I yawned, stretching. What a nice sleep. Strange that I could sleep so nicely around so many humans. I rose up on all fours looking towards where my human was seated before I had fallen asleep, but it was empty. The whole tent was empty in fact. Where had my beloved human gone? Frantically I stood up like a normal human to get a better view of my surroundings but something stopped me. She had tied me to the stands with the leash….

"Milady"
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"We're going to the circus tomorrow!" my human was ecstatic about going "Father said I could bring you with, girl! Isn't that great!" I nuzzled my human, purring. It was great news, even if I did not know what a circus was. If I got to follow Samantha, my human, it was great news! I knew her father didn't like me all to much so for him to permit me to tag along was definitely out of the ordinary. They were poor and i was just costing them more money, but i didn't question my human. She was happy so I was happy. "Don't worry girl, we'll be together forever" She always said that to me when I was nervous....She knew me all to well. I disliked crowds of humans.
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"It's called the Noah's Ark Circus! They have all kinds of stuff! Tight rope walking! Knife throwing! A snake charmer and even an animal tamer" I hissed making my human laugh. "I thought you might do that!" Samantha giggled more. My human was a mere child but I, a large feminine, did not care. My human had taken me in four years previously when I was but a mere cub. A strange being, I was, Samantha never did tell me of what I was or how I came to be but then Samantha was but eight years of age. It wasn't her job to know everything, and I didn't ask my human of it.

I grew quickly, my human had told me. As a cub, I was tiny, as tiny as the kitten I grew up with but I soon out grew the kitten that turned into a cat of ten pounds. I grew much larger then the cat weighing in at three hundred pounds the first year, adding on an additional two hundred the next few years. My fur came in nicely, longer fur circumfusing my face and down my neck and back down to my tail, which was long enough to circle around my body once. White fur stuck up off my large rounded ears. My main color was a shimmering black with short, thin white strips on my back. I had but one white paw, the front left one and a white tip on my tail. I myself didn't know of what I was. I stood a good ten feet at the shoulder. My right golden eye was piercing when looked into it, but my right eye, a light blue in color, could melt any heart.

"You will be have won't you, girl?" Samantha asked eagerly. Samantha hugged my large feline head. Her messy black hair was matted but her large blue eyes distracted those that looked down on the young girl. She was nothing but pure. Samantha appeared like an insect while hugging me the large cat. Her fragile, short frame would be classified as sickly but Samantha was anything but sickly. She was always full of life…..happiness. However, her pained eyes shown the true story behind them. How cruel her father was to her, how poor they were, how un-happy the nights were when Samantha would cry herself to sleep.

"Of course Milady," My voice sounded fearful and light.......soft even. Strange I was huge and yet i had such a soft voice. Samantha said my voice was magical; it made her smile every time I spoke.
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Samantha placed a collar around my neck that day, leashing me like a common dog. I knew today we'd be going into public. I had to change into my other form then! In a blaze, I melted down into a human female. I held the same eyes in this form as the other form. My hair held the white streaks it did when I was in my other form, black, long and messy. My skin was much paler then Samantha's tanned skin.

"Girl! You shouldn't do that outside! People will see!" Samantha scolded. I smiled, my human was so strange….but I was hers and THAT was paradise in my multi colored eyes. "Come on! We need to get clothing on you at once!" she grabbed my hand lightly dragging me into her home.

It was always an honor to step foot in my humans home. It wasn't large like all the other family's houses were around it, but it was enough for her and her father.
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"Come on girl! Let's go!" she called out to me, that day. Why was she calling me girl so much lately? "Father won't be happy if we keep him waiting!" I nodded running out of the house on all fours. That's how I tended to walk, or run, when in this form. Was I mutated human or mutated feline, I wondered at times. Samantha welcomed me with open arms, taking the leash into her hand.

We road in a carriage that took us to a boat that would take us to this circus thing, but I soon found myself drifting off to sleep only waking every now and again to see my humans uncertain face. She was upset about something, I knew, but with her father there, I wasn't permitted to speak. I drifted off to sleep for another catnap.
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Samantha drug me all over seeing all the sits then finally into a large tent were we took our seats. Well Samantha took her seat and I made my self-comfortable on the floor, waiting for sleep to come again.

"Aren't you going to watch, girl?" she said it again. Girl…that wasn't my name…I simply rubbed my head on her leg purring before resting my head in my folded arms drifting off to sleep…

If I had known that was the last time I'd get to see my beloved human I would have at the very least said something…
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"Samantha!" I called hoping to get a reply but no one was around. I was alone again just as I was when I was a cub. Terror swept threw me. I yanked the leash trying to get free. "Damn it! How do I get this off!?" I fiddled with it for a moment before getting frustrated enough just to break the wood I was tied too.

"Hey what're you doing here? The shows over" a males voice called from down below somewhere. I didn't recognize it, which startled me. Samantha told me to avoid strangers, as they'd try to take me from her. My first instinct was to attack but Samantha said doing THAT too would take me from her. There were many things that I wasn't permitted to do but I did not mind as long as I got to stay by her side.

My eyes darted from the person down in the center stage back to where I was. What did I do? What COULD I do? I ran towards the exit but stopped dead in my tracks. What if Samantha came back? And I wasn't there?

"Samantha!" I shouted again but I didn't get a response. I could hear the one in the center ring sigh before they started heading my way. "Milady!" I shouted once more just hoping for a reply. Why would she have left me here? The footsteps came closer. I side glanced at the one approaching before hissing. With little effort, I jumped up over the human, landing in the middle of the ring.

"Lady Sam!" why wasn't she answering me! I sense others coming, from where I didn't know but they were coming. The one who had first found me too soon started towards me again. With another hiss, I jumped up to the highest place. I don't know what it was called but it was connected to another place like the one I was standing on by a tight rope. I could see everything from my place…..no Samantha.

"Get down from there!" I heard someone call from below but I didn't respond. They weren't my human so I had to reason to listen to them. I shifted my gaze downward to the people below 1, 2, 3,…8 people were down below, including the first one who had found me. Two here heading up the latter that lead to where I was. Why were they trying to capture me!? In attempt to get, away I ran down the rope to the other thing attached to it before jumping down. In a blaze, I turned into my feline state running out.

"LADY SAMANTHA!" I roared trying desperately to find her. She left me! How could she? She promised we'd be together forever! That I'd never be alone again…. "Why?" I melted down and cried as Sam had down each night. Crying was a human thing but I couldn't contain them, my emotions began to get the best of me.

Snap!

Something stuck my side sharply. Pain swept threw me. I roared out turning to the source. It had been one of the people from down below. A female dressed in rather revealing clothes stood holding a rope like thing. I stared at her; she held Samantha's face features making the anger slip away. She snapped the rope thing at me again. It had been the source of my pain! She pulled it back again to strike me once more but I caught it in my mouth. In seconds, it melted in two.

"What the hell is it?" her voice even sounded like Samantha's just more mature and harsh. She had red eyes that bore into mine. I didn't know what to do; she just stood there glaring at me. Such hatred was filled in her eyes and yet I couldn't stay mad at this women. She was so similar to my human and yet so opposite. Samantha would never strike me and yet this women could without feeling.

"I do not know of what I am…." I stated lowering my head. "I am not human, nor animal. I just know my human is missing…Have you seen her?" the female stared at me in shock; I could read it all over her face. I remembered something Samantha had told me before, normal animals don't speak and me in animal form, that is why she was shocked. I melted down back to the human state, without clothes. "Is this better?" at that moment I noticed the other people behind the female. All but two were male, not counting the one that had struck me. They were all dressed strangely but then I didn't really know what normal was.

"WOW what's a neat trick!" one of the males behind the female said approaching me. Around his neck was a large bow tie, similar to the one Samantha wore at times. He also wore a coat like thing that just hung on his back, purple in color. I'm not sure what to call it but he was certainly unique. He held a smile across his face but some how it looked pained to me. "Ya gotta name?"

My face went blank…what was my name?

Why couldn't I remember my name!?

Oh my dear Samantha what was happening? Was this all a dream? Would I wake up?
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Lady Hyena-Chan: So I noticed that is NO I mean NOOOOOOOOO Ocs of any of them~! So I am here to change that! I do not know if it'll be a Joker/Oc or a Dagger/Oc or a Snake/Oc but it will be one of themXD~! You can state what you'd like it to be in the end it may help the decision~ So on with what I wanted to say on here…OTHER then I don't own Kuroshitsuji or any of its charactersXD just my Ocs….NOW I know this is in first person but I think the next ones will be third I haven't decided yet. Hope ya enjoyed more on my Oc's background~
By the way if your new to my fics normally there much longer~
the next one will be for sure~!