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Summary: Jasper's point of View of Bella's first birthday at the Cullens' place.
I watched as Bella carefully eased the wrapping paper open. I could feel her anticipation, mixed with embarrassment at her slowness. She didn't want to be here, But Edward and Alice had dragged her home. I liked Bella, she was a great kid, and she made Edward feel good. I could always feel his emotions bubble when he thought about Bella – which was always. It was how I felt about Alice.
Bella slipped her fingers under the paper. I saw the whole thing with extreme clarity. The wrapping paper slit her delicate skin and a stream of blood oozed its way out.
Suddenly I was not Jasper, but a creature ruled by thirst and instinct. My vivid desire for Bella's blood was amplified as I sensed the desire of my family. Alice, Rosalie, Emmett, Esme and I all had one target; Bella's blood.
I lunged at Bella, letting my emotions flood the room causing a feeding frenzy atmosphere. Fortunately Edward had heard my feverish thoughts. He pushed Bella back and shoved me away from her.
Bella, poor, delicious Bella, fell back and the skin on her wrist split. And I could smell that. This only intensified my craving. I had to get to Bella's blood! For me nothing existed other than the warm, red, liquid seeping from Bella's wrist.
Luckily my family had recovered from the thirst. They were all holding their breath. Before I could attack Bella again, Emmett grabbed me form behind and dragged me, fighting, away from the house.
A few minutes later I began to calm down. Without the influence of Bella's blood, I was starting to become myself again, starting to think normally.
Then it hit me. What I'd done. What I'd become. A wave of guilt, shame and fear engulfed me. What would everyone think? What would Bella think? I could still feel her emotions, numb from shock, coming from the house. I was a monster. I was a murderer. I was uncontrollable.
I shot through the darkness. I heard Emmett's yell, asking me to come back. But I couldn't. I had to go.
~Halo Cyan