A/N: Since I had too many mistakes and not even I knew where I was going I decided to rewrite it so review and tell me what you think

Disclaimer: I don't own Attack on titan

Prologue

Mae's POV

I want to keep my eyes closed and stay asleep not worrying about my father yelling at me to keep form or my mother crying over a picture of my brother Thomas who died when the titans rushed in Wall Maria

******Flashback*****

We are gathered in the living room to wish Thomas luck since he joined the survey corps a group of people who explored outside of the walls that was built when the titans first arose

My father looks at him proudly while mom is balling her eyes out " I want you to stay safe" my father tells thomas looking at him in the eye

Thomas rolls his eyes" I am not going to try to die" Thomas says playfully

I look at my brother and bite my lip to suppress tears" I will miss you" I finally squeeze out trying to sound as tough as I could

My brother looks at me then he pats my head" don't worry squirt" he says before hugging us all

The next day

I wake up to the sound of alarms blaring my mother screams from downstairs "Come on Mae" she yells as she runs upstairs and starts to pack a bag I get up and do the same before we run to the gate

Once we get to the docks we hear a man yell that the kids are to get on the boats first over the frantic voices I look at them and I hug them before getting on the last boat that had three people my age huddled together

They were all crying until the one in the middle yelled " I will kill every last one of them all" The girl tried to calm him down and the blond one looked at me

"Sorry about that" he said sheepishly "My name is Armin Arlert, the one that screamed was Eren Yeager, and the one that is trying to calm him down is Mikasa Ackerman his adopted sister" Armin says

" What is wrong with him" I blurt out without thinking he looks at Eren who nods before speaking

"His parents died because of a titan" Armin says sadly

I look at all their sad faces feeling guilty that I asked I turn away and welcome the silence

Once we get there I wave goodbye and wait at the docks for my parents wondering how we were going to survive

The next day

We were lucky that my father who was a part of the garrison had relatives who lived in wall rose because they said that we could stay until we got back on our feet we were watching TV when a knock startled the house my dad went to the door and answered it

"Are you Toshiro Saito" a man asked and my father nodded " we are sorry to inform you but your son Thomas was found dead" he said stiffly before bowing and walking away

My dad closes the door and goes to my mom who is crying her eyes out " It's my fault that he wasn't ready" she whispers

My father looks at her sadly " don't worry we will better prepare Mae" he says looking at me

*****Flashback ends******

Ever since then they thought it was their duty to prepare me of course my father constantly told me that I was going to join even if he didn't say that I already made up my mind to if he would have told me when I was younger I would have said that I have no motivation to but after my brothers death I really saw how evil the titan were I know one thing I will join the survey corps

A few days later

I sit in the class listening intently as the teacher talks about how Wall Maria was built first, then it was Wall Rose, and Finally Wall Sina the capital. Then she talks about their weakness which is on the nape of their neck drawing a diagram and then she lastly talks about the military police that protect the capital, The garrison who protect the people, and Survey corps the people who go on expeditions outside of the walls

After that class we take another one that teaches us how to use the 3DMG's, swords, and hand to hand combat

"OK class I want you to chose your partner to spar with because today is hand to hand" the teacher says

I look around assessing everyone my gaze first lands on Annie Leonhart even though she is a great fighter she doesn't talk to anyone and stays to herself,Sasha blouse is good when she is not eating (which she is constantly), Jean Kirstein who is full of himself, Marco Bott has too much pride, and Connie Springer would not take it seriously

Then my eyes land on Mikasa who is watching Eren as he challenges Annie to a fight

"So do you want to spar" I ask as I walk toward her

She looks at me briefly before looking back at Eren and shrugs "Sure" she says

I decide to start the attack while she looks at Eren worriedly "That was cheating" she said when she fell on the ground

"The titans don't think so" I say with a smirk she rolls her eyes before getting up and she gets into stance

We start the fight that ended in a stalemate but we wasn't upset we smiled at each other before bowing and heading back to our rooms were I went in the bathroom to take my shower

I shiver as I step out so I dry myself quickly before getting dressed and going to my room sitting on the chair near the window and I start my book

I am halfway done with the book when my cell phone's ring interrupts a good part"Hello" I say through the receiver

"My sources tell me that you are distracting you from doing your best" I hear my dad's voice say instantly

I keep silent rooted to the spot not knowing what to say

" I hope that those friends of yours aren't a problem" my father says in a stern voice

"No sir they are not I will try harder" I mumble back

"I hope so" he says before the line went dead I rub my temples a sigh escapes my lips " I am being careless" I whisper to myself wishing that the ground would swallow me up I decide to go to bed without supper not feeling hungry anyways