AN: Hi, I hope you like this. I have an idea for where this is going, but not until I get 7 review. Why seven, you ask? Because five is what i like I would get and ten is what I want. (Also because 7 is just cool)

To those who have read my story Moments . This did start out as that chapter I promised you, but I liked it too much so a chapter fic is born! And this one will be finished...

Disclamer: I really own Twilight *ninja lawyers drop from roof* Ok, ok I lied! I don't own twilight. Now don't kill me!

Alice hadn't been herself lately. She was quite and still. It just wasn't her. I can't help but blame myself for this. I, Jasper Whitlock, almost killed my wife's best friend and future sister. I don't think I can stay here anymore. I can't hurt Alice anymore. Alice said it wasn't my fault. I had reviewed the night over and over in my head.

"Alice do we have to do this. Bella doesn't even want to." I whined as I followed my one true love around the house as she placed bowls full of flowers around the open spaces.

"Yes Jasper. This makes me happy so shouldn't you want to help and be here."

"You know I care about nothing other than your happiness."

"They will be here in a few moments, so if you value my happiness as much as you say you do, then go get the gifts and put them on the table."

I smiled at my tiny little pixie. "Yes Ma'm"

Later in the woods

She had been so happy, and I messed it up. I'm a sick monster. Bella is Edward's soul mate. Like Alice is mine. If I were Edward I would have killed me by now. I don't blame Alice if she doesn't want me back. I pressed my face harder into my arm that rested on my pulled up knee. I was sitting against our rock. Alice would know where to find me. If she still wanted me… I stared unseeingly at the ground.

A small shape flashed around the edges of my vision. Alice dropped down from the top of the rock and started rambling about a book she was reading, trying to distract me. After a while she seemed to run out of things to say. We sat in silence.

"I'm truly sorry."

"For what?" she responded absentmindedly.

She knew what. I had almost killed her best friend. I was tearing this family apart. She could try to hide it but I could feel the pain she was feeling.

"You know what, Alice." I spat out. More disgusted with myself then ever.

"It's not your fault." She sounded distracted. I looked up at her to find her lost in a vision. " What do you see?"

"You'll find out. We need to go back to the house." Her eyes pulled back into the present and she stood quickly. I remained sitting.

"What if they don't want me back?"

"Jasper. They want you back. I have seen it. Now come on. We really have to go. Edward is doing something stupid." Alice replied as she took of into the woods. I got up and followed my lover's trail home.

I quietly pulled a pen and a piece of paper out of our desk. Laying the paper on the desk I started to write.

Dear Ms. Cullen,

I'm truly sorry but I can no longer stand aside while I harm this family. I'm leaving. I know at first that this will seem hard, but I promise you are better off without me here. I am a monster. You are an angel. I can't drag you down this road with me. It's not fair to you. I was not created for this life. I am truly sorry I have wasted your time. I hope this doesn't hold you down for too long. I also wish that it didn't have to be this way.

No matter what you say, I know that what has happened this past month can be traced back to my lack of control. You have always said that it just took practice, and while I have tried, this life just isn't working for me. If I can't control myself around humans then I don't deserve to live with a family as good as the Cullen's

Alice, know that even now, when it seems that I no longer care for you, I love you with all my heart and am really, truly sorry that it has came to this.

Forever yours,

Jasper

I carefully folded the letter and placed it on our, no her, bed. I had to get out of here now before she saw what I was planning. I wouldn't let her talk me out of this. I though of how she would feel as I walked across the open field of golden wheat that served as the Cullen's yard. She would be upset, yes. But in the end this was better for her. I left her life taking nothing but my torn heart and a picture of my one true love.

Remember...7 reviews earns you the next chapter... That I am starting tonight (this was written at 12:39 am, so I will post in the morning)... You do want to see what Jasper is planing to do right?