The black sky was shimmering with bright stars that clustered together and scattered apart, it seemed as if a new world was forming. The night of the new moon always made the night somewhat brighter because it was the stars turn to show off how much light and brilliance they could burn.
Kagome loved staring at the sky like this from the earth so she could imagine what it would be like to fly up and just grab the stars, but not everyone enjoyed tonight as she did. Her half-demon companion was a perfect example of one.
Inuyasha has to turn every new moon into a human due to the human blood of his mother. His bright silver hair turned midnight black and so did his golden eyes. His dog ears shrank away and human ones sprouted from the sides of his face. All of his demon strength diminishes away and is replaced with the same mundane strength as Sango, Miroku, and Kagome.
What's worse of all is that he has to hide like a coward so that his enemies don't find out about his moments of weakness. Inuyasha was always fearless he didn't care if anybody, even Naraku, saw him in his human form. What would it matter anyway, since he was going to kill him one way or the other?
"Why am I the one that's gotta hide in the shed?!" Inuyasha growled," we're in the middle of the forest that's hundreds of miles away from Naraku's castle! This is stupid!"
"Calm down, Inuyasha," hushed Miroku, "it's only a precaution. You never know who might pop out of the wood work."
Sango nodded her head in agreement with the monk as she was holding her sleeping twin-tailed demon cat, Kirara. Inuyasha turned up his nose at them and grabbed his sword. He stormed out of the shed and walked over to the fire.
He spotted Kagome warming her hands around the fire with a blanket wrapped around her. He sat down next her placing his precious sword by his side and glared intently into the fire.
Kagome glanced over at his fixated glare of hate and couldn't help but give a sympathetic smile.
"You know," she said, "being human isn't as bad as you think it is."
"Oh yeah? How ya figure?" he snapped.
"Well for one, you can feel more emotions and understand the human heart. Our fears, our strengths, our happiness, our sadness." She paused for a moment. Kagome's eyes were now completely fixated on him. She stared at Inuyasha and reached out her hand for his and placed it gently on top of his and held it gently. As he felt her hand over his, a streak of red ran across his face.
They're eyes met in the glow of the fire.
"Even our desires."
Whether it was his human heart or his demon heart, Inuyasha felt it pulsing harder against his chest the longer Kagome held his hand. He grabbed Kagome's hand firmly in his and took his other hand to hold her face just enough to feel her warmth. The glow of the burning embers reflected into Kagome's eyes turning them into a soft shade of honey amber.
"Kagome," he whispered softly to her.
She took off her blanket and moved closer to Inuyasha to where their faces were only inches apart. Inuyasha pulled her closer to him, listened to the heavy breathing of both them to the point where they were in sync, and pressed his lips softly against hers. It was a first kiss. It was the first kiss that everyone dreamed of getting. It was sweet and easy and almost innocent. The kiss would have been short, but Inuyasha wasn't done.
His hand that held her face moved to the nape of her neck where his fingers twisted around in her hair. He deepened the kiss once he had a firm grip on her letting his tongue dance inside her mouth. As he pulled on her, Kagome moaned.
Inuyasha pulled back from the kiss to look at her and smile. It was either from the kiss or from the fire, but Kagome's face was a fair shade of red. She was gazing up at him and her face was overcome with a wave of happiness.
She wanted him. He wanted her. Why wasn't he kissing her right now?
He drove his lips against hers in frenzy. For a moment they lost their balance and they fell to the ground. Surprisingly enough, this didn't break their kiss; it only made them crave each other more. Kagome positioned her legs on either side of Inuyasha and gracefully circled her hips over him.
To not be out done, Inuyasha slid his down from her shoulders to her waist and down to her hips. His hands overlapped each other when they met at the small of her back. Inuyasha brought her down on him and motioned her hips to ride him.
Kagome could feel something hard rubbing against her ass. Had this been any other situation, Kagome would be running in the opposite, but this was Inuyasha. She loved him and she wanted him. All she allowed herself to do was let out a small moan saying yes.
She lowered her head down to his neck and began sucking on his neck. Inuyasha's body began to shake in reaction to Kagome's soft lips. He growled between his teeth as his hand slipped into her black hair encouraging her to continue.
Most of the words he was trying to form were inaudible but Kagome could make out a few of them. Most of them were mainly telling her to keep going others were curses.
Kagome wasn't kidding about earlier. Inuyasha had not only taken on the appearance of a human but he could also feel his desires pulsing through his veins- or his hard cock.
"Dammit, that feels so good. Oh, God. Kikyo!"
Who said Kikyo? Why would someone just blurt out Kikyo? What kind of jackass says that while he's about to make love to someone else? According to Kagome's pale stricken face, Inuyasha was that jackass.
"Wait a minute, Kagome" he said, "I didn't mean that, honest. I just- it's just that . . . you look like her!"
He obviously cared for her and he clearly wanted her almost as bad as she wanted him. Here and now was their chance-his chance- to be with one another, so why did he stop? He wanted to kiss her again to prove that he truly did want just that, but before he got the chance Kagome pulled away. She retreated back to the comfort of her blanket and stared blankly into the now dying fire.
"Kagome, that didn't come out right. Let me explain." He pleaded.
"It's ok," she whispered, "I get it. You don't have to force yourself. I completely understand. You're still hung over Kikyo, aren't you?"
She turned from the fire to stare at him with a hardened glare. Her eyes had a complete loss of all its passion that was there just moments ago. He stared back at her in shock. He wanted to tell her that she was way off and it wasn't because of Kikyo at all and she had nothing to with this. The only thing he was "hung over" was that he didn't get the chance to be with Kagome, not Kikyo, but neither of them seemed like they wanted to continue the subject.
Inuyasha returned to the shed where his friends appeared to be sound asleep, but were really eavesdropping on the whole incident. Their faces were still bright red from the couples "display". Inuyasha found an empty corner to rest and thought of Kagome before he drifted to sleep. He played two different images of her: her face leading up to the kiss and her face when he stopped himself during.
Inuyasha slammed his palm into his forehead and clawed at his skin. Perhaps, he thought, if he caused himself enough pain it would match the same pain Kagome had on her face. He cursed himself several times before finally drifting off to sleep, but he could feel regret hanging over his heart and on his lips.
While everyone else slept and the fire burned to embers, Kagome stayed awake to gaze up at the sky. She had thought if she looked long enough the stars would grant her an answer. As she stared at the sky, her fingers couldn't help but rub against her lips to make her remember the faint touch of Inuyasha's lips against hers. She sighed.
Maybe that was too sudden, I wasn't really thinking of Inuyasha's feelings. I was only thinking of my own, but was that so bad? Is it so bad to want the person you love? Is it so bad to want them to touch you like that? Is it so bad to want them to not have any second thoughts especially if their about a dead- emphasis on dead- ex-girlfriend.
Kagome tormented herself over this and became so frustrated she began to weep quietly so no one else could hear. In the midst of her crying, she felt the presence of a sacred jewel shard, but it wasn't a new one it had a sense of familiarity to it. She rose from her dirt bed to listen carefully for the sound of the shards crying out to her.
As she listened, she heard the wind blowing harder and off into the distance she spotted a cyclone. A sudden smile drew across her face and it was unexplained because out of all the times Koga showed up randomly, this time Kagome was both relieved and excited about him coming to see her so happy that she doused out the fire with dirt and ran into the forest.
It's not too much to ask. She thought rushing and running through the pitch black forest.
There is someone out there who loves me who wants to be with me and won't have any second thoughts about anything or anyone.
Kagome arrived in a vast empty space in the middle of the forest where she felt the presence of the shards the closest.
"Koga, are you here? Koga, I know you can hear me! I'm right here! Koga!" she hollered into the black gleaming night. Her voice bounced and echoed among the trees and there was no answer for a short while nothing but plain silence until the sound of a whirlwind clashing against branches perked her hears. When she turned around it came into clear view and the wind died down and from it came Koga, leader of the wolf demon tribe.
He had a light brown tan with bright blue eyes and long black hair that was pulled up into a ponytail. He wore his armor and a wolf fur pelt with his tail hanging behind. His pearly white fangs grinned widely as he stared at Kagome the woman whom he loved dearly.
"Kagome, it's great to see you."
She didn't reply to him all she wanted was to just stare at him and look into his eyes and was happy to find the emotion that Inuyasha lacked in his: passion! Her arms wrapped around his waist and rested her head gently on his chest and, despite the armor, she could feel his chest pounding faster and faster with each second she stood closer to him.
At first Koga was shocked, usually she was reluctant to even hold his hand in fear that the mutt face would throw a fit and try to start a fight. Breaking his concentration of Kagome's sudden embrace, he peered through the black night and saw that he was nowhere to be found it was just the two of them.
Normally, this would have been the perfect chance for him to tell her what he feels and just run away with her so they could finally be together, but he felt that there was an unresolved issue that lay beneath the surface. He held Kagome's shoulders and pushed her back so they could see each other face to face.
He wanted to ask her straight out if that stupid mutt face had hurt her in anyway and that if he had his head would be on a platter. She wanted to see more of his face to see the admiration and love he held for her. As he rose his head there was a false smile plastered on his face with a gloom color fading over his eyes. He was hiding his true intentions.
"Hey, Kagome, what are you doin' out here in the middle of the forest. Shouldn't that mutt Inuyasha be looking out for you?"
"Uh," she was hesitant, "he is or at least he thinks he is. I needed a break from him for a little bit. We, uh, we had a fight about something that I thought we both wanted but…."
She started remembering the "kiss" she and the young half-demon had shared earlier. She could still remember the touch of Inuyasha's breath brushing against her lips and how anxious she felt for him to just kiss her.
As her emotions were being swept away by the memory like a tidal wave, Kagome never realized how her physical body was reacting to the memory. Her body was shaking with anxiety. Her face had become deep red and her eyes were glazed over like a piece of glass covered in snow. Her fingers repeatedly rubbed over her lips where Inuyasha's skin had touched.
"Kagome?" he looked at her in confusion and couldn't understand what was wrong.
She kept replaying the scene over and over again in her head and kept wondering why he didn't follow through. Was it too sudden? Does he still have feelings for Kikyo? Why wasn't her love enough for him? Could she ever be enough for him?
As these questions hit her raced through her head, she fell to the ground heartbroken and her eyes began to flood.
"I can't…be enough," she choked through her tears, "I'm never….going to be enough. There's...no more...room...in his hear….for me. He…can't….love me."
Koga stood over her and just stared in grief and sympathy. Kagome had always smiled in front of him and he had only seen her cry once when she thought that Inuyasha had died in an explosion. She always had a positive attitude about everything and that there was a silver lining for everything, but when she cried it was because of Inuyasha.
He was the one who had caused her so much pain and suffering. He was the one who never took responsibility for the pain he caused. He was the reason why Koga would never be able to be with her. The thought of her continuing to be with him made his blood boil and rage; he finally he snapped.
"He doesn't deserve you, Kagome!"
"Huh?"
"If he's the reason why you're crying and the reason that you ran all the way out here, then he doesn't deserve you at all! I can make you happy and I would never make you hide your tears from me like that mutt is making you do right now! I'm in love with you, Kagome. You know I've been in love you ever since the day we met. When are you going to realize than I'm better than he is?"
Kagome wiped the tears from her eyes and stared up at him. Koga's eyes were filled with passion and hunger that it gave off a sort of heat from him. She wanted to touch him; she wanted to hold him for herself to make sure that this wasn't a dream. She slowly reached out her hand to him and stretched it out as far as she could. Koga smiled and grabbed her hand firmly in his and pulled her up from the ground.
He grabbed her waist to pull her close to him and he held her head close to his neck. He clenched his hand to the back of her head and brought it closer to and closer to him; he didn't want her to leave.
"Koga?"
"I love you. I love you. I love you so much."
She wanted to push him away and run back to the shrine where everyone was asleep and no one knew that she had left. They were probably awake by now and Inuyasha would be worried about her and he's probably mad at her for leaving without his permission. Inuyasha would probably be…Inuyasha would….. Inuyasha…
…
Her mind went blank. She couldn't think straight. She was supposed to have been thinking about the one that she loved most but between the avaricious hug and the fleeting warmth of Inuyasha's kiss that she tried desperately to remember, everything was feverish and hazy.
Koga moved his mouth to Kagome's ear and in a hushed tone he murmured her name slowly. The way he said her name was like a spell, the more he said it the more he wanted her.
His lips moved past her ears to her cheek and kissed her softly. Heat began to resonate where Koga had placed his lips. The wolf demons traveled all over her face from her cheek to her temple to her forehead to the corner of her eye to her other cheek and worked their way down to her neck. Kagome's skin felt like it was on fire.
Everywhere Koga had kissed her had left a burning hot sensation all over. What was she supposed to do: fight back? Push him away? Just take it? Run away?
"K-Ko...ga…I" she tried to speak but the feeling of Koga on her lips had felt so unbelievable that, somewhere deep inside her heart, she didn't want him to stop.
Koga kissed her as if it was going to be the last thing he did on this earth. He was hungry for her. He wanted this kiss to be carved into her like a scar. Koga slid into her mouth found her tongue with his own and playfully sucked on it.
Kagome's eyes widened in surprise and her mind went blank from how amazing it felt. When he let her go, she was burning for more. Even though her best instincts were screaming at her to run, something inside of her was telling her to stay for more.
Before she could catch her breath, Koga went in for another kiss. He made this one a little slower than the last but it still felt hungry. He could tell by her lips, Kagome was aching for something. As he drew away, Koga's fangs teethed gingerly on her bottom lip.
Koga let her take in a few short breaths before continuing on.
He leaned her back a few inches back with his hand steadying her on her back. He ripped off her school uniforms ascot with his teeth and kissed her pale white chest. A shiver resonated throughout Kagome's body. Now she knew that this is where it had to stop, there was no way she was going to let this wolf do as he pleased, she was going to fight back.
"Kagome, I want you."
The tremble of Koga's words brushed against her skin and echoed into her ears. He was telling the truth and he meant every word. He wasn't thinking of any other girl-dead or alive- he had only her in both his thoughts and his arms. All he wanted was to be with her and forever love her and never make her cry.
Kagome wrapped her arms around Koga's neck and ran her hands through his rough black hair. He raised his head from Kagome's chest where he left a long red kiss mark and when he saw the look in her eyes he felt his heart beat ten times harder. She smiled at him lovingly and her eyes seemed to be glowing and have the sense of devotion flashing in them despite the few drops of tears still resting in the corner. She pulled him closer to her and kissed him softly parting his lips slowly.
He loves me she thought through the kiss without a single hint of hesitation he loves me.
Kagome briefly broke the kiss and just stared at the man who loved her more than she could ever imagine.
"Koga," she sighed "thank you."
His eyes widened and a dark line of red streamed across his face. He lowered his face and brought her back up and tried to hide his face by covering his eyes. He stood there smiling at himself and couldn't help but laugh at himself. Somehow, he had truly done it; in the one way he didn't think could happen he managed to tell Kagome how he felt about her, but…
"Well now what am I supposed to do?" he asked himself out loud.
"Koga?"
Koga picked up Kagome like a princess and placed her down on a bed of leaves that was hidden in the forest and placed his body right on top of her. He bent down and pressed a kiss on her lips that made the two of them experience the crazed frenzy that is pleasure. When the kiss was broken, Kagome was left breathless and gasping heavily for air.
"With you looking like that," he chuckled deeply "I don't think that I can hold myself back."
He lunged for her neck and grazed his tongue along her skin strategically and slowly to thoroughly indulge himself in the taste of her. Kiss marks were left like a trail across her neck, but the trail soon ended as the culprits tongue found its way exploring the priestess' mouth. A few soft-spoken moans slipped through her lips.
Kagome, driven by the pure chaos of the ecstasy, wrapped her legs around his waist and slid her arms around his lower back and clawed at the bit of his exposed back. The two bodies were intertwined with each other and were connected to one another both emotionally and physically. Despite the cold midnight air, the two created a steamy and intense friction between their grinding bodies.
Koga brought himself off of her to look at what he had done.
Her shirt had been ripped off. The remainders of it lay in strands around her body. Kagome's lips, that were once red as cherries, had gone pale pink. The trail of kiss marks on her neck looked like a tight fitting necklace. He could hear her breathing. It was short and ragged and heavy. With every fall of her chest, the yearning look in her eyes seemed to grow wider.
I love her, he thought. There is no way in hell I'm going to let that tramp take her away from me. Not after this. She's all mine.
Koga gripped one of Kagome's legs and held up. He snaked his way down to her inner thigh and cautiously moved his fangs across her skin.
All of Kagome's nerves were on fire. She felt the muscles in her left completely shut down. The strength she had was to bite her bottom lip from screaming. She bit down so hard there was a stream of blood running out of the corner of her mouth.
The smell of her blood hit Koga pretty quickly. He dropped her leg slowly and started crawling on top of her like a wolf during a hunt. He bent down his head where the lips were barely touching. He licked the blood from her lips and dove right into another kiss.
It felt like he was trying to bury himself inside her. He motioned his tongue inside her mouth to move around his as it explored the walls of her mouth.
He could taste her.
Kagome wanted to cry and scream and so much more. She wanted Koga to bury himself further into her but a voice came from the opposite end of the forest and it cried out "Kagome, are you out here? Answer me, Kagome! Oi, Kagome!"
The two of them knew that voice anywhere: it was Inuyasha.
He had finally woken up and saw that Kagome had gone missing and in his panic he left the campsite and set out in search of her even if it meant risking revealing his secret to any nearby enemies.
"You can't be serious." Koga growled under his breath.
Kagome's face was deep red and her hand covered her mouth to hide her stunned amazement. What was he doing here? Inuyasha should have stayed with the group, he was still in his human form and he could be attacked by any demon at any given time, he was taking a huge risk coming out here.
"Kagome, answer me!"
Inuyasha was standing in the middle of the forest where the couple once were just a few minutes ago. His face was twisted in grief and worry as he glanced all around him to look for any signs of Kagome. He screamed in angry and slammed his fist into the ground repeatedly as if the pain would suffice for his insincerity.
If he hadn't been so insensitive, if he hadn't been so thoughtless, if he hadn't fallen for Kikyo first, then maybe Kagome wouldn't have ran away from him.
Despite the distances and the moonless night that covered him, Kagome could see Inuyasha's twisted face and had felt her heart cringe with the same pain that he felt.
She stared back up at Koga who was glaring over at the mutt who had ruined their moment and clearly saw that he was angry. She propped herself up gathered the remaining of her shirt and pushed Koga off of her. She picked all of the leaves out of her hair and dusted off her now very dirty skirt and wiped off the sweat from her face.
Before she left, Kagome glanced down at the man who loved her and told him bluntly.
"I have to go back. He has to know that I'm okay because if I don't then I wouldn't be able to live with myself. I'm sorry, Koga."