A/N: Here it is: my Twilight version of Confessions, Bella/Jacob style. Should have five parts to it, alternating POV's. If you didn't know, it's basically all the things Bella and Jacob have been hiding. This one's Bella-centric. R&R.
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1. Sometimes, she would play with fire.
2. Just to feel like he was around.
3. She liked to think that my Jacob was just a way to remember him…
4. …but really, it was all that she had left.
5. She didn't think that anyone saw the notes she wrote him.
6. She wished that she would mail them.
7. If she had chosen him, she wouldn't have to.
8. If she had chosen him, he would have kept her warm.
9. If she had chosen him, he would have made her happy.
10. Even though she could never say it, she thought that he was beautiful.
11. She liked to think that she liked the color brown because it was warm…
12. …but really, it was because it matched his skin.
13. Once, Alice asked her if she would come with her to get her car fixed.
14. She said no.
15. She didn't admit that she hated mechanics.
16. She didn't admit that she hated them because of him.
17. Part of her knew that he always thought she looked good in green.
18. She thinks that's partly why she wears it so much.
19. She never told anyone, but she went out on the motorcycle by herself once.
20. She gave it away.
21. Because there were some things that never stayed the same.
22. She liked to think that she stayed in Forks because she missed Charlie…
23. …but really, she was praying that he would come back.
24. She had a bruise on her hip from riding with him that never completely healed.
25. She kind of liked it there.
26. Ironically, both their secrets involved monsters.
27. Ironically, hers was deeper.
28. Ironically, hers was love.
29. Part of the reason she liked the beach so much was that it reminded her of him.
30. All the reasons she found to support her not being with him was stupid.
31. Even Alice said so.
32. She liked to think that you couldn't miss someone you didn't love so much…
33. …but the tightening in her chest told her differently.
34. She was dying, quickly.
35. And she sort of wished he was around to save her.
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TBC