She was his daughter and she was his wife. Know matter what he did, or how he acted, he loved them more then anything in his life. If that was true…why was it getting so hard for them to see that? And why was he getting so close to losing them?
Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else
I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more
"Thanks for your help Anna, that will be all for today." I said tiredly as I walked into the kitchen and noticing our made still working hard.
"Are you sure Mrs. Scott? There is still some laundry that needs to be done, I can finish it." She said sweetly.
"No it's fine, you should go home your kids are probably waiting." I said smiling. No matter what mood I was in, I could never take it out on Anna. She was the sweetest most hard –working women I knew, and was lucky to have her.
"Okay, thank you Mrs. Scott. I will see you tomorrow." She said waving and heading for the door. I sighed when I heard the door close and leaned against the counter. Ever since I could remember, I had wanted to be the kind of mom that did all the work around the house. From cooking, to cleaning, and laundry…that was one of the reasons I hated having people that did it all for me. I smiled as I flipped open my phone and realized what time it was; 2:30. It was my favorite time of the day, picking up Ellie.
"Mommy!"
"Hey baby!" I said opening my arms happily as my four year old daughter came running towards.
"Hi mommy!" She said smiling brightly.
"Hi El, how was school today?" I asked wanting to know everything. Picking up my daughter and hearing about how great her day was always the highlight of my day.
"It was great mommy! Guess what, next week we're having an open house. Ms. Carter said all the parents can come and see your work. You think daddy can come!?" Ellie asked me excitedly. I felt an instant pang of guilt at the mention of Nathan. God knows Nathan and I had been through a lot of hard times through out our relationship, but know matter what I always knew the love was their…this time though, thing's were different. The problems we were having was all of because the new Nathan. Not the compassionate, caring, loving, and perfect father. The problem was with the new selfish, inconsiderate Nathan.
"Um, yeah baby, we'll see." I said as we finally reached my Lexus and I pulled open the door.
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved
Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get insecure
It doesn't matter anymore
"Mommy, is daddy going to be home tonight? I haven't seen him since yesterday, he wasn't here this morning." Once again a heart wrenching question that I couldn't question.
"I don't know sweetie. I guess we'll see when we get home." Sadly, that was the best I could do.
Two hours later we finally arrived home after a round of toy shopping and lunch stop. When I pulled into the gated driveway, I let out an unpleasant sigh as I saw the bright red Ferrari sitting there. Nathan was home.
"Daddy, are you home!?" Ellie instantly yelled the second we walked into the house. There was no response, but the sound of the big screen television answered her question.
"Hi daddy!" She said running up to him and sitting beside him on the black leather couch.
"Hey El, how's my girl?" He asked quickly pulling his focus from the t.v. and focusing his attention on his daughter. It really pained me how hot and cold Nathan was, even to his daughter. Their was know doubt in my mind Nathan loved our daughter more then anything else, a stranger could see that, but his attitude sometime's made me even want to question it. It was like one day his was daddy of the year. Playing and listening to anything and everything his little girl said. On those days it was like their both on top of the world, and it made me happy too. Then there were the days he wouldn't even come home and didn't seem to care that his daughter yearned for his attention. I hated that Nathan and sometimes even the caring Nathan…because I knew it didn't last.
"Good daddy! School was fun today!"
"Well that's good." He answered.
"Hey daddy, how come you didn't come home last night?" The question I had obviously been wondering about was finally asked but not by me, by my daughter. Ellie was an extremely smart child, there was know doubt about it, and in some circumstances I hated it. I didn't want my daughter worrying about her parent's problems…and the last thing I ever wanted me child wondering is, 'why didn't daddy come home last night?'
"Um, well you know how we had the big game last night? Coach asked me to stay after to go over some plays…and um I just feel asleep at the arena." Lie.
"Oh, you slept in the stadium daddy! That's scary!" Ellie said adorably, and of course believing her father.
It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved
"Yeah it was scary, it was all dark and lonely." Nathan answered. For the first time since we had gotten home, his eyes looked up at me after the word lonely came out of his mouth. Lonely, that had been the definition of my life the past few months.
"But I will be here tonight okay? To tuck you in and everything." At the mention of that Ellie once again light up. Nathan was god in her eyes…he was her biggest hero, and he took advantage of that.
"So El, Nathan, what would you guys like for dinner?" I said looking away for my daughter and husband and focusing my attention on the kitchen.
"How about we go out for dinner?" Nathan said.
"Oh I don't know…we were just out for lunch."
"Can we momma please! I want to go to Dana Tana's!?" We both laughed at my daughter's choice of high dining. Dana Tana's was on the nicest Italian places in Los Angeles, and also happened to be my daughter's favorite place to eat anytime we went out.
"Sounds good to me, okay with you Hales?" I flinched at the use of his nickname for me, he hadn't used it in awhile.
"Yeah that's fine."
"Okay Dana Tana's it is. Italian dinner, family style." Family style? We hadn't been a family for awhile now…but for my daughter, I was willing to pretend for a night.
I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls
I just thought I'd give this story a shot. I'm already writing another one, With Arms Wide Open, but I still want to give this a chance. I have a lot of idea's for this story and can take it a lot of way, so tell me what you guys thought of this first chapter? It's obviously angst Naley, but it will get better! And I hope you like Naley little girl (: Well what do you think? Should I keep going? R&R!?