Kendall Knight, the leader of BTR, the rock to his mother, the father figure to his sister, and best friend to his life long friends.

He was expected to do so much.

So much that sometimes he thought that one day he was going to explode.

After all the yelling from Gustavo.

After all the countless injuries that his family inflicted on themselves that he was looked toward to take care of.

After all the constant prep talks he had to give.

After all the rare hockey games during their rare time off.

After all the rare days that they got off.

After all the heart break... that never seems to end.

Heart break, you may ask where but the only heart break is the fact that Kendall, with all that he does, doesn't get to have the one and only thing that he ever wanted in his life. His love.

You may ask, who is worthy enough for Kendall to be pulled towards for life? Will, that person would have to be the one and only person he did ever thing for.

Kendall got them into peewee hockey.

Kendall got them into every freak n' party to meet all the hot girls.

Kendall was the wing man so that the man of his life could get the girls.

Yup, Kendall was head over heals for James Diamond.

He knows what you are thinking, fag, but really he could care less just as long as his James is always happy.

But, one day Kendall just couldn't take it any more. With all that he did to make sure that James is happy, that ass hole decided to run off and propose to a princess. Sure he might of not of known what he was doing but still. He should of listened to him.

When the king declared that James would marry the princess, Kendall almost cried right there. But, his stupid pride wouldn't let hm. He waited until he thought he was alone.

In the bathroom of 2J Kendall balled his eyes out, only to jump when there was a knock on the door.

"Kendall, you okay?" It was Logan. Kendall's best friend since pre-k.

"Yeah..." Kendall wiped his eyes praying for the tears to stop, "Its open."

Logan opened the door, the sight in front of him made his want to break down.

"Why are you crying?" Logan went and bent down in front of his friend. He knew that Kendal had a lot of responsibilities on his shoulder, and sometime they needed to be carried for him.

"Its just... I can't tell you, you will just hate me."

"Kendall I could never hate you."

Looking into Logan's eyes Kendall knew that he was telling the truth.

"Its James."

"We are all upset about this Kendall-"

"No, I am like this because... I... I love him." Kendall looked to the ground as if he was about to be shunned by his best friend, but he was surprised when he felt those strong arms wrap around him.

"Oh Kendall, I am so sorry. Listen, I don't hate and I promise not to tell anybody, just, lets go get our James back," Logan pulled back and lifted Kendall face only to wash it off with a wet cloth.

"'kay," Kendall allowed Logan to steer him out of the bathroom, but once he came face to face with Carlos, Gustavo, and Kelly his mask of being a strong leader came back. Logan could see threw it though and never left Kendall's side.

~Break line, (I really have no idea how to put those up)~

That night when everybody, including James, was back in the apartment James spoke up.

"Will... that was, a fun day," James walked over to the fridge and pulled out a juice.

"Fun, today was any thing but fun." Logan said as he sat by the blond on the orange couch.

"You are only saying that because she didn't chose you," James smiled that made Kendall wish that he was the one that caused it.

"James, she didn't choose you, you were the idiot that didn't listen to your friends when they said to stay in the apartment. We wouldn't of went threw this mess today if you didn't have to go prove a stupid point to yourself," Kendall stated never meeting any body else's gaze.

"What crawled up your butt Kendall, all I did was give her a rose. Not my fault they took it as a proposal." James sat near Carlos at the table. Logan could see the rage crawling into Kendall's face, placing a hand on his arm, Logan was to late to stop the words that came out.

"James! Are you even listening to yourself! You were the stupid ass hole that had to sneak behind his friends AGAIN to prove that you are the pretty boy in this band! Did you not realize all the shit you put everybody threw today? You had Logan, Carlos, Gustavo, Kelly, and I running around trying to save you! It was not FUN! If you wouldn't of been so careless today we wouldn't of had to worry about you being shipped off to another country! Why can't you get that we care about what happens to you threw you stupid freaking' head!"

Logan and Carlos were frozen into their spots, Kendall had never blown up like this.

"Do you not realize what you put ME threw today? I almost lost another part of my family after I made sure that we stayed together when I got this stupid opportunity to come up here! I almost lost you today!"

"Why would you care Kendall, why? Why would you care if I left?" By this point Kendall was walking into the kitchen. James in suit.

"Because... because you mean more to all of us then you think! You mean more to ME!" Once Kendall realized what came out o his mouth he walked towards the door.

"Kendall," Logan went to follow but James stopped him.

"Don't, if he wants to be a jerk about today then just leave him. He will be back." James just received a smack in the head from Logan.

"How stupid are you! He cares about and you just act like you could careless about all the things he has done for you!" Logan said, Carlos was on their side.

"Why is everybody turning against me today? I haven't done anything to hurt Kendall!"

"James! You hurt him by pulling that stupid stunt with the princess today!" Carlos stated. He may be slow but he could see how his blond felt for the pretty boy, and by the way James was acting, Carlos wasn't going to not let it slide.

"Okay, I shouldn't of went after the princess today! I get that but I didn't hurt Kendall!"

"JAMES! He has done so much for you so that all of us could be together to live your dream!" Logan shouted.

"What had he done for me?"

"Get us to LA, put up with Gustavo when we are in trouble, makes sure that all of us are happy and out of trouble, makes sure his mom is always happy, makes sure that his sister is happy, and makes sure that all of us stay together!" Logan counted off, "And way more... what you did today really made him upset."

James looked between his friends. He was about to say something but thunder cut him off.

"Great, I am going out to find him," Logan stated at his went and grabbed his and Kendall's coat. Carlos soon joined him. "What about you?"

"No, I will stay." Carlos shook his head on his way out. James, was just trying to figure everything out.

Okay, I know I am working on three other stories but this one has been haunting my head for two days now. I couldn't just not post it. There should be at least two more chapters but please, posting chapters needs support from reviews. (Chapter to story needs support from reviews = boobs need support from bras.)

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