Disclaimer: I do not own Big Time Rush
I clenched my teeth and balled my fists angrily as they finally crossed the line. I'd been feeling sad and self conscious about the little bit of teasing. The playful jabs about how I act were ok at first. But they'd been continuously doing it and it was starting to hurt my feelings.
I can't help the way I am. And they don't even understand that I come off as a player because I don't want any of these girls. They're a cover up for the one I really want. My true, secret girlfriend.
So when they insult, in a teasing way, the one thing that meant the most to me…I finally snap. They tried to act like they were teasing me but I knew they were being a little accusatory. They didn't like the way I treated other girls and neither did I. But couldn't they see that this time was different? That I really cared about what I was doing and who I was doing it for?
I set up an area in the apartment all nice and romantic like and they have the gall to make fun of me? They don't even think I'm being serious. They can't see what this means to me. And I guess I earned this rep but this is the way she asked me to be. Being this way fends off all the potential love interests; the crazed fans who will do anything to be with me.
She knew I was like this but it was all an act. It was our plan so that nothing and no one could separate us. I wanted this special dinner to be the time I finally introduced her to them. But if they weren't willing to buy that I was truly in love…
It hurt me to see the looks in their eyes. Even Mrs. Knight seemed skeptical. Because they didn't think it was serious enough to be there none of them were attending. They were all taking their own girls out leaving me by myself with the girl of dreams. Who would be complaining right? I shouldn't be but I had asked them to come and I had promised she'd finally get to me them.
How could I explain to her that they wouldn't come? That they didn't believe in us? That no one, not even the tabloids, would believe in us? It was all because of the alias we had created together. The one to cover up that I was really a nice, caring, unselfish, smart guy?
No one really knew that I would drop anything and everything for their needs. No one really knew who I REALLY was. My friends did on some level but not the level I'd need now to get them to stay.
Heck, no one even knew that my so called Cuda products were actually all dumped down the drain and replaced with natural, environmentally safe ingredients. I'm really not vain I promise. All I did and all I am is for her. So we can be together forever.
I was snapped back to reality by the sound of glass dropping. I didn't realize it was my glass that had slipped from my hand until I got a glimpse of the shocked faces in front of me. I knew in that moment I couldn't handle their teasing anymore. It was becoming less and less innocent as they went on and on about it. But at least before they weren't being harsh about it.
Now they were worried about the girl I'd be 'harming'. Mama Knight almost didn't approve. She'd been trying to keep me from dating for the poor girls of the world sakes. I ripped off the offending bowtie around my neck and threw it under my foot before rubbing it into the hard wood floor. It didn't matter now. This date was off.
I hated to tell her that I needed to cancel. It seemed like I was doing that a lot lately. All the interferences in my life it was a wonder we found any time to date. Would she hate me now? Would she think I was avoiding her?
'Thanks for ruining my date guys.' I thought bitterly. I was upset I hadn't even realized the class cut me. I don't know how. Apparently broken glass can fly high. I felt eventually though. The stinging was hard to ignore.
I sighed deeply before trudging to the bathroom listening to the suddenly beautiful sound of glass crunching under my every step. I shot them a look and then I decided angrily that I wouldn't cancel the date. No, I would take her out somewhere worth our time or maybe have dinner at her place. I slammed and locked the bathroom door before letting my emotions take over.
I wouldn't take crap from them anymore. It may have been all in good fun before but some things just don't need to be said. I just wish they'd believe in the new me.
~The End~