I just can't describe this feeling, it's odd to me. It is like a person who can't handle reality, one who just believes that love is nothing more then just a lie. I sit now with my heart in two, wondering why I keep coming back for more. I know that every time I will be rejected, left to question what is wrong with me. Is it my looks, a white fox that just is to ugly to accept or is it my personality,One that girls feel is outdated with the new generation? I sit in my desk at Tadoka High, just balling my eyes out because of what happened to me. I am just such an idiot, I can never figure out the message of not asking out a girl. I know this rejection now draws my lines with girls, I saw the look of just absolute annoyance and guiltiness when I asked her out. She was indeed everything a stupid and geeky kid wanted as a girlfriend, cute brown bangs, a kissable face and a cute little nose. I just couldn't stop looking at her, but she was easily able to stop watching me. I had the nerve to ask her out, but let reality come in to crush your hopes and dreams that's what I learned. I tried to stay strong, be a man and take the rejection, but my tiny little heart just completely ignored that and surely enough I am on my desk just letting the haze of failure come in. I sure now hated girls, just absolute heart breakers indeed but I guess I can't do anything about it. I am now in my bed, hoping that I can just fall asleep and flee to my dreams where life is like space, endless. Where the Jojo of this world is not suffering from the worst most agonizing trait ever, Anxiety. Jojo now is about to shut his eyes but he only thought of one thing.
If only there was a girl, one that will always love me.
I absolutely hate boys! Like who thought that they could be such nuisances to not only me but girls. First they say the most cliché love lines that they could probably copy off of the internet, then they just are complete jerks. I totally believe that girls like me get bad credit for just saying what we have to say. I have in the past dated a few guys and with all those times they just seemed awkward, like I know that I am a cute girl but come on guys. I am now able to get a new chance at the love world as I am heading off on my first day to Tadoka High. My name is Amelia, I have a pretty good body if I could say so myself. I also do as guys put it have a very lovable face and to top it all off I am or try to be cheery and high spirited. I still though to this day wonder why guys have never liked me for me and not my looks. I should be heading off to bed, just anticipated of what new friends I will make and such. As Amelia was about to fall asleep she thought of one statement.
If only there was a guy, one that will always love me.