my head kept on rushing and hurting as flashbacks from a previous life flooded in and I fainted, Gamzee caught me and he smirked he whispered something and just like that we had vanished.
In my dreams i saw flashes of things memories and such I saw myself die and I felt the pain and saw the sad looks of the other trolls faces as I saw my candy red blood flowing all around me. Again in my dream the scene changed and I was staring at a boy who I knew was looked at me and smiled," Well look at that you do look like a fucking girl version of me."
I looked at him,"And you look like a guy version of me. Well this is fucked up."
He laughed a little, "You even sound like me."
I was going to say something but I woke up to hear people around me talking and chatting. One guy asked if I was all right, And what I think to be Gamzee just replied saying I was waking up.
I opened my eyes and saw them, all 11 trolls from the web comic I thought was just that a they were real. Nepeta walked up to me and smiled, "Welcome home Kark.. I mean Maxs."
I got up and looked down at my hands now a gray color, I'm not the Max I once was I'm now Karkat or I'm back to being Him. That thought sadden me and I guess Gamzee could tell cause he walked closer to me and squeezed my shoulder.
Veriska walked next to me and just looked at me then smirked," Well she sure does look like a female Karkat I just wasn't expecting that he would be a girl now." She laughed and sat back down.
I got up slowly and felt my legs gave way and I fell to the ground.
"I think that's enough for today brothers and sisters she needs time to recuperate and figure shit out." Gamzee said helping me back up to my feet.
Slowly they all walked out of Gamzee's hive and back to their own.I walked out the door to get some fresh air my head spinning with questions and memories and this tugging sensation at my hear...
Gamzee walked next to me and grabbed my hand and looked down at my wrist. Which were full of my scared past.." Max.. What happened?"
I pulled my hand away and walked to the edge of the water."It's nothing to worry yourself over Gam.. Let's just say my life on earth as a human was not the greatest." I stared of into the water watching the waves draw closer then far away and back again before sitting on the ground.
"Please can you tell me where all these.. Scars came from?" He said a hint of worry in his voice as he sat down next to me.
"These scars.. Were inflicted by me.." I said holding out my arms filled with scars.
Gamzee looked at them and grew sad,"Why? Doesn't that hurt? Wasn't someone there to tell you to stop? To help you out when you needed it?"
I put my arms down and fiddled with a piece of my black hair. "No.. There was no one.. No one cared and people who did were just using me to get attention... I got called to the principal's office a couple of times about twice but they thought it was just cat scratches... No one cared to know me nor did anyone care to get close to me they just all acted like I didn't exist and stayed away from me.."
He put an arm around me trying to comfort me, It seemed weird cause I remember memories and reading stuff and Gamzee.. I didn't know he had this side to him.
"You were mother fuckin alone for so long.. Wasn't anybody concerned about you?"
I shook my head sadly," There was no one.. Everyone was to busy with dealing with others who faked shit to get attention, Like people who did what I do with no reason other than to get attention. So people like me who really needed some fucking help never got it.. I just continued the pain and blood being a way to tell me and say that I was still alive and still here it was like a way to release the pain and loneliness like a fucking way to bleed my stress away.."
"How long did this go on?"
I looked at him," Well we are 17 now so since I was 13 when I started." I don't think I have ever seen him like this before never in any of my old memories of being Karkat did I ever see him so hurt to know this. "And my so quote custodians on earth... They did not want me they didt like me hell they hated me and treated me like I was a piece of scrape paper.. So many nights would I cry myself to sleep wishing the pain and the bruises would go away.. So many nights did I wish the nightmares would stop.. But they never did."
This time Gamzee hugged me not wanting to let me go, "Who the hell could do that.. What terrible mother fucker would do that to there own."
I got up and looked at the sky wiping my red tear streaked face with the back of my hand, "It's my curse I guess. For no one to ever love me.." I turned away not wanting to be by anyone just wanting to think things through I didn't want to remember any of the bad things that had happened to me and I didn't want to repeat them. " Always alone.."
Gamzee got up and grabbed my hand again. "Karkat.. I wish we would have found you sooner.. But it took forever after he killed you and sent your soul away."
The memory of that day came rushing back, It was the last battle against the reincarnated Subgajjlator and I being Karkat wielding his upgraded weapon a syth with all 11 trolls behind him and Gamzee right at his side were fighting him, early that day the High Blood made Gamzee go crazy attacking his comrades and while repeating the same thing "low bloods shall die" but after Karkat was severely injured and bleeding he just smiled threw the pain and hugged Gamzee then did he finally come to his senses. Karkat had taken one last blow at the High Blood Subgajjlator making him fall to the ground bleeding to death but Karkat didn't know he had one more trick up his sleeve and that was to make sure that the trolls never had there Suffer back and stabbed Karkat with a bladed staff that was on the ground. As the high blood died he laughed menacingly saying that even if the suffer Karkat would be reborn no one would be able to find him.
Gamzee had smashed his face in after that,
That day Karkat had died in Gamzee arms.
Even though Max knew this knew that she was to take back the roll as Karkat and be the leader once again she felt like she wasn't herself anymore but she remember the same emotions and feelings as her old self and accepted turned around and looked at Gamzee, "Back then when I was Karkat while I was dying in your arms I wanted to tell you something but I didn't have time.."
Gamzee looked down at the Cancer and grasped her hand slightly, "What was it?"
She looked down at her feet." Mine and Karkats feelings are the same and I know if you won't return them since I just your Moiral but.. Gamzee.. I have red feelings for you." The bright red blush starting slightly across her face.
Gamzee stopped and looked at her at his Moiral confessing that she had red feelings for him, Back then He secretly had red feelings for Karkat to but was too afraid to tell him he was too afraid to lose his only best friend but now hearing this even if it's not exactly Karkat he felt those feelings return to him directed at this new Karkat and he smiled.
Max didn't see the smile though she just kept thinking she was going to be rejected again like always was, tears threatening to fall down her face she couldn't understand why she felt so hurt and broken at the thought of Gamzee rejecting her and leaving her she just hoped that it didn't happen, "And its ok if you call me Karkat.. I really like my old name I actually hate the name Max.. The name that they gave me.. And I understand if you don't feel the same way I'll just.. Try and remember how to get back to my hive.." She turned to walk away but Gamzee didn't let go of her hand and that's when she faced him a red tear falling down her face as she stood up on her tiptoes and kissed him.
He grinned and wrapped his arms around her waist and kissed her back to her surprised. After a while they broke apart for air and he bent down to whisper something to her," Karkat ever since I met you I had red feelings for you but I didn't want to lose you, You were the only one who cared for me who was my friend. Max even though you aren't him exactly I hadn't felt that way since he died but seeing you and feeling your pain made me want to protect you and keep you safe no mother fuckin what and those red feeling returned. I like both your names and I will always love you."
In Maxs head the words echoed threw her think pan and she smiled, "Call me Karkat then I like that name so much better," She kissed him "And Gamzee no matter what I'll always love you."
To Be Continued...