PROLOGUE
I DO NOT OWN DEGRASSI. JUST MY IDEAS.
My hand was shaking as I looked at the blank sheet of paper before me. It was sheet music paper, the only kind of paper I had in my bedroom. But it would do, it would get my words across and hopefully, it would get her to forgive me. The black ink pen in my hand shook rapidly, I was thinking about just emailing or texting her, but that wasn't her type of thing. She liked generous and thoughtful things, like me giving her a dozen flowers every Monday for nearly five months. She also like home cooked meals instead of eating at restaurants. Maybe because she was a vegetarian or maybe because thats just the type of person she was.
A good person, the type of person to only ever make me nervous the type of person who wasn't truly in love with me because of what i did, but because of who I was. Thats why I was taking the time to sit down at my desk and write her a note, then I was going to walk over to her house and tape it on her front door. Because I didn't want her dad or step mom to get it, but because I wanted Clare to see it first. Because she was the only person who deserved to see it, because she needed an apology. I owed her an apology.
The top of the pen pressed against the paper, ink smearing on to the sheet music. The words started coming to me, like music, but these words were more important then any song I would ever write. But because this was to Clare, the only person, outside of my family, that mattered to me.
Clare,
I know I am the last person you expect to hear from, the last person you want to hear from. I know that what I did was unacceptable and that you probably will never forgive me fully. But I'm asking you to give me another change, fifth times the charm huh? Bad joke, I know. I'm not writing this to sound like a babbling idiot, I'm writing this to tell you that I'm sorry.
I'm sorry for being the person you called me out to be, I'm sorry for being the worlds biggest jerk, and I'm sorry for building up your trust and tearing it down. I would never purposely hurt you, I want you to know that. I also want you to know that I will always be the air headed rockstar your said I would be. That's my title, thats how my fans and the press see him. People who don't know me, I can't change that. Because even though I'm willing to change it, for you. They will always see me like that. Always. But you know a different person.
The person who is emotional and a big baby at times. A person who can give you the world, and I'm not talking about with money. Because Clare if you asked me I would burn all of my money, or give it away to charity. You know the real me, and the real me is the person asking you this questioned.
Will you come to Australia with me?
I start filming my new movie tomorrow. I'll be there for three months, I know your last day of school is Monday. I'm leaving Tuesdays, two days from now. I know you start college in September, spend your last summer with me. Being with me, loving me for the man you know I am. I wont pressure you into saying yes, I'll meet you at the gate. At 2:00 P.M. at gate 4B, your ticked will be in this envelope. Your dad or Stacy can take you. Just please don't say no right away think about it. Don't worry about your parents, because they've already said year. Something about us being young and in love.
Cliche, I know. But I do love you and I want to be with you, I want, I need one more chance. If you say no, then its okay with me. I wont say I'll give up because thats not me, you know that. I love you Clare and I want to be with you, so please just think about it.
Don't let Alli, Adam, Imogen, or me cloud your judgment, just do it because you want to or because you don't. Stay or Go Edwards? It's always been your choice. Hopefully, I'll see you tomorrow. If not I understand. I love you Clare and your the greatest person ever. Don't let anyone tell you different, okay Clare?
See you soon.
Yours Truly, Forever
Eli Goldsworthy.
TWO DAYS LATER:
I tapped my foot against the carpeted floor in the airport. I was an hour early, I hadn't been able to sleep. I was never one for surprises, and the anticipation was killing me. Oz sat next to me, his black t-shirt a size to small, his boot claud foot was a comforting space from mine. He hadn't said a word since we've arrived and I was thankful to have such a quiet body guard. My parents had taken an earlier flight with Ethan so I could have my privacy if she did or didn't show.
I had a beanie covering my head and a hood pulled over to cover my features. When I move to the gate I'll put on my Ray-Ban sunglasses so a lot of people wouldn't notice me. Hopefully. I looked at the two hands on my black wrist watch, the one Clare got me for my nineteenth birthday back in February. The one that she accidentally, had a matching one. I smirked at the thought of that day, then sighed. I put my hands over my face and relaxed my elbows on my knees. I was in such a daze that I didn't hear Oz get up or put his hand on my shoulder.
"Eli. It's time." Oz's voice was deep. I sighed and removed my hands, looking up then at my watch. It was fifteen till two and our plane was boarding. We walked over to the gate, looking so I can see every person coming my way and I waited.
Waited until I saw auburn curls bouncing through the crowd, till I saw her face glowing out of everyones, I waited- till there was a tape on my shoulder. My heart dropped to my stomach, and I slowly turned around.
"Elijah! Can I have your autograph?" The screaming girl smile.
PLEASE IGNORE ANY MISTAKES, I'VE BEEN WORKING ON A RESEARCH PAPER FOR FIVE HOURS NOW. BUT THIS WAS FLOATING IN MY HEAD AND I HAD TO WRITE IT DOWN. I ALSO HAVE A WHOLE STORY LINE PLANNED OUT FOR THIS, SO IT WONT GO HITAUS LIKE MY OTHER TWO STORIES.
Review please & thank you
Mac.