TITLE:
Option
THEME:
#11 Books - never really mine
PAIRING:
Sanzo x Kougaiji
DISCLAIMER: Minkura Kazuya owns Saiyuki. I only rent it
SUMMARY:
Sanzo tries to stop thinking about Kougaiji but the book he reads
ruins his intentions
Note: I would like to thank KJ for putting me in a bad mood by showing me a text message that reminded me of 'him'. He put me in a good mood afterwards. Thanks to Leslie for beta-reading.
He wouldn't think of him. He wouldn't think of him. He wouldn't think of him because it hurt and he didn't like getting hurt. Because getting hurt meant that he was weak. And he was supposed to be strong.
Sanzo sighed and stood up. Frustration evident on his features, he made his way to the temple's library. Maybe a book could distract him from the image of Kougaiji's face.
Once there, he grabbed the nearest book, hoping that it would be enough to bore him to death since sleep wasn't really an option; he dreamt of Kougaiji too. He opened the book and began to read.
Here's
something to ponder on:
Never
let someone be your priority,
While
allowing yourself to be just their option.
Sanzo slammed the book closed. Without really thinking about it, he threw the book across the room.
The blonde sank to the floor and covered his face. His breathing was ragged, his heart hammering in his chest.
Kougaiji…Yaone…Kougaiji and Yaone in each other's arms and smiling. The pain of realizing that you were just a distraction; something to keep the loneliness at bay.
Sanzo stood up and left, leaving the book on the floor. It wasn't really his anyway.