I felt bit awkward at the whole situation i was thrown into.I had just came back to Forks after being away for few years for personal had felt a good solution back then,but truthfully i really had missed everything.I had missed this town and my father Charlie,my adorkable older sister Bella who i however had not seen that often after my departure from used to visit us occasionally,but that was it.I already were away and living with my aunt Olivia when dad had called me and told me that Bells is moving in with i had been slightly skeptical of it cause i vaquely still remember how Bella used to whine to me that she hated Forks and couldn't wait to go back to Arizona,but maybe she changed her mind,who knows
I never myself have liked Arizona as the air is too dry and hot tough i did visit mom and Bella,but truthfully to me Forks always have been a home. Every since when dad and mom got divorce,i stayed with dad. Forks always have and will be my home. Few years back though things were different and after a suicide attempt due of the bullying,dad and mom together decided to send me to live in Italy,Volterra as my aunt Olivia was living there with her family. I had always been a bit chubby and i had braices and i had glasses.
The funniest part in this all is that the bully used to be someone i thought i could trust on used to be my friend and my protector and eventually i started to develop some feelings to him,but then it all went to soon became my tormentor and his words and his actions caused me to break until eventually i just couldn't take it anymore and i tried to kill was dad who found me on a pool of blood with a suicide note next to me.I really don't remember much of it to be honest.I just remember that when i woke up at the hospital with dad sitting next to my bed,tears running down his is not much of a person who cries and therefore i knew it was serious and i knew what i did really shook him up
I don't think my bully ever knew what i did cause i told my dad i don't want people to know and we kept it a secret.I still have one living reminder from that day,at my wrist.A scar
I glanced down at my wrist and let out a shaky breath as i snapped out of my thoughts as Edward came to me. Bella's boyfriend,his family and Bella are throwing me a 'welcome back' party since its officially my first day..or..night back in Forks.I did miss this place and maybe i will learn to like it here again. and his family seems quite nice,though they are oddly pale.
"You alright Rose?" Edward asked me politely as he offered me a glass of non-alcoholic champagne.I nodded as i took the glass,shrugging slightly "I'm nervous of my first day in school will be..odd" i confessed,small shiver going through my spine at the idea of seeing all those people. I didn't have to worry about my bully cause luckily he didn't go school and hallelujah i said in my mind
"It will be fine,trust me" Edward said,small chuckle leaving from his lips as the petite brunette Alice walked over to us,grin spreading on her Lips,she was indeed adorable little thing "Of course it will be 'll have us there" Alice said in chippery tone and small chuckle escaped from my lips as i nodded.I knew that somewhat i could count on them and i knew i still had friends,but i was just afraid of their reactions for me suddenly coming back after so much of time passing
"I know" I said,clicking my glass into hers before bringing the glass to my lips,taking a small sip from it.I wanted to believe that everything was going to be alright. Maybe i just needed to have some faith in me.I mean i knew i was different.I was so much stronger and more confident that i had been back then.I was no longer that sad little girl who let people ran her over. I am not that same fat girl anymore.I truthfully felt like that actually once in my life i actually was a swan instead of a duck.
But one thing was certain,i wasn't going to let Paul Lahote bring me down anymore