I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
'Cause no one else cared

After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here?

Leave out all the rest by Linkin Park

A Delena fanfic.

Authors note: Okay, so this is my first real fanfic. And I'm really excited to write it and see what other people think about it.

So this fanfic will kinda follow the TV series, and then not really. This story will start in like season 4, just about the time Damon and Elena spends their first night together, and when Caroline and Stefan figures out that Elena is sired to Damon. But this will just have a plot twist to it.

And now without more introduction the first chapter:

Chapter 1: The Truth.

Elena was walking away from the Lockwood mansion over the front lawn. She had to find Jeremy! She had to figure out why he had attacked her like that. And about those dreams Matt was talking about. She wanted him to tell her EVERYTHING, no more lies.

She heard Stefan running behind her, yelling her name. But she ignored him, she didn't really wanted to talk with him after what happened yesterday. A part of her wished that is was Damon coming up behind her. He would know what to do about Jeremy. Elena actually just wanted to talk to Damon right now, to let him know everything. She was about to tell him earlier, just before that weird professor had interrupted them.

"Elena, wait!" Stefan shouted, he sounded like he just ran a marathon.

"I have to find Jeremy, this shouldn't be happing to him." Elena said, and her throat hurt a bit, after Jeremy had shot a wooden stake into her throat, when she talked.

"Elena wait, this is my fault." Stefan said finally catching up with her. Laying his hand on her shoulder to stop her and get her to look at him.

"What are you talking about?" Elena stop dead in her tracks to look at Stefan.

"I'm starting to think, that when a hunter kills a vampire the urge to keep kill gets stronger." Stefan said and looked everywhere but at Elena. He didn't feel like looking her in the eye and telling her that he had just made her brother into a killing machine.

"Tell me that Jeremy hasn't been with you this entire time?!" Elena said angrily and caught Stefan's eye for a second, but it was enough to confirm what she feared. "Tell me that you haven't been making him kill vampires, Stefan?!" Elena wasn't just angry now she was mad.

"We need the map to get the cure," Stefan easily shot back, he didn't sound the least worried about what it would do to Jeremy.

"If getting my humanity back, means stripping Jeremy of his, then I...I don't want the cure!" Elena said, not as mad as she was hurt over Stefan's indifference for Jeremy.

"He's the only way to fixing all this!" Stefan shot back angry now.

"You mean me... The only way to fix me." Elena wasn't mad anymore, the only feeling she had right now was hurt, and it was eating her up from the inside. She was hurt that no one understood her, but Damon. She was hurt that when everyone looked at her all they saw was something that was wrong, except Damon. She was hurt that NO one understood the disgust and sickness she felt when drinking blood other than straight from the vein, except Damon. Damon understood how she felt. Damon didn't see her as something wrong, and Damon sure as hell didn't judge her because she only could drink blood straight from the vein. She didn't have to walk on eggshells around Damon, because he loved her for who, and what, she was now. He didn't look back and thought about how Elena was before she became a vampire. He looked at her now, and saw her as she was, and loved it. Elena couldn't handle it anymore, she had to get away from Stefan. "You don't have to love me like this. This is who I am now. The old Elena died when she went off that bridge. Let her go."

When Elena could see the hurt in Stefan's eyes, she felt a twat of guilt, but couldn't make herself regret what she had just said, 'cause it was the truth. And he would have to get over her at some point, so he might as well start today. Suddenly Stefan wasn't looking at her anymore, but over her shoulder behind her, and his eyes were filled with hate. Elena turn around to see who it was, just about the time she also heard his steps going towards her and Stefan, slowly. She knew who it was before she had even laid eyes on him. Damon. Elena felt her heart beating faster, and suddenly she felt a calming feeling spreading throughout her entire body. She felt like she just wanted to go throw her arms around him and hug him tight. And then bury her face in his chest and just cry.

Damon looked at Elena and then at Stefan. He had heard everything they had been arguing about. 'Great,' he thought, 'now we also have a psycho Jeremy to deal with, as if we didn't have enough on our hands!' He was still looking at Stefan, but now he looked back at Elena, and saw how hurt she was. He felt his hate for his brother grow. Stefan had really mess up big time, and really hurt Elena with everything he did to Jeremy. 'Good luck with getting out of this one, little brother' Damon thought towards Stefan. Damon knew he wouldn't hear it, but that didn't matter. His hate for Stefan grew even more. Stefan had everything Damon dreamed about. Elena. Stefan had friends that would die for him, friends that didn't judge him for his dark past, even though Stefan's past was much darker than Damon's had ever been.

Elena looked back at Stefan, and the last thing Damon saw of Stefan, was him turning his back towards Elena and walking away. 'Yeah, run away like a dog with its tail between its legs!' Damon thought to himself. Damon looked back at Elena and saw that she was starting to tear up.

"Hey, hey, it's gonna be okay. We'll figure something out. We'll get Jeremy back, I promise, okay?" Damon said as he put his arms around Elena. She instantly laid her head on his chest sobbing.

"He attacked me!" *sob* "You should have seen him, it was like he was this whole other person!" *sob* "Like he couldn't recognize me as his sister. He saw me as a monster, Damon!" Elena buried her face in Damon's chest again and kept sobbing. Damon bent down and kissed Elena lightly on her hair. He didn't know why he did it, but suddenly he just had the urge to kiss her. Like it would magically make all her pain and hurt go away.

"Who? Jeremy, or Stefan?" Damon said trying to lighten the mood. And it worked, Elena smiled and stop sobbing, even though the tears were still running down her cheeks.

"Them both, I guess." Elena said and looked down, away from those ice baby blue eyes, -that always looked like they held the whole word and all its mysteries inside them- and that black as coal hair- which looked like the softest puppy fur, and when you touched it, was even softer.

Damon put his hand under Elena's chin, forcing her to look at him "Dry your eyes princess, we have to find your crazy vampire killing brother before he runs into Blondie or Barbie-Klaus and kills someone or gets himself killed. Do you have any idea where he went?"

"Matt took him after Stefan pulled him of off me. But I have no idea where Matt took him after that." Elena answered while she tried to wipe the tears off her face without ruining her makeup.

"Okay, well I'll just call Matt to hear if he's okay, and were he and Jeremy are at. And then we'll figure out the rest, after that." Damon said turning around and pulling out his phone.

"Oh, and Damon," Elena said, making Damon turn around, "Thank you. For everything. You have been a great help to me the last couple of days." Elena could feel herself blushing for saying this out loud and for the way Damon looked at her. Again he didn't look at her like there was something wrong with her, but like he loved her. Elena suddenly felt the urge to kiss him. He wasn't that far away. She would just have to take one or two steps and then stand up on her tiptoes, to press her lips against his. And that was exactly what she did. At first Damon was so surprise by the kiss that he just stood there, but after a few seconds he gave into the kiss, and kissed her back. Before the kiss got too passionate, Elena pulled away and looked Damon directly in his eyes. He looked like a big questions mark, not really sure what to do. She kissed him quickly one more time, before turning her back to him and walking away. Elena could feel Damon's eyes pierce though her back as she walked away. She thought back to the look that was on Damon's face when she had kissed him. It was a look of a lover, he really did love her. And she had to admit to herself that she loved him.

Authors PS: Okay so this first chapter is pretty much following the TV series in the start. But I still feel like I've gotten some new perspectives into the story. And I promise you that when I get further into the storyline it will break more and more away from the TV series. I really hope you like this first chapter in this story. I don't know how many chapters there will be yet, or how often I will update it, but we'll cross that bridge when we come to it. :D
Sooo let me know what you think in the reviews. :)