Hey everyone. This is my first attempt at a song fic and Mixen/Captaincanary so please let me know of any thoughts you have! It is based on the song Tell me how by paramore from there new album! Could potentially do more like this if it's popular enough. Anyway please review :) hope you enjoy!
Sara sighed softly, holding the cards in her hand that her and Snart used to play. She sighed softly as she played with the cards, running them through her fingers. She had tried to get over it. Get over the fact that he was gone. He died saving them all and yet it hurt. So much. Now he was back...we not the Snart she knew or loved. One who didn't remember them, didn't even really remember her. She sat down on one of the beds, her face emotionless, hiding the thoughts and feelings trying to drown her. After all, she could never forget him but he had already forgotten her. He wasn't a stranger and yet he wasn't...wasn't anything link her memories. It was obvious he hated all of them, yet somehow she could never find it in her to hate him.
She couldn't let go, yet by keeping hold of his memory she was lost. "Tell me how to feel about you know." She asked into the cards softly, knowing there was no one to answer. The silence was the worst weapon. "Get it together Sara" she replied almost harshly to herself. She threw the cards to the table and didn't look back, didn't notice how all the kings and queens paired up.
Amaya sat alone in the kitchen, the ninja star she had found left in her pocket in her hand. She couldn't forget mick or what had happened, yet her emotions were a mess. She loved Nate but yet it was different, she loved mick too...except she only realised too late, he was out of her reach now...way out of it. Somewhere he was out there...stopping her world from ever existing, ever happening. Breaking apart everything with one set of words, one touch of that spear. Yet she still couldn't hate him for it. The simple blade tricked over her fingers causing no hard to them. Mick wasn't a stranger but still...she couldn't get to him and she would never replace him. She couldn't...he was too different, to amazing and yet slightly crazy at the same time.
Both of them, despite being strong, felt confused and alone in different ways. Sara because Snart was gone and replaced by a version of himself that seemed filled of hate. Amaya because Mick betrayed the team and yet somehow she blamed herself. Somehow Amaya found her way to her room where she began to write, long sentences about her past, her feeling and her hopes for the future, her predicament, how she loved them both, how she couldn't bring herself to hate mick. The worst part being that somehow she knew she would do the same thing. After a few minutes she sighed and closed the book, leaving the room.
On the way to somewhere, she didn't care where, Sara bumped into Amaya. Amaya looked up and spoke quietly "writing it helps" before she lead on her way and Sara did just that. It got it off her chest, after all she needed to help the team more than ever.
Tell me how to feel about you now, Tell me how to feel about you know let me know, do I suffocate or let go?