Chunnin
I was the only one. Out of all of them. I didn't ask for it, I'm not bragging, I'm just saying. There wasn't time to be proud and I guess I wouldn't miss it. But I was still the only one. The only one who did it. Out of all of them. And you haven't said a word to me. I can't expect much. I don't deserve it really. Once I got it, what'd I do with it? They sent me out with my late peers. They sent me out in charge and I don't know if I was ready. I nearly lost them. All five of them, my best friend included, my teammate on my team. I would have without the help. But the help didn't help when I brought us back on stretchers and had to tell her I'd failed. Every other kunoichi got hers back except one, who had to watch the injured get tended by her friends and listen while I told her I'd let hers get away, I'd failed. It really shook me up. And my dad helped. I'm not crying anymore. On the outside. Not even when we all went and watched each other say good-bye. I watched you and I could see your tears. The ones on the inside. They're just like mine. I can't blame you. What would I do if I lost my dad? And I'm sorry and thankful I still have one. But right now, I feel like sometimes my other one is leaving, one of my dad's is dying with his own. And I'm still the only one. But it doesn't mean much to me when it can't mean much to you.