"Bella, I don't want you to come." My voice was calm and controlled but I knew that it was releasing and emotion that Bella could hear. She was so perceptive, Beautiful, fragile and smelled so sweetly of flowers that teased my nose.
Bella looked Taken aback or rejected and I thought I could hear her heart Breaking. Her once deep hazel brown eyes became shallow and distant as she looked at me, pain strung out on her face.
"You…don't want me?" Her voice was edgy, shaky and crack and I knew this was the only way. After what had happened at her birthday I knew I couldn't let this go on any further. I loved her too much to see her die and yet I loved her too much to let her. And though it killed me to say the one word that would free her I dreaded it and was reluctant.
"No." She seemed to except it but at the same time her heartbeat sped and slowed in one simultaneous moment. I was killing her but she would feel better after a while. Humans memories were not as good as my kinds and while I may still remember her for forever, there was a glimmer of hope she wouldn't remember me down the road, and as long as that glimmer of a chance lingered in my grasps I was going to take it.
"Oh, well…that changes things." Another moment and I was sure I would take back my words and hold her in my arms again to comfort her from the words I had said. It had to be a clean brake. I didn't want her to have to hurt because of me anymore.
I was ready to go but I wanted to say something to her. I wanted to say, "be safe" but I didn't want it to sound too much like I wanted it even though I did. Even if we were not together, we always would be. And if she ever was hurt or….I couldn't summon the thought.
"Bella, Be safe, for Charlie. He needs you." It sounded like something any normal person would ask but she wanted it to be more. I had to leave now and, without a second thought I ran.
"Edward…wait!" Her voice called after me. I wanted to turn back but knew I shouldn't. I felt horrible now. I knew she had fallen but I didn't turn back, instead I sat at the edge of the woods and sat against a tree.
I loved her so much. I was beginning to realize now what love could do to a person (so to speak in my case). It made you feel like you have something so important and so beautiful that you need to take care of and it drives you to do crazy things. It makes you feel so much for the other person, so much so you are willing to leave them…willing to die if they were ever gone.
I stayed there at the edge of the woods, waiting to hear that someone had found her when the team came through. They called her name endlessly and it was torture. I was wondering if they would ever find her until I tuned into the thoughts of one of the searchers. It was Sam; he had her in his site. I wasn't satisfied until he bellowed his discovery and reluctantly, I lifted myself to my feet and ran.( I had already taken my car back to the house.) I wasn't sure where I would go but I ran.