Day by day. Hour by hour. Minute by minute.
Every minute, we grew farther apart, and you and her grew closer. Our world was collapsing, falling apart, but at the same time, a new world was forming between you and her.
The two of you. It almost made me sick. Haruhi was... so beautiful, graceful, but at times, clueless. You were... my twin, the one I had known since we were born, but also the selfish, immature one. Despite your flaws, I loved you both.
I loved you both...I loved you both, but you didn't love me back. Why did you two only love each other? I deserved to be loved, not you, Hikaru. I was caring, loving, and I had control of my anger.
Setting up that date between the two of you was my worst decision. Since then, we have not played the 'Which one is Hikaru-Game!' We were not gaining enough wages in the club any more, and we lost all of our customers. We no longer sleep in the same bed. We no longer finished each other's sentences. People no longer confused us.
No more confusion? That bothered me. I actually kinda enjoyed being mixed up with you. That way, only we knew who we were. Now, people knew which twin was you and which twin was me because I rarely smiled now. I was often slouched over, alone in the corner, with an expression of hatred on my face.
I looked up at you, and noticed how you were beaming at Haruhi. She was giggling and holding a bouquet of roses. You noticed I was staring at you, and we locked eyes.
Damn, you had such beautiful eyes. Hazel-green. They went so well with your red-orange hair and your periwinkle blazer. It made you look sexy, hot.
I mentally kicked myself. You're my twin. I can't and shouldn't think of you in that way. Twins don't do that.
I snapped out of my thought and realized you were now standing in front of me.
"Kaoru," you said, "Is there something you want?"
"You're the one came over here!" I replied, embarrassed.
"Oh, but Kaoru, you were obviously daydreaming about me!" you teased.
"Was not!"
"Were too!"
"Why don't you two pipe down?" Haruhi intervened.
You said with a sly smile, "Anything for you, sweetie!" You said it as if you wanted to rub it in my face.
The two of you walked away, holding hands. Before you turned the corner, I saw you kiss Haruhi on the forehead.
It made me want to vomit. Your love for her is nothing compared to my love for the both of you. Now, that I actually thought about it, I couldn't tell which one of you I loved more. That didn't really matter though, because I was never going to get the love back.
"Kaoru!" I heard a voice call. "Get your ass over here!"
It was that blonde air-head. I despised him. He was so annoying with his 'Daddy' thing. If I were really that idiot's son, I would have run away awhile ago.
"Kaoruuuuu!" Tamaki whined.
With that, I stood up in one swift motion and began to head out the door. The 'King' followed behind me, teasing.
"What's the matter, Kaoru? Are you jealous of your brother?" When the moron said that, I turned around punched that sorry son-of-a-bitch straight in the nose.
Blood ran down his face, staining his blazer."Bwaaaah! Mommy!" Tamaki called.
"You better leave me the fuck alone, or I will smash the rest of your face in!" I spat at him, running out the Third Music Room.
I ran outside of the school to see you and Haruhi walking home. I decided to follow you.
After walking for about 20 minutes, you stopped in front of an apartment building.
"Goodbye, Haruhi! See you tomorrow morning!" You let go of her hand.
"See you, Hikaru." Haruhi responded, somewhat flatly.
She walked up to her apartment, where she waved goodbye to you and blew you a kiss. You smiled, just like you used to smile when we would play our games.
My face flushed red. Why in the hell are you replacing me? I'm your twin! Do you want me to despise you? Never mind that, you don't even get the choice any more.
You began the long walk home to our house, while I began the climb into Haruhi's apartment window that she left open.