Summary: Bella is an only child; she lives with Charlie and dates the hottest person in forks. But her life is not as simple as that. She has a forbidden love for a beautiful copper haired boy but he doesn't return it and she is abused; by more than one person. Will Bella find a way out of her personal hell or will she be trapped forever?
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God forbid happiness find me,
And putrid anger swallows me whole.
Rebellious thoughts deteriorate with wishful thinking,
But the urge to spit venom increases.
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Do holy spirits debate me?
Or is it the person alone?
Five me patience, let me be,
As I see loneliness and sacred sentiments disperse.
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Confusion swept the insides,
And the waves of power confront me.
As before, God forbid happiness find me,
And I shall remain alone evermore
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Written by LastRedAppleStanding (Erin)
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Bella's Pov:
I groaned in silence, once again we was made to watch Romeo and Juliet, not only was this story shit, but it was also suicidal, I was already in a shit mood, all of the freshman were made to come to school an hour earlier as a punishment, so this was adding to my list. "Miss Swan" Mr Berty stared at me in frustration, "Yes sir?" I replied in a voice that can only be explained as boredom, "What has Tybalt and Mercutio both have in common, Miss Swan?" "Tybalt and Mercutio have both got the desire to love, for example Tybalt loves his gang as you call the Montague's the same as the way Mercutio loves the Capulet's, they show this in the 1994 version of Romeo and Juliet when Mercutio stands up for his friend when Tybalt is accusing Romeo for an sin that Romeo has not done, sir." The class stared in silence as I tried to explain the answer the best I could, someone snickered, I turned my head to see how it was. Tanya Denali the class bitch, "What you snickering at?" I asked trying my best not to flinch at the way the pain cascaded up my neck.
Tanya spat back. "You are such a 'Miss know it all' you think you're the best just because you date the hottest boy in school". She put inverted quotations around the 'miss know it all'. My face and neck went red; I could feel it, knowing everyone was snickering, "No Tanya, I don't think it. I know it. That's why I got an A* in my exam and you got an F, and as for my boyfriend you better back OFF!" Tanya flicked her long blonde hair and marched up to my desk "Or what Smelly Swan, you gonna get your dad to arrest me, for bullying?" I stood up trying once again not to flinch and punched her as hard as I could in her fake plastic nose of hers.
"No Tanya, I can fight my own battles unlike some people, BITCH!" The bell rang signalling the end of 2nd period, I got my bag and walked out pushing people out of my way. I was halfway down the hall when the principal called my name on the intercom, "ISABELLA SWAN COME TO MY OFFICE IMMEDIATELY!" Great…I was in trouble once again for something that is not my fault. I made my way to the principal's office ignoring the stares of hatred, of course everyone knew, everyone in this shitty school just loved Tanya.
"Miss Swan, I am once again disappointed in you, and as a result I am going to have to suspend you for the week so you can think about your actions." Mr Greene's face went red from lack of breath as my heart went in to overdrive. I couldn't get suspended, i just couldn't'. "Please Sir, I promise to be on my best behaviour." I felt the panic bubbling to the surface, "Miss Swan we as a school have given you enough chances, if it was not for your attendance and good grades then trust me you would have been out of this school years ago, so take this as a blessing and be thankful you are not permanently suspended."
"But si…" he caught me off half way through my sentence "ENOUGH Miss Swan you are free to leave." I reluctantly got up to leave; there was no use in trying he just wouldn't listen. Once again it was raining as I stepped out of Forks High school, no surprise there. If the sun ever showed its face at this dump of a town, then vampires sparkled. I had to walk back because Jake my boyfriend of two years was still at school, I suppose this wasn't too bad considering what he would do to me. I shuddered as I remembered the first time.
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2 months earlier:
"Come on babe stop being so frigid" Jake whined in my ear, we were currently in his garage, and once again he was pressuring me for sex. Everything was fine when we first met, we were the cutest couple that we even won an award, but lately he was acting weird. "No Jake I want to wait and not be pressured in to it." I shrugged out of his grasp and went to walk out, but he grabbed me back and I fell over. He was leaning over me In the next instant and I could feel his hot breath on my face. "No Bella I want it now! I don't care if you're not ready, I am! I'm sick and tired of waiting for your pansy ass." I tried unsuccessfully to push him over but it was no use he was just too heavy.
"Jake get off of me. Your hurting me" – but he just laughed and pulled down my skinny jeans. My breathing picked up, and I could not comprehend what was happing, this can't be happing I chanted over and over to myself, but it was. "JAKE, PLEASE DON'T DO THIS!" I shouted at him but he just carried on laughing, my sobs eventually took over and then I felt it, it felt big and it really stung "Please, please stop" I whimpered but it was no us., "My Bella, oh god you are so tight" he moaned in pleasure. I fell silent and closing my eyes I prayed for it to be over. Finally after what seemed like hours he stopped. "See Bella that wasn't so bad was it?" he purred in my ear, I pulled myself up and sprinted for the exit.
He didn't try to stop me, but he was back the next day to discuss a few things with Charlie.
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It's been like that for the last month and a half, every day before school and after school. To be fair I bet if other people were in the same situation as me they would go to the police right away; But not me. I can't, my dad IS the police, and if I tried telling other police officers, I dread to think what he would do to me. I made my way down the same street that I have been walking down for the last two and a half years. I moved here because my mom Renee had just gotten married and me being me thought I would give them some space and move in with Charlie. Now I wish I never brought up the situation, and got a part time job. The wind blew my hair in to my face as I made my way up to the porch. I got the key from under the heave, pushed open the front door, and made my way into my own personal hell.
This is my first ever Fan Fiction with LastRedAppleStanding (Erin) being my beta. If you liked this chapter please review. Lots of love cookie monster and Dammy Jodger...x (Southern Accents Are Hot. AKA Terri)
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