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What? - Past thoughts

Chapter 1 : Past and Confession

"Kairi? Who is your crush?"

Now what?

I thought to myself as I racked my brain for answers and eventually got nothing.

I mean, I've had a crush on him for as long as I could remember.

"Hey, Sora can you go to my house later?" I asked as I tilted my face sideways, waiting for his answer.

"Yeah! That'll be a great idea!" He perked up, showing his dazzling sea blue eyes. "But can Pence come too?" he asked.

I simply nodded and gave him a faint smile as he went back to his seat.

It all started with a simple 'friend' relationship

He is Sora Hikaru, my first boy friend. Not 'boyfriend' I mean first friend with an opposite gender. He may be a boy, but out of all our classmates, he's the kindest and I really wanted to have a friend that's boy, in short, he's the perfect candidate for me.

That was the first I thought

Since then, I thought I already developed a crush on him, if that's possible.

I never knew someone like him, someone that laugh like him, voice like him, and everything I liked about him.

Thanks to fate, he became my best friend.

"Hey Kairi! Namine and I wanted to know if you have anything to do later. Cuz, It's Fuu's birthday, you wanna come?" he asked as he pointed a direction to Fuu, who's the birthday girl.

"Sure! She is my penpal, well not now since she's our classmate, of course I'll be there." I offered him a smile that he happily returned. "So, I'll see you later?"

"Sure, see ya"

Namine Kyokou, our other best friend, she is my neighbor, that's why she became my friend, coincidently, her mother and Sora's mother were bestfriends, so the three of us decided to form a group consists of us.

I'm happy he became my best friend, and of course, Namine too.

But should I sacrifice our friendship? Or let my secret be a secret.

What if it's more than that? Or worst, what if I'm inlove with him?

I need time. MORE, MORE time.

"Na- Namine, ho- how 'bout you go first?" My voice squeaked as I gave her a mild glare, alarming her.

"Uhh.. Sure I guess.." she said, I guess she can read my mind. I silently thanked her

What are we doing? Simple, the three of us should confess our crush. Why? Well, actually, I don't know, I guess we don't have anything to do anyway. As you already knew, I have a crush on my best friend, or maybe more than that, who is gonna confess and is, actually, sitting right next to me. The good thing is, my other best friend, Namine, agreed to go first, maybe she just wants to give me what I wanted, you guessed it TIME. So, moving on

"It's Hayner Koizumi" she said, I don't know if she's blushing or not, but I have a feeling that she is. Now let's see what's Sora will say.

"Hayner!?" Sora exclaimed, jaws dropped and eyes wide. Huh, I knew it

I cupped my one hand on his left ear and whispered, well, while hiding a blush, "You tell her"

"No, just leave it, I'm just shocked that she would like someone like him, I dunno, but I guess she's happy with him." He whispered back.

"I wouldn't be so sure about that," I replied, making sure that Namine doesn't hear us.

"What?" Namine asked, her expression is still unreadable because I think she found something interesting on her feet.

By the way, Hayner Koizumi is a heartthrob, already got a girlfriend, bad boy, play boy, he also smoke, don't trust him, specially to my best friend, and lastly he's really not my type.

"Oh, nothing, just sit down" I said, even though I already knew who's her crush a few weeks ago, but hearing it coming from her makes me disappointed. She should've found more deserving. I thought as I felt my face forming a frown.

"So, next is uhh Kairi!, Kairi, who is your crush?" Sora asked. Is that a million dollar question or what? It's you! Ohshut up inner conscience! I'm trying to think here! Sometimes you're really not helping. Why you- I interrupt my stupid conscience and tried to focus on what should I say. "Uhhh… Its.." Should I tell him? Or not? I'm getting tongue tied. "Wait a minute, why should I go first?" I argued, obviously trying to avoid the question, Sora is a little taken back by this but answered anyway, "Because, uhh, you know, 'ladies first'?" He did have a point, now what? Please, Namine, a little help here? I looked over Namine and gave her our 'warning signal' "Actually, its-"

"It's Zack!" Namine suddenly exclaimed

I mentally sighed in relief, hoping Sora wouldn't notice. Well, he may be my best friend but sometimes he is a too tad clueless.

Few minutes of silence… Not really comforting if you ask me.

"Is it true? It's him?" he said, a hint of depression seeping in his voice. Wait, DEPRESSION!? Now why should he be depressed? Maybe he's-, no, it's not it. It's DEFINITELY not it. I'm just hearing things. Yeah that's it.

"Uhh.. " Come on Kairi! Just go with the flow. "Y-Yeah, I-It's him" Deep in thought, but I managed to answer him, without saying anything that I might regret.

"He's a student in Destiny Central School" Namine spat, and I mentally thanked her again. Namine, I owe ya.

"So, where does he live?" Sora asked, his depression leaving his voice, Yeah, I must be imagining it. Stupid Kairi!

"Uhh…" I put my hand down my chin, pretending I'm thinking, "Actually, I don't know." Well that was SO not good move Kairi!

"Ohh.." Sora nodded, his mouth once opening, beginning to say something, that'll make things worse, but quickly seen by Namine, and she hurriedly cut him off.

"How about you Sora? Who is your crush?" Ha! Namine to the rescue! Nice choice of words too. Sorry Sora, but your questions will be answered later.

"Uhh.." he scratched his head and closed his eyes. Suddenly he shook his head, as if he's in deep thoughts. "It's Paine, Paine Kimura"

After hearing that, I practically heard my heart stop beating, hoping that Sora didn't noticed. Well, It's actually my fault, if I didn't expect too much, I wouldn't be so heartbroken like this. I went silent as he continued to babble about this 'Paine' girl. Like they said, 'shouldn't waste energy on someone who doesn't reciprocate your feelings' . At first, I didn't quite understand that, but thanks to him, I knew.

After all that confession, due to Sora's far home, he already left. That leaves me and Namine. Namine decided to stay a little more since she only lives next door.

"It hurts, I know" Namine said while watching TV, her eyes still glued to the screen. She seemed to be interested on TV shows now.

I didn't get it at first, but I immediately caught on. "Yeah, but that's okay, it's not his fault or mine if he likes someone else, and besides, I can't control anyone's feelings now can I?" I said, avoiding too much drama, but as I felt my familiar optimism grow, "I mean, look at the bright side, he might be lying to us like how we lied to him" I felt a hopeful light pouring my heart and soul. It might be, no, It's got to be.

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By the way, sorry for some grammatical errors, please bear with me I'm just a 'soon to be highschool' girl, and actually english is not my native language.

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