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Mordred lay on the bed in his cell, crying quietly; If only, had not told anyone, Kara would still be alive! The thought only served to make him cry harder, all he had wanted to do was help his friend and now, he had become a traitor to Camelot, Arthur, the knights and all of his friends. He deserved to die. Why not just end it here? It'll make it easier on all of them.
Standing up, he looked around the cell for something sharp to cut himself with. Catching a glint out of the corner of his eye, he turned and saw a small dagger laying on the ground just outside of cell; one of the guards must have dropped it, Mordred thought. Reaching between the bars, he managed to grab hold of the handle, standing up, he ran his hands over the cool, shiny metal. Taking a deep breath, he closed his eyes and prepared to stab himself.
Just as Mordred was about to end it all, he felt two strong arms wrap around him, knocking the blade out of his hand. It was Leon. Frustrated and scared, Mordred began to struggle and scream, but Leon held him fast.
"No!" screamed Mordred, "Let me go."
"Mordred, its all right," said Leon, " I will let you go, but only when you calm down."
"Why are you doing this, just let me die!" Mordred yelled, his voice cracking, "I want to die, I'm a monster." His screaming suddenly changed into wracking sobs, "I want to die, I want to die," he cried, over and over again, the words becoming a mantra.
Still holding the boy, Leon turned to one of the guards, "Get the king and Gaius," he ordered. As the guard rushed off, Leon moved so that he was sitting against the wall of the cell, holding Mordred against his chest.
"It's not fair," sobbed Mordred, "why don't you just let me die, so that I can be with her?"
"Mordred, It is not your time to die," Leon said gently, " you will see Kara again sometime, just not right now." Leon was about to continue when he heard a voice say, "Thank you, Leon, I'll take him now."
Looking up, he saw Arthur kneeling next to him, Merlin and Gaius were standing in the doorway. Leon shifted Mordred so that Arthur was holding him and stood up, moving to stand next to Merlin.
Mordred continued to sob, his whole body convulsing, Arthur gently drew the boy against his chest.
"It's alright, Mordred," Arthur whispered gently, "everything is alright."
"I want to die," Mordred sobbed quietly.
"Oh, Mordred," Arthur murmured, "I know you don't mean that,"
"I'm a traitor," Mordred answered.
Turning the boy so that he was facing him, Arthur whispered fiercely, "listen to me, Mordred, you are not a traitor, you are young and you made a mistake, everyone here has; you are still a knight of Camelot, it will take much more than what you did to change that!" When this response only succeeded to make Mordred cry harder, Arthur nodded at Gaius to hand him the sedative.
"Mordred," Arthur said gently, "I'm going to give you something to help you calm down." A few seconds after it was administrered, Mordred's crying tapered off and Arthur could tell that he had fallen asleep.