I got the message
long before you said you knew You said we
were an accident
There was no chance of us at
all
With no velocity and empty-headed hard and far-too-long
I
spent two years alone with you
Just when I thought I had
forgotten
You came back soft without a sound
With accidents you'll never know what could
have been
So we were an accident
You'll always be my favorite
one…
Bess Marvin sighed and took another sip of her vodka.
She rubbed her temples and looked in the mirror that hung in her living room.
She was lifeless. Her innocence gone. She had dark circles under her eyes. Pale skin.
Her life was one big accident.
At the age of 20, she was already a parent, had no college degree, and was not married.
She worked at a crappy diner. She had no life.
And had a son. You
hit the road and left me an ocean
I can't swim in the silence of
your skin-skin please let me in
Side the times we never had right
Inside two years alone with you
Bess got to her feet, and closed the window of the tiny apartment. Her one year old son was fast asleep in the next room.
He, himself, was an accident.
She still couldn't believe who his father was.
Bess groaned as she thought about Alex's father. A man who had gotten under her skin.
Bess walked down the hall and peaked into her son's room. He looked like an angel. Curly blonde hair, blue eyes, so sweet.
She loved him, her son.
But his father…
She had spent two whole years dating him, and then had gotten pregnant with his child.
She remembered that time like it was yesterday.
Bess had been sick for a week and a half, but only in the mornings…
Bess sighed and stared in the bathroom mirror.
Her eyes were puffy and had dark circles around them.
This was going to be harder then she thought.
Bess walked over to the toilet and opened the pregnancy test.
Peeing on that little stick is harder then it looks.
Bess sat the pregnancy test on the counter, and sat next to it Indian style.
"BESS!"
She
heard her friend, Tony Piaro, call from the living room. He had
originally been a friend of the Hardy's, but when she started
hanging with the Hardy's, due to Nancy, the two had bonded.
Bess franticly shoved the pregnancy test aside and stood in front of it.
Oh shit.
Tony peeked into the bathroom.
"Bess Angela
Marvin…what the hell are you doing?"
Tony looked at her oddly
and she backed up.
"What are you hiding…?"
"What do you mean? OH!"
Tony then grabbed Bess and flipped her over his shoulder in order to see what was sitting on the counter, but instantly dropped her when he saw it. He took a sharp in take of breath.
"Oh…Oh god. Is it his?"
Bess rubbed her leg and groaned.
"Thanks Tony…And whose do you think it is? And relax; I might not even be…"
"When will we
know?"
Bess looked up at the clock on her bathroom wall.
"Another…few seconds, actually."
The two waited patiently.
Oh god.
He sent her money, she sent it back.
He had left Bess. Left her without help and a child. He had gotten scared. Ran.
Bess eagerly got to her feet, even after a whole year she still felt burning fury whenever she thought of him.
And when she told him?
He got up from the table at the diner, and left.
Bess twisted a strand of her blonde hair around her finger her long time boyfriend looked at her oddly.
"Hun, what's wrong."
"I'm pregnant."
He stared at her in utter shock.
Oh shit, oh shit,
It wasn't supposed to come out like that!
He then blinked twice, silently got up, kissed her on the cheek, and left the diner.
Bess then dropped her head into her hands and cried.
She hasn't seen him since.
You said we were
an accident
with accidents you'll never know what could have
been
so we were an accident
you'll always be my favorite one
Bess started to pace. They could have been more. So much more. She thought for sure she loved him. She thought that he was the one.
Then he did this.
He sent her one letter.
She kept it in a box next to her bed.
Bess.
I'm sorry, this was all an accident.
Love
That's all the note said. All.
Bess groaned and slid to the floor.
Long winded promises of future
company
We could have
been (We could have been again)
Instead of accidental running
always running (why can't you believe)
We could have been (We
could have been again)
Up close the sound remains the same
Without the reign
of terror over every momentary change
We are exactly as before
She felt tears falling down her face.
But, despite the pain he had caused her. What he had done,
Joe Hardy would always
be her favorite accident. You hit the road and left me an
ocean
I can't swim in the silence of your skin-skin please let me
in
Side the time I had to forget you
Inside no chance of us at
all