Only You
As soon as I step through a door, I start to pretend. You don`t get to see me as who I am. I let you see who I want to be seen. I want to laugh, cry, and scream along with the rest of you, but I don`t let myself. I have to live up to the name I`ve made for myself. If it is expected of me, I accomplish it. Oh, I know that one day, I`ll snap and do something that I regret. That I would try to forget and deny all my life. It hasn`t happened yet, but it will. I`ll do it…one day. I can hope with all my might, but I can`t be normal. I can`t be someone you don`t expect. I`m only really myself with you. I try to deny that I`m any different from what they see, but you know. You always have. I cry without tears, but you knew how it hurt. I may act like I don`t care, I may even convince people of it, but I do. The others don`t matter. They don`t know me. They know what I`ve said and what I`ve done, but not who I am. Only you ever knew that. Only you matter. You listened to my fears, not caring how silly I sound. Just us two matter. Only you are in my heart.