Silence

Hey everyone its been awhile…. heh...yeah.. being a senior sucks, anyway I've entered this contest from ThatGeekyG1rl and I chose:

:TMNT Season 4 ep 1- Leo's suffering and blaming himself for everything that happened to Splinter therefore killing himself in the process, not sleeping and having to be forced to drink and eat by Honeycutt while being held down by his brothers.

I got a real good feel for this and I'd really want to write something dedicated to Remcicles for she really inspired me to write again, so I am back from my hiatus yay! So on with the story!

Silence.

What is this feeling? Is this what death feels like? I'm still breathing, but the air feels so tense it's like breathing through water, like drowning. I've felt this before, several times. The water fills your lungs till there is no air except for the steady stream of bubbles that mock your dwindling fight for existence and the rush of cold that numbs you till you freeze. I've felt this! I know this feeling! Yet, I'm alive. I don't know how. It just is.

It sort of reminds me of how the earth ended, heh funny, it's gone. It just is.

My name is Leonardo, I am a survivor who did nothing but watch everyone and everything I knew disappear before my eyes as their lives turned into oblivion.

*beep…...beep…..beep…...beep.*

That was the only sound that filled the small medbay where Leo currently resided abroad professor Honeycutt's Ship.

"Hey bro" Donnie said softly as he broke the silence of the room while checking Leo's vitals. He was met with much expected since, the type that Donnie has come to hate. Leo seemed to be laying in some sort of induced coma, asleep for four days now, but it had to be done. A tube was inserted by Professor Honeycutt down Leo's throat. It was currently sending a trail of this nasty light brown liquid down to the current patient's stomach. Usually Honeycutt would come do this but Donnie needed to be with Leo for a moment. His hand was grasping Leo's tight. He had taken a seat next to Leo, waiting for the feeding machine to send out a beep to let him know it was done.

"Hey…"

Donnie looked up to see Raph leaning on the doorway.

"How's he doing?"

"Same…"

"Can I see 'im?"

"Sure"

As Raph entered the room he only felt guilt and sadness eat away at his insides. He looked down at his elder brother's still form, he internally wept to see his brother hooked up to so much machinery. 'How did we let him go on like this for so long…" he thought he took a seat next to Leo. His heart filled with rage at the thought of his brother being in yet another coma...but this time, he felt the ice in his stomach take out the rage making him feel numb because as raph thinks deeper into it… he let this happen.

"Hey Raph, we should get going."

Raph looks up at Donnie who had already removed the feeding tube, a sight that Raph was happy not to see, for whenever the tube was put in or taken out Leo's body would jerk as if in pain, and Raph just purely hated it, and sometimes his protective nature would take over. He slowly got up from the chair as Donnie replaced the tube with a breathing mask.

"Yeah… sure, Mikey is probably waiting, since he like to stay clear of here."

with one final gentle squeeze to leo's hand he left with Donnie, to once again close the room in darkness and silence. Little did they know Leo was listening and tried to squeeze back.

' No, don't go, don't leave me alone!' yelled Leo mentally.

So Leo knowing his efforts to get them to come bsck in vain, continued to lay in his lifeless state. As he decended back into deep sleep he remembered the beginning of how all he knew crumbled around him and how the universe just won't let him dissapear.

3 weeks ago….

Leonardo opened his eyes to the blank walls of the Professor Honeycutt's spacecraft. He couldn't even sleep, how could he? Everyone is dead on earth and its his fault, he should have known better than to trust a madman like shredder...all he wanted was to watch his father fall, to watch as he was cut down like straw in a field.

Leo forced himself out of his designated bed, his movements were that of a robots, his body only moving because of natural force that allows him to continue, but his hazed over eye blue that had once been the excellent color of shining sapphires are now dull and lifeless.

His body wants to live but… his soul has already left.

"hey good morning bro…"

Leo turns his head to see Donnie, his face in a short of half smile. Donnie, his mind at a loss for words for once when all Leo does is just turn and continue his path towards the "main area" (that's what i'm going to call it, it's better than control room to me so yeah…)

Once he entered the room he saw Mikey running from Raph, Leo gives a quick sigh.

' Even when everything is gone they still manage to find ways to get at each other' Leo thought to himself as he sat down at the group table (yeah there is, bare with me, just imagine, the ship is going to be as I says it is!) Professor Honeycutt managed to find some food edible enough for them, April was helping him now get some ready for breakfast.

Off in the distance Donnie walked in with Casey they were both having a civil conversation for once….

"Woah dude, how down is he?" asks Casey

"Here is thing…I can't really tell." Donnie answered.

"what do you mean? how can you not tell?"

"Well Leo may suck at lying, but he is very good at hiding what he feels, usually we rely on his actions and the emotions his eyes display."

"wha…" asked Casey confused.

"Oh. My. God. let me dumb it down for you.."

"no, no that not what i meant, i mean how can you guys do that? Thats freaky!"

"We were all we had growing up, we are very close, well i guess we used to be…" Donnie said with traces of sadness in his voice.

"Oh Leo... Why can't you tell this time?"

"He is just...so calm.. and his eyes, I'm really worried about him."

"I'm sure he is just trying to get over things, it's only been a week, he just may need some more time to adjust dude. For now lets eat! Hey April babe how's it going in there?!"

"Yeah You're pro-... Hey wait! April is not your Babe!" Donnie yelled as he then chase after Casey as they both ran towards the ship's kitchen in there really annoying quest for April's love.

Leo rolls his eyes after Donnie and Casey ran after April, he then continued you to stare at the table. His wrists were itching, Leo started to re-adjust his wrist bandages, when all of a sudden..

"Leo save me!" Mikey yelled as he pounced upon Leo, which was soon followed by an angry Raph.

"MIKEY!"

"LEO!"

"ENOUGH!" yelled Leo pushed the two wrestling brothers off of him, trying to keep his composure leo took a deep breath in and out before standing, and placing the chair back in its place.

"What exactly is going?" Leo said as he tried to continue with his bandaging.

"Mikey colored my shell pink!" said Raph eyes burning with the fire of rage that was to soon kill Mikey.

" Sorry we needed something to laugh at! It's been so tense around here!" Mikey protested.

Leo slapped his hand to his face, a headache forming , he doesn't need this right now.

" Mikey please go get something to remove the mess you've made, and Raph please calm down and-"

"Calm Down?! you want me to calm down? Why are you defending him?! You should know aswell as I do that there is nothing to laugh about right now!"

"Raph I know and I'm not defen-"

"YES, yes you are, but you don't care do you? You don't really care about anything right now do you? all you have been doing right now is moping around! Did you even care about Mast-"

Before Raph could finish that sentence April and Honeycutt came in with food yeling "Breakfast!" Before Raph continued Leo has suddenly disappeared. Raph sighed

" See I told you!" Raph turned to see Mikey still there.

" Its way to tense.."

"hey aren't you supposed to get stuff to clean this?"

"aren't you supposed to stop being ugly?"

"Why you, I'm going to kill you!"

TBC….

sorry Remcicles, I'm a day late :'(. I'm hoping this is good, I've been feeling pretty down about my stories… I don't know.. Well any there is chapter 1, hope you all like it! ;)

Leo: Insanity! WHY YOU HURT ME?!

Me : because I love you and your my favorite!

Leo: Wha?

ME: :)