Mother's Diaries

Part VI

Back to square one???

By Jasmin Kaiba

AN: I'm sorry for the delay, but I was really busy, didn't have time sometimes to put on make-up in the morning, not mention sit at my computer long enough to write a story. So please don't be mad, I promise that the next one won't take that long.

October 23, 2011

I seem to have forgotten just how stubborn Logan can be. Nothing is helping and I'm frustrated. I've spent last week doing everything I could think of to get Logan to understand that I want him back, but no, he keeps his distance. I'm not good at this whole getting back together thing, Logan had always been the one to fight for our relationship. Well that is granted, because he had always been the one to screw things up, too. But this time it's my fault and I can't very well go up to him and say, "I'm over my grief, let's get married again." And sadly that is the only thing that I can think of that doesn't involve something impossible or totally crazy.

The only other half-way normal idea had been to call my Grandma and Shira and beg them to force him to come back to me, I know they'd do it, but I can't get my pride to agree to the whole plan. It is in moments like this that I wish Mom or Grandpa were alive, they always had the best advice, well Grandpa did and Mom was there for me to know that there's a person on this planet with even more insane ideas.

I've let Annie go with Honor to L.A. for some thing or the other and spent the last two days stuffing myself with instant ramen and coffee, trying to figure out what to do to get Logan to see that I want him back. Jeez no pro-con list in the history of pro-con lists would have ever prepared me for the ones I made over the last forty eight hours. I'm going wacko, I'm sure I am.

But Logan is Logan, charming, irresistible and caring as always and he isn't making any move on me. I mean, I'm calling him about five times a day, I'm particularly dragging him out for lunch, a walk or dinner, I show up at his office and don't bother correcting those who call me 'Mrs. Huntzberger', the last thing I need now to do is write in bright neon letters on my forehead 'I want to get married to you again!' and he wouldn't get it.

Or maybe he does get it and simply doesn't want to react to my very pathetic tries of winning him back. I mean I could understand if he was angry with me, it was me that pushed him away in my pain, that didn't stop him when he moved out, and it was me that signed the divorce papers when I clearly didn't have to. I ruined our marriage. But now I want to make it right again, I'm ready to do anything, he just has to respond to me in some way, any way, I'll really do anything.

In my desperation I've turned to Finn. Goodness, I hope this doesn't end up in a huge disaster...

Typical Mommy. Annie just wasn't sure what to think anymore. Her parents have confused the hell out of her more then a few times in her life, but jeez some things were really getting old.

AN: That's part VI, to be honest I'm not really happy with how it turned out, but I'm half asleep as I write this. You know how the review thing works, right? One or two over the number for the last part and the next part is coming.

Jas