Dear James, Love Sirius

by 123SesameStreet

Has anyone ever thought about what Sirius had to deal with after James had died? This is Sirius' way of telling James about life without him, and how it is like living hell.

1. Nobody

*Disclaimer- I do not own any part of the Harry Potter franchise.*

Dear James, Love Sirius-

CHAPTER ONE

Nobody. That's who I have left in this world. After years of thinking I had friends, people who actually liked me. People who understood me, who looked past my surname and my family. I had brothers; I gained a sister and a godchild. I was welcomed into a family of my own to begin. Then everything changed, I felt… alive. Just because I knew for a fact people out there cared for me! They trusted me!

Trust… what a big mistake that was James… Trusting me.

I let everyone down. Halloween night, I ruined everything I had. I lost my brother, his wife and child. I lost Peter Pettigrew. I lost trust and respect from Remus Lupin. I lost my dignity.

As I head to Azkaban, I realized how I truly screwed up. I realized how I could have prevented this all. How I could still have my best friends…

Dear James,

I know I messed up. I know I am the reason behind all the pain tonight. I just need to know I have your forgiveness… I understand if you don't accept myself and my faults, but please… Just know I never meant for any of this to happen.

Especially the part where you died.

Love, Sirius.