Forgiveness, is that the word?
An E & B three-shot
Prologue: Now
Disclaimer: Twilight isn't mine. S Meyer owns all.
"I... I don't understand." you whisper. You're sad and confused and I don't know what to say, how to make this better. I don't know how to keep you with me. I remind myself this ever present thought is what got us here in the first place.
"I was terrified of losing you," I start, my voice low and shaky. I cant look at you. "We were fighting so much senior year. I.. you and I … we were that couple until senior year. Then everything with Jake happened and you were so insecure that nothing I did or said came out right and all of a sudden we were on a break. That killed me. And after we got back together, I was so fucking terrified of losing you, of losing our future. I had taken for granted what we had, I mean... I don't think I took you for granted. I've loved you every day since I met you... But our future, marriage and babies-"
"I don't understand," you repeat, cutting me off. "Marriage and babies? You never showed the slightest interest. I mean, we've been mostly together for 7 years!"
"I always saw myself marrying you. Always." I'm looking in your eyes now, searching for some clue, trying to see in your eyes if forgiveness is possible.
"You're acting like I'd deserted you! I thought our relationship was great! I thought we we trusted eachother, I though we were happy and in love!... Sure, the residency was eating up most of our alone time, but I really thought our relationship was solid, why would you...?" Your voice is cracking. In all the years we'd been together, you've cried less than a handful of times in front of me, after the death of your sister, your parent's divorce... Its never been about hiding or false bravado, so your tears shake me and make me feel like a shitty partner.
"I needed to tie you to me." The words burn. "I know you're angry right now, but-"
"No, you don't know!" you shout. "I'm devastated and confused, and I... I'm just so fucking angry with you! Do you realize what you've done? God, the way Jasper said it... You turned something that was supposed to be so happy and special and shrouded it in ugliness. You trapped me. I loved you and trusted you and you trapped me."
A/N: So, here's the new story. And if anyone at all is following my other stories [how would I know, no one reviews :(], I know I haven't updated like I should, but... and I know its sort of immature, Robsten-gate has really got to me. Embarrassing to admit. I, like many other twi-fans, had to learn the hard way that these people, at the end of the day, are actors playing a role. We have to try not to take it personal, like an attack on a favorite couple. They're very human people.
Anyway, I know its been weeks, but I have just not been in the 'write a happy E & B' mindset. Shits gonna get angsty ;) LOVE Exo