Tired Of This

A Harry Potter Fanfiction

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Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter.

Prologue:

Harry's POV:

Why did my life have to be this way?

I don't understand why I can't have a happy, normal life like everyone else.

Why did I have to be chosen for this impossible task?

After all I've been through and they expect me not to break?

I still have the fight in me.

No one can beat that out of me.

I will win this.

... Or so I tell myself.

No.

You have to believe it.

You WILL win.

You WILL fight this.

But for what?

What am I fighting for?

Not for the individuals at Hogwarts.

They all showed me how much they "value" me every year.

First year.

I defended a "friend" and gained a rival.

I fought a troll and gained a friend.

I helped free a dragon.

They let me defeat Quirrel.

Saved the stone.

Went through all those obstacles.

... But for what?

I didn't get any thanks.

Not that I wanted any, but still.

All I got was a bunch of points for our house.

I could have died!

But I guess it wouldn't have mattered.

That was proven in my second year.

Second Year

I met Dobby.

Got into trouble.

I was forced to take pictures with our newest defense professor.

Missed the train with Ron.

Flew Mr. Weasley's car to Hogwarts.

Got into trouble again.

We got a new Defense professor who was utterly incompetent, not to mention an obliviating fraud.

The chamber of secrets was opened.

I was forced to duel in front of the whole class with my rival.

I tried to save a fellow student from a snake my rival conjured.

My Parseltongue ability was revealed.

A lot of people shunned me, believing me to be the Heir of Slytherin.

Ron's little sister was trapped in the chamber.

I figured out where the chamber entrance was.

Ron and I forced Lockhart to go down into the chamber with us.

I went ahead of our group.

Part of the chamber collapsed, trapping Ron and Lockhart on the other side.

I found Ginny.

Fought a Basilisk to the death.

Won with a wound.

Used a Basilisk fang to end the possessed diary.

Almost died.

Got healed by Fawkes, Dumbeldore's Phoenix familiar.

Got Fawkes to carry all of us out of the chamber, with Lockhart who managed to oblivate himself.

I freed Dobby and angered Lucius.

But the fact remains, I almost died again.

Got congratulated for saving Ginny, by the same people who shunned me.

.. This showed me how much I was truly valued.

I mean, why should I clean up a mess the wizarding world created for themselves?

Third Year

I had to get my things out of my old cupboard, where I used to have to sleep, before being moved into Dudley's second bedroom first year, because Vernon decided to lock them away.

I started on my homework.

I, as usual, celebrated my birthday alone.

I tried to go to sleep but got a few birthday presents from my "friends".

I had to stop my Monsters Book of Monsters from waking my delightful family.

I got my school supplies.

Marge showed up.

I heard about a murderer that was "armed and dangerous" on the news.

I made dinner as usual.

Marge badmouthed my mother.

My accidental magic made her blow up and float away.

I got yelled at.

I packed my things and hailed the knight bus.

I saw an oversized dog watching me before I got on the bus.

I fell then got on the bus when it came.

I got to the Leaky Cauldron an saw the Minister of Magic.

I was escorted to a room, where I stayed the rest of the summer.

On the Hogwarts Express I met Remus Lupin who was our new defense professor that year and a dementor got onto the train.

I arrived at Hogwarts and heard about the murderer Sirius Black for the third time.

I wasn't allowed to go to Hogsmeade and so I snuck there underneath my invisibility cloak.

I found out some information that I probably wasn't supposed to hear.

I snuck back to Hogwarts.

My group of "friends" and I found out that Ron's rat was an animagus and Professor Lupin and the supposed murderer Sirius Black confronted him once they turned him back into his human form.

Hermione and I saved Buckbeak and Sirius.

I had to defeat a bunch of Dementors that were put at the school under the ministry's orders.

I found out that Remus was a werewolf and we almost got killed again.

Sirius Black went on the run again with Buckbeak and it was discovered that Sirius was supposed to be my godfather.

I almost died again.

Fourth Year

groans* I don't even want to start.

mumbles* I was forced to participate in the Tri-wizard tournament.

Long story short, my rival Draco Malfoy caused me a bunch of problems at school, I became acquaintances with my fellow champions, one of my fellow Champions Cedric died at the hands of the traitor, Peter Pettigrew on Voldemort's orders I told everyone that Voldemort was back but they did not believe me, it turned out that our newest defense professor this year was actually a Death Eater in disguise Crouch jr. and he was impersonating Mad Eye Moody under the guise of the Polyjuice potion.

The year ended and I once again almost died on many accounts, some that I have not listed.

I am so tired of this. I don't even want summer to end this time. I don't want to go back to Hogwarts this year and be subjected to another year of torture and trying not to die not to mention criticism and the fame that follows me wherever I go, although I do not want it.

But yeah, my "friends" showed their true colors this year, as well as the whole school, and not believing me when I stated for a fact that I did not enter the tournament and that Voldemort was back.

This once again shows how much I am "valued". I may not even go back this year.

Chapter End.