She loves them both but she has to choose.
Summary
CROSSOVER BtVS & ANGEL. It's about Buffy's love for both Spike and Angel. She's spending the evening with Spike and suddenly Angel appears. His crew will follow him so both gangs meet. Is Buffy going to stay with Spike or will she go back with Angel ? Read and you'll know. PLEASE R&R ! Contains Spoilers!
Author : Maryline
Date : November 2004
I translate my French fanfics in English and have pen pals to correct. Thanks very much Kime for correcting this one !
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ABOUT MY STORY :
Takes place in season 7. Buffy's 20 and doesn't go to school anymore. Tara's dead. Willow has become Dark Willow but is fine now and back to Sunnydale. Everything's like in the series for Xander, Dawn, and Giles. The changes are about Anya who died at the same time as Tara when Warren shot them and about the relationship between Buffy and Spike. Spike never tried to rape her and they're still in love together. The gang is aware of that and accepts that situation even if it's been hard for Xander to agree with it at first. Angel is in LA with the fang gang and they do everything like in the show. Takes place in season 4 (I haven't seen the 5th season yet). Um Wesley is back with them and he still loves Fred but she's still going out with Gunn. The changes are for Cordy and Connor who are still together. Angel speaks to them again and kinda learns to accept the situation even if he loves Cordy very much. ! ; He finally realizes he loves Buffy a lot more and he can't live far from her...
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CHAPTER 1
After a day of school Dawn came back at home. It was already dark outside. Xander and Willow were also at home waiting for Dawn to come back. It's been a few months since Tara and Anya died. Willow and Xander had become closer but not lovers. They were more than good friends, they were the best friends and they secretly loved each other but couldn't tell each other about their feelings. They were both watching tv when Dawn appeared in the living room. She smiled looking at them. She starred at them and Xander starred at her in return. Willow only nodded.
D : Hi guys !
X : Hi Dawn, why were you starring at us like that ?
D : Because you two look so cute together ! You'd be a nice…
X : Thanks Dawn.
W : How was it at school ?
D : Boring as always.
W : What did you learn today ?
D (sighing) : How to think about something else but still look like your concentrating in class.
X (smiling) : Great ! I used to do that too.
W : Yeah I know. You shouldn't say that smiling you know there's nothing to be proud of.
X : Maybe but I had fun in class.
D : What or who were you thinking about ?
X : um um, that's a secret.
D : Oh come on, tell me Xander !
W : Yes tell us !
X : So Dawn what were you thinking about in class ?
D : Don't try to change subject!
The reason why Xander wouldn't say who he was thinking about was that he couldn't think about Buffy. He was in love with her and Willow knew that. He wished he could say he was thinking about Willow but it wasn't the case. He was only thinking about Buffy and it lasted almost 2 years.
X : Ok I was thinking about girls, you two happy now ?
D : Yeah but what girl in particular ?
X : Don't you think I said enough ?
Willow seemed as embarrassed as Xander was and Dawn decided not to insist on that now.
D : Ok I was thinking about Buffy and Spike.
X : Gosh it's disgusting. I can't imagine them making love and um… I can't.
W : Xander try to respect her and her choices even if we don't totally agree with them ok, she's our friend and…
X : I know. I swear I try as hard as I can but you're not the ones who found out about them, ok. The day Anya did it with Spike we all realized Buffy's reaction by the look on her face when we saw it on the computer. But I'm the one who learned the truth by Spike's mouth ok and Buffy was near me and didn't try to tell me it was wrong. I was shocked as I've rarely been in my whole life. I still don't understand why Spike ? First Angel, well he was kinda ok but…
W : But you were jealous that's it, don't search too far.
X : Well maybe I was jealous, ok but then Riley and now Spike that disgusting vampire !
D : Not bad looking ! He's hot.
X : I'm gonna act like I didn't hear that !
W : She's right he's cute.
X : Please Willow I thought you liked girls !? I'm confused now.
W : Yeah but I can still see if a guy is cute or not. And he's protective and nice to her. I think she's lucky to be with him.
Xander couldn't hear that anymore or he had become crazy. He couldn't understand why the most of the girls were attracted to Spike. 'Maybe he put a spell on himself" Xander thought 'No you have to be smart to be able to do that and Spike is far from being smart'. Xander smiled and the girls didn't understand why but they didn't want to know.
D : Lets talk about something else ok ?
W : I'm wondering what Buffy's doing now.
X : You shouldn't be asking. What did she tell us ? She told us she was going on patrol and you know what that means ?
D : Maybe you guys know what it means but I'm not sure.
X : Who do you think she patrols with ?
D : With Spike, so what ?
X : You're young Dawn but ever time they patrol together it ends in his crypt and they do dirty things if you know what I mean.
D : Spike's not dirty.
X : Don't try to say he never does dirty stuff and well I mean they both um you know…
D : Have sex together and so what ? You can say that you know I'm not a little girl anymore.
W : She's right Xander. Plus Buffy has the right to live her life the way she wants so don't judge her ok.
X : I mostly judging Spike right now.
W : Stop it it's boring.
X : Fine. But I'm sure they're together in his crypt now.
Buffy and Spike were patrolling together in the cemetery, almost hand in hand. They were talking about all and nothing and searching for vampires to slay. Buffy was rather excited and wanted to fight. As usual Spike prepared himself for a fight with her knowing it'll end in his crypt, in a nice way with lots of pleasure for both of them.
S : Sure you don't wanna fight with me ?
B : Absolutely. Don't wanna hurt you and then you'll have scars on your pretty face and I don't want to see that.
S : So sweet of you ! But since I love when we fight cause it always ends in my crypt doing you know what.
B : We don't need to fight to end the day like that, you know !
S : Yeah I know love but I'm a fighter.
B : Me too.
S : Well just so you know, you can hit me at anytime.
B : You're such a pervert Spike.
S (putting her against a tree with the "I wanna make love now" look) : Telling me you don't like that ?
B : That's not what I was gonna say.
Spike came closer to her face ready to kiss her.
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Angel and his crew were back at the hotel after slaying vampires and other demons. They were exhausted.
A : Wow it was a huge fight tonight, uh ?
G : Yeah.
C : I'm tired.
Connor : I'm good.
F : I'm completely exhausted and I think I'm about to go to bed now.
G : I'll go with you.
Fred smiled at Gunn and he kissed her. Connor also kissed Cordy in front of Angel like if he was trying to show what he won as his father never really told Cordy about his feelings for her. Wesley was sad to have no one to kiss and he was jealous of Gunn for succeeding where he failed : seducing Fred. Wesley didn't say anything and he never did about Fred and Gunn's relation even if both of them knew about his feelings for her too. Wesley tried to enjoy the times he could share with Fred even if it was never something big as Gunn was never far from her. Wesley could at least see her everyday while fighting demons.
A (looking at Connor and Cordy) : Not too tired to kiss, uh !
Connor glared at him but didn't say anything. He knew how much his father could love Cordy but he'd better change his mind about her cause Connor was not ready to give up on her. Angel preferred to isolate himself outside to think for a moment. Wesley followed him.
Wes : You're thinking about her, right ?
A : Yeah. She's the only one I've really loved in my life.
Wes When was the last time you saw her ?
A : More than one year ago when her mother died.
Wes : You've never called her since ?
A : No but I wanted to.
Wes : Why didn't you call ?
A : I'm was scared she wouldn't see me.
Wes : Why is that ?
A : Don't know. But I called Willow a few times to know if Buffy was alright.
Wes : What did she tell you ?
A : Last month she told me she wasn't very well and she was different since she brought her back to life. She told me she sometimes had a weird behavior.
Wes : Why don't you go there and find out what's going on with her ?
A : I can't.
Wes : Why ?
A : First because you could need me here, second I don't know what to tell her.
Wes : Ok, those were stupid excuses. First if we need you Willow can use a spell to bring you back here in the minute and second just tell her how you fell about her and that you still love her. I'm sure she still loves you too.
A : You don't understand.
Wes : What ?
A : I'm the one who left a few years ago to come here and I left her alone. If I could go back I…
Wes : You what ? You won't have come here ? You'd still be with her and happier than you've never been ? Then what are you waiting for ? If I were you I'd be gone to see her a long time ago. Say some apologizes and tell her you love her so much your heart would break not to be with her.
A : Great speech man ! Were you being inspired by Fred when you said that ?
Wes (with a sad look) : Um yeah.
A : At least you have her near you even if she's not dating you.
Wes : Yes you're right and you could be near Buffy if you wanted. Just go to Sunnydale and visit her.
A : And what am I going to do if she's with someone else, uh ?
Wes : You'll see once you get there.
A : So you really think I should go ?
Wes : Of course I do. You're thinking about her all the time and you're talking about her all the time as well and if you don't go and talk to her I'm gonna kick your ass if you talk about how much you love her one more time !
A : Thanks Wesley. I think I'm going to follow your advice and go there right now.
Angel was already leaving without looking back.
Wes : You're not going to leave your friends without saying goodbye ?
Too late Angel was already gone. He took a bus and ran fast.
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S : Then what were you going to say love ?
B : There's a vamp behind you !
S : Buffy just tell me if you don't want to kiss me and I won't ok but don't make things up. You should know I don't like that.
B : I'm not kidding Spike, there's really a vampire behind you.
Buffy forced Spike to look behind him and the vamp hit him in the face. Spike fell on the grass and Buffy hit the vamp. The vamp wasn't that strong but he was able to hit Spike with enough strength to make him fall on the ground. Spike got up and helped Buffy to slay the vampire. It was done in a few minutes but Spike was angry at him cause he was about to kiss Buffy before this creature appeared. They went into his crypt to do we know what. Spike began unbuttoning her shirt and she did the same with his. Then he caressed her nude skin and kissed her on the neck. She grabbed his face and kissed him. They were both very excited and you could feel love in the air. He took off his jeans and hers. He kissed her again and again and they made love. Then they went patrolling a little bit more. They slayed a few other vampires and she was kind of exhausted but Spike wasn't. He went near that tree again with Buffy but the feelings weren't the same and the romanticism had gone away with the fight of those vampires. He was close to her face again and kissed. It was a passionate wild kiss like always. Then he caressed her hair and starred at her. You could see in his eyes all the love he had for her and she felt the same about him. Then he tried to kiss her once again but she stopped and looked surprised.
S : What is it love ?
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