Her friendship is enough. I should be satisfied with that already.
How many times have I tried to tell this to myself, to convince myself that I am not having a worse case of infatuation, bordering on obsession? But I couldn't, I just couldn't. I always fail everytime. Why can't my heart follow what my mind says, even only for this time?
I believe in the saying that, 'this too shall pass.' So I guess I'll just have to stay away from her as much as possible. Try to divert my attention. Try not to think about her.
But how could I try to banish her from my thoughts? When her face keeps haunting me almost every second of my life, not only on my waking hours, but even in my dreams?
How can I? When her smile is already etched in the deepest chambers of my heart?
How, when every fibre of my being, of my soul, is longing to be with her, or even only to be near her? Just to see her and stay in a one-air confined space is already enough to ease the pain. But then again, after that moment has gone, the pain just keeps getting unbearable.
I don't want to lose the friendship. She's really a nice person. It's only pathetic to let her know how I really feel about her.
Though it pains me to say this...I've already made a decision about it.
This madness should stop.
And it ends here. Right here, right now.
Goodbye pathetic feeling. May you never see the lights of day, ever again.
Just let me say this...for the first and the last time that I'll ever announce it to the world...
'I'm falling in love with you, my dearest Setsuna…
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And so, another chapter of my life ends. I bid farewell to the inspiration, and the dreams I have about our future together.
Ah, my mistake...we will still have a future together. But only as friends, and not as soulmates.
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"Oy, Minako, why are you staring at her like that?"
"Nothing, Haruka-san. I just had a dream about her last night."
"Really?" A raised eyebrow. "Don't tell me it involved a lot of cuddles while watching tv, ne?"
A smack. "Stop it, Ruka. Minako's getting red."
"Hey, Sets, Minako said she had a dream about you last night!"
"About me?" A pair of eyes blinked in surprise.
A nervous laugh. "Ehehehe…"
A silent prayer. Please don't look at me like that. Please don't look at me like that…
A silent question. And what would my dear maiden dream about me?
A shared thought. She's really the epitome of beauty. Too bad though that I could only be a friend to her…
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Author's note:
MinakoxSetuna one-shot. Yay.
Disclaimer:
Minako, Setsuna, and the rest of the BSSM gang belong to Naoko Takeuchi. I'm just borrowing them for a little while.