Prologue
When it's Time
Reid's POV
There's always moments of uncertainty, especially when something you never experienced knocks the door. I never thought of the possibility that this feeling can come back to me. I mean, I never had the chance to experience the only thing that the whole team had in common: falling in love.
I fell in love once. I was truly in love.
But then she was gone. I couldn't either save her.
Then, as I always do, I closed every open door of my feelings because they didn't worth it anymore. I had enough of life and I was already disappointed. But, of course I had to move on. I had my work at the FBI, the Behavioral Analysis Unit is my family and if I wanted to move on I had to keep them, because they're all that I have in the end.
Until, something started to move inside of me again.
After a year and a half to grieve –in silence of course, otherwise I will have JJ over me preaching me about the life, love and other things that I don't particularly take care about –I started to feel something that probably I can say is déjà vu, but not completely. There she was, and she was exactly the kind of girl I wouldn't ever turn my head to and waste time in stupid emotions.
I always hated her because she thought she was better than me, but the BAU already had a genius –which of course is my place. She always messes up with me, giving me nicknames, but she is a good friend. In the latest missions the team had, we been partners, and we faced death many times.
We saved our lives mutually, not like keeping the score, but that maybe started a new feeling on me. I don't know why lately I feel this protective feeling for her, but it just started.
Guess losing the one's you love changes you in a way you don't even recognize yourself, but I don't really know how life works, because I don't believe in it too much. People say that when you believe too much in science you stop believing in life and that you don't believe anymore in faith. And they're wrong. The only thing that happens is that you get to see new perspectives and it's up to you believe the right one.
I have my point of view about life, but it's because of everything I've crossed through and what I see. Not that I see it as misery, just that not all is pure happiness along the way.
But, when it's time to open mind and see what is really happening when you give a fresh start, is when you get to see what is really happening inside.
And I can't believe what I am crossing right now.
It's just impossible. That door was locked time ago. Unless, it's something you can avoid the rest of your life. And maybe my partners are right, even when I close my eyes to every single prove.
I'm falling in love once again.
