Chapter 1: Hinata
Here I am standing at the top of the Hokage monument, looking down at the village I call my home. Not with disregard or arrogance, but with slight content and sorrow. Not for the village but for myself. I know it sounds selfish but I can't help it. I feel content with the village and how it at least shows me a little acknowledgment. I feel content that not only my fellow shinobi recognise me, but the future generation at the Academy know me. I feel sorrow because I am not what they all expected of me, the Hyuuga Heiress. Even my own father overlooks me in preference for my sister and cousin. Even my long time crush doesn't really know who I am. Well, I mean he knows me in the sense that if he met me in the street he would say hello and ask how my training was going; but he doesn't know the real me. Most of the other girls don't really speak to me, and if they do they talk over me and ignore my opinion. Standing here now, I wonder what life would be like in Konoha if I did not exist, if the kidnappers managed to steal me away. I close my eyes and remember what I heard last night.
"Neji, do you know that if I had chosen you as the heir to the Hyuuga clan, Hinata would have been disposed of?" Hiashi Hyuuga told his nephew.
"No Hiashi-san, no one informed me of this." After a brief pause Neji's voice arose again "Why are you telling me this now Oji-san?"
Hiding out of view, I was careful not to make my presence known, not that they would have cared if I had heard every word they had to say.
"Would it be one of your wishes to become the leader of the Hyuuga clan, Neji?" unflinchingly, Hiashi Hyuuga was giving up entirely on his "weakling" of a daughter. With no emotion running through his face as he stared his nephew in his eyes and questioned:
"Because if it is one of your wishes, it is still possible. Hinata still has not claimed the title of leader of the Hyuuga clan, even though she is nearing her 19th birthday. All you have to do Neji, is get rid of her"
"That's all I'd have to do?" Neji replied with his monotone voice.
"Yes Neji, that's all. I'd rather have the clan in the hands of a strong, level-headed Hyuuga,"
"What about Hanabi?"
"She is too quick-willed and would quickly lead the clan to destruction. I do not want the Hyuuga clan to end up like the Uchiha's." seems Hanabi, isn't the favourite she thinks she is.
"Wouldn't I have to face the consequences? Or end up in Shinobi prison? Surely I'd at least be interrogated about my motives?"
"No Neji, I swear on what is left of her merciful life that you would not suffer any of that"
'Please Neji, please, you have more heart than this. Please fight my corner a little'.
"Your seal would be removed" Hiashi pulling every string in Neji's heart to bend to his will, "You would officially be a member of the main house"
A short pause ensued that seemed to drag out forever. 'Please Neji, you're better than this!' my mind pleaded with my cousin.
"Alright, I'll do it"
Suppressing a gasp of shock and injury, my heart felt like a thousand poisoned Kunai had struck it all at once. A single tear rolled down my cheek, leaving me with the proof I needed to know that no one within the compound's walls wanted me, that they thought I was better off dead. Gathering enough strength to stand, I left abruptly to escape what I just heard …
Tears rolling down my cheeks slowly, I realised and decided that to save Neji and my father the trouble of killing me, I would do it for them. After all, that is what a weak cowardly Hyuuga would do. The summer breeze slowly cooling the visible skin of my body, and no doubt the entire village, as the heat penetrates even through the thickest of walls in one of the hottest summers Konoha has ever seen in my years. Shuffling closer to the edge of the cliff, trying to remember anything good that could keep me from doing what could possibly (although highly unlikely to) destroy the Hyuuga clan.
There was him, Naruto Uzumaki. My long time crush, but he has his girlfriend Sakura now, it was coming up for their one year anniversary and Naruto was planning to propose to Sakura at the party. I have gradually gotten over what now seems to me nothing more than extreme admiration and respect for someone with such strength of character … Or in laymen's terms; a schoolgirl crush. In all honesty, I am extremely happy for the couple, although I can't help but feel a slight dent in the little pride I have. There was Shino Aburame, my fellow team mate. But he doesn't really talk to me that much … come to think of it; he doesn't really talk to anyone. He's also almost always away on missions with his father to collect some rare insects etc. Kurenai –sensei came to mind, but I didn't want to be mothered and lectured by her right now. The Sand Siblings were always very nice and welcoming towards me, they always treated me as their equal and nothing less; even Gaara treated me as he does his siblings. However they were back in their own village and were nowhere to help me. They were the only people who I could think of who would possibly care in the slightest … well maybe not Naruto as much but he still pretended to listen.
"Why? Why does no one care about me? Why am I so unlovable? What have I done to be left behind in everything I do?" I cried, the tears running as fast as the ocean, showing no signs of stopping.
Taking a kunai out of my pouch, I look at the blade imagining it covered in my worthless blood, I'm sure that would make everyone happy. Wouldn't it? Exposing my left wrist to the daylight, I look at it with the knife pressed against my pale skin. Pushing the kunai to my skin, I prepare my mind for the imminent blood. Watching as the warm ruby red "worthless" and "weak" blood poured from my veins and pooling on the ground at my feet, I took another shuffling step closer to the edge of the cliff, not really caring what happened next. Closing my eyes, as if to block the impending pain that would come, I try my hardest to find something, somewhere in my mind that could stop me from committing the dreadfully convenient deed.
Then his face appeared in my mind. Well, their faces. Kiba Inuzuka and his ninja dog Akamaru. My other team mates, they were always happy when I was around and looking out for me. Kiba; always helping me get stronger and helping me heal my wounds. Kiba was the one who helped me during the Chuunin exams as well. He listened to every word I said, laughed with me and comforted me. Akamaru cuddling into me keeping me warm on missions, encouraging me, letting me know everything's going to be ok.
Kiba was the only one who actually cared. All of a sudden, a realisation hit me like a ton of bricks. If I left this world, who would be there for Kiba and Akamaru other than their family? Who would care if they went missing or if anything happened to them?
I tried to force my body back from the edge of the cliff, but my feet would not move. Willing my body to move as much as humanly possible, but my muscles were frozen. Nothing would move. Tears starting forming more violent rivers on my cheeks and showed no signs of stopping. Then I heard his voice:
"Hinata …"
Author's Note:
I would like to say that I do not own Naruto or the characters in Naruto mentioned in this FanFic, They all belong to Masashi Kishimoto.
Also, this is my first FanFic, so please do not be afraid to give your opinions and criticisms.
