A never ending nightmare, that's what this is. If I could just wake up. This... Leah looked around her room as she laid there in her bed. The Cullen's... If it hadn't been for them none of this would hurt so much. She paused a moment trying to compose herself before continuing, the pain of losing Sam, would have never been placed on me the way that it was. So sudden, such a break that it caused so much damage in its wake. Tears formed at Leah's thoughts and one escaped running down her tanned, dirt streaked cheek from running that night before. She breathed in deeply through her nose, afraid to open her mouth as if it would cause her to finally break fully again into another fit of tears. Everything was harder to coup with since her change. They heard her thoughts without her wanting them to, she heard theirs, but most of all she heard Sam's. She heard everything thought every detail that Sam felt towards Emily. Like a knife was plunged into her heart each time she phased. A masochists in ways but unable to avoid it. This was her life now, this pain that lived inside of her. It was her life and everyone knew her shame.
I refuse to be a joke, to be the one who suffers from this on my own. More tears formed and glided smoothly down her cheeks now, fighting hard to keep herself from giving in from the sobs that seemed to want to come forth and betray her to the pack that was in the kitchen with Seth. No not all of them just Jacob, Embry and Quil. They would hear her and then they would know the pain that she was still in. Tell her to get over it that there is nothing to be upset over. Not to mention that it wasn't Sam's fault that it happened, and that she should stop making him feel bad with every thought that would always pass through her mind when they were all phased together.
Leah heard Embry say something about Sam and Emily with a laugh. Her immediate reaction with her current mood was instant. Anger overwhelmed her as she reached over to her bedside table, grabbing her alarm clock and throwing it full force at her bedroom door. The laughter in the other room ceased immediately. She could hear Seth "shush" them, as if trying to keep their conversation low enough where she wouldn't hear them. Tremors seem to radiate through her body, as her anger became unmanageable.
Before she knew it her feet were hitting the ground just outside her window, her hand clenched tight into a fist. Leah looked back up at her window as she was crouched down low. Seth's head poked out of the window his face stricken with worry at the sight of the wild look in her eyes. "Leah! Wait don't go anywhere!" It was to late Leah had already taken off into the woods phasing as she broke through the tree line. Seth made a jump out of her window was he could hear the others in the house. Quil's head poked out of Leah's window moments after Seth made his jump "Seth, man wait up!" Quil squeezed his way out the window as Embry turned and went straight out the front door, not waiting for Quil to move.
Leah ran hard through the trees dodging left and right. Her anger burned deep this time deeper than the other times during her first phase that was nothing compared to what she felt now. It wasn't long until she could sense Seth, Quil, then followed by Embry as they phased to their wolf forms. Where is she? she heard Quil. Followed by Seth, She can't be that far... Their thoughts jumped from one to the other as they chased and ran down he same path that she had just left behind her. They still weren't close to her yet, Leah could tell they were having a hard time trying to catch up. Leah! Seth made another last attempt to call his sister back, to get her to stop running.
Ground continued to be put between Leah and the three that were following or better yet chasing after her. Jacob, was thought loud and clear to the rest of them. It was the first clear thought that passed through her mind since she phased off into the woods. Quil broke in, Leah slow down and talk to us. What's wrong? Her mind was already made up by now, but it kept going back to Jacob. Jacob...Where is he? She searched everywhere in her thoughts to see if she could glimpse him anywhere, that's if he was phased.
Leah panicked and ran faster. Damn it Leah, stop running, she heard Embry call out. His attention and thoughts turned to Quil, Quil run and get Sam, Now. Quil didn't hesitate, he broke off from Embry and Seth heading in the direction of Sam and Emily's house. Leah! Embry called out to her again. Her heart was beating a mile a minute and still refused to slow. The thought of them getting Sam made her more uneasy along with not knowing where Jacob was and where he would show up. Jacob...please. her thought was a mere whisper to Seth and the other two, her panicked stated showed in all of her thoughts as she pushed herself hard to put more ground between Embry, Seth and herself. Losing herself in the thought of Sam and Emily.
Out of nowhere she felt Jacob phase, out of nowhere. He was close, not far from where she was now. How...? Leah's mind sunk into thought as to how Jacob had caught up to her so fast without being in wolf form. He must know where I'm heading... Her feet dug into the ground even more so now, amazed at how fast she was pushing herself from all of this. Seth and Embry fading fast behind her. Jacob, she called out in her mind, Just leave me alone... It wasn't a request from her, it was her demanding him to not follow her. I can't do that Leah. It was Jacob's only response, he was focused on her and where her location was. Leah could sense the direction that he was coming from but couldn't tell how far away he actually was. All she could focus on was Jacob's even breathing as he ran from somewhere in her direction. Just as she jumped over a fallen tree Jacob came out of nowhere his body colliding with her's knocking her to the ground. Leah quickly got to her feet turning back to Jacob who was standing his ground as she lunged snapping at him. Jacob met her lunged in the middle, using his front legs and chest to throw her back down on her side. The scuffle was brief, ending quickly as Jacob stood over Leah. His canines pinched and held tight to Leah's throat, her light grey coat stained a bright red from a wound that was caused as she struggled to free herself from under Jacob.
Get off me Jacob! her thought came with a deep growl from within her as she still struggled. He bit down harder into her throat, Not until you phase back and promise you won't do anything stupid. His words came with a growl that seemed to resemble thunder from how deep it was. FINE! Leah finally agree and Jacob released his teeth from her neck and stepped back away from her as she phased back to normal. Leah laid there naked, unable to care about it. Blood flowed from the wound from her neck, but she was fine and un-phased by it. Her breath was raged as she tried to catch it from the running and then the struggle.
Jacob phased, pulling on his shorts quickly as he then went to Leah's side. Tears escaped the corners of her eyes. An she knew she went farther this time than she had before. "Leah?" Jacob asked as he squatted down next to her. Her eyes left the darkened sky as she looked over at him. Jacob's hand reached over to the wound on her neck as he quickly examined the damage that he had caused from their scuffle. His eyes met hers as he looked away from the wound, "are you alright?" Leah nodded slightly. "I'm sorr..." Jacob went to apologize for how he hurt her, but Leah cut it short. "No don't..." she interrupted as she shook her head, causing more blood to seep from her wound, "Don't say sorry Jake.." she took a deep breath. "You did what you had to do I was the one in the wrong."
Leah's body trembled from her exhaustion, almost unable to move from it. Jacob leaned over her and picked her up, cradling her in his arms. Her arms draped up, over and around his neck, as she buried her face into his bare chest as he carried her back to his house, which was closer. Considering how far she had ran.
It didn't take long for Seth and Embry to catch up to them, they phased and threw on the shorts that they had with them as well. Seth looked at Leah in Jacob's arms, she was motionless, a look of shock on his face as he noticed the bite wound on her neck. "What did you do to her Jake?!" a sense of panic wrapped around his words. "She's fine Seth," Jacob answered as he looked down at Leah in his arms, her eyes were shut, Passed out from exhaustion, he assumed to himself. "She's just out of it, she ran herself down is all. Which was probably best." Seth's eyes didn't leave the area of her neck where she was bleeding. Jake looked at Seth and saw the worry that filled his eyes for his sister. Leah was a not in top condition right now she was literally cradled in Jake's arms naked, broken and bruised. "Seth, you and Embry go back home. I'll take your sister back to my house. Sam will more than likely show up there, just tell him that I have her and that I'll take care of it." Seth looked up to Jacob's eyes as he searched him for something that maybe Jake was trying to hide, before finally agreeing. Reluctantly Seth and Embry started back to Seth and Leah's house as Jacob continued back to his with Leah in his arms.
Jacob kicked the door until Billy finally opened and moved out of the way as Jake carried Leah through the doorway. Billy took a quick look at Leah in his son's arms. "She ok?" he asked a bit worried at Leah's lack of awareness. All Jake did was nod and answer him quietly, "She's fine, sleeping from what I can tell by her breathing." Billy just looked up between Jacob and Leah, noticing the blood on Leah's neck and bare skin. He paid no mind to the fact that she was without clothes and turned away shaking his head a bit as he made his way back to the kitchen where he was visiting with some of the council.
Adjusting her in his arms Jacob made his way back to his room and laid Leah down on it gently trying not to wake her. He reached over her and pulled his blanket up covering her up till she woke up. Reaching up he brushed away her hair away from her face as he sat there and watched her, making sure she was really ok. Noticing for once she had a peaceful look about her and not the permanent scowl that was usually on it when she was with the rest of the pack. Slowly he scooted down off the edge of the bed onto the floor sitting propped up against his dresser, thinking of what he was going to tell Sam as to what happened . He nodded off as he sat there exhausted from the scuffle that happened and not to mention the run that he had to do just to catch up with her. She was fast and he wasn't about to deny it.
Leah woke up half startled, a dream had awakened her. No it can't even be considered a dream, She thought to herself as she looked up at the ceiling, a puzzled looked came to her face. Where am I? Her head raised a bit as she looked around the room as she tried to figure out where exactly she was. But stopped as she saw Jacob sitting on the floor against the dresser sleeping in the most awkward and uncomfortable positions she could think of actually. Leah tried to move, but winced in pain when trying to do so. Feels like I got hit by a Mack Truck, she groaned to herself. Knowing it was probably when Jacob slammed into her earlier that day. Jacob woke up at hearing the uncomfortable groan that came from her, his eyes quickly fixed on her laying there. "Leah?" he asked as he got up to sit on the edge of the bed next to her, "You alright?" She looked up at him, seeing the worry on his face. "I'm fine" she answered as she propped herself up on her elbows. Jacob again pushed back the hair that was in her face. She looked away then back to him again, "How long have I been asleep?" she asked as she looked outside through a crack in the curtains.
He thought a moment before answering, "A little over 13 hours, I believe." Leah looked at him in disbelief, as if unable to comprehend what he had just told her. "My mom and dad……Seth?" Jacob slowly shook his head and looked down at his hands. "They know where you are. I told them me and you had things to do." She looked at Jacob for a moment a bit confused, "Oh?" Leah wasn't quite grasping what was going on exactly. His eyes went up to hers, "Trust me home is not where you want to be right now. Especially cause of Sam, he's extremely upset with you." She just looked at Jacob at the moment until she realized that Sam knew about what she did. "I should have listened to Seth when he told me to stop, huh?" she asked. His answer was immediate with a small nod of his head, "yes."
He let out a soft sigh as he was about to get up, "you want something to eat?" Leah shook her head at his question, instead she just sat there with the blanket pull up to her chest, staring down at the end of the bed, thinking about how she lost control and could've hurt someone. "Jake.." she looked up at him as she said his name, "I'm sorry…about everything and thank you for what you did." Jake sat back down on the edge of the bed. Giving her a smile she never seen before, "Think nothing of it." Without doing much thinking Jacob leaned over to her and kissed her on the cheek, his lips lingered close to the corner of her mouth as he went to move away. Leah shifted turning her face a little where she was looking into his eyes. She blushed at the closeness of him, her cheeks warming slightly. "Jake…." was the only thing that had gotten out of her mouth before she felt his lips on hers. He's kissing me!….Oh god he is. He startled her, but she didn't resist. Leah kissed him back, her lips and mouth moving in sync with his without missing a single beat. She could feel his arms move around her and pull her closer to him. No! Ok wow, stop. Please just stop, she screamed this mentally to herself. But he's such a good kisser. Her thought melted into her mind, before finally losing herself in him.
Leah pulled away a few moments later as she sat there looking at Jacob in bewilderment at what just happened. His only reaction was to let go of her and stand up, "I..uh," Jacob let out a nervous cough. As his mind was also reeling from the experience as well. "I'm just…gonna….go. I'll be out here if you need me," with that said Jacob was out the door quickly shutting it behind him. Leah's hands went up to her mouth, covering it in disbelief at what had just happened. Please, please, please tell me that, that just didn't happen. Her thought came with a uncontrolled sigh, It did happen, where did that come from. Who initiated it? Oh god, what was the others going to say when they find out…..We just won't tell them. Leah smiled a bit, Yes not tell them…Damn what am I thinking, they'll know the next time one of us phases. She gasped at this realization. They'll know I liked it……HE'LL know I liked it. Leah fell backwards as she held back a scream, that wasn't exactly due to regret but for actually admitting that she liked it.
She sat back up looking around the room, sitting on top of the T.V. was a set of clothes that someone from home probably brought over for her. Leah jumped up quickly from the bed and grabbed her clothes pulling them on. Dizziness gripped her as she moved for the bedroom door, falling to her knees. "Damn it!" she called out in pain with the pain in her knee. The door immediately opened revealing Jacob with a worried look on his face. Thinking he was still the reason for her still hurting from their incident back in the woods. "Leah.." He lifted her up from under her arms. She smacked at his hands, "Stop. I'm fine, I can walk so let go of me." Jacob let go of her at the request, at the release of his hands from her, she almost hit the floor again before he caught her. "Are you alright?" he asked a bit worried. Leah nodded to him again as he helped her over to the where she could sit down on the bed. Please just go away, you've embarrassed me enough, she pleaded in her mind.
Her dizziness subsided as she sat there leaned over with her face in her hands. Jacob had not moved from where he was standing in front of her. Leah finally moved and stood up facing Jacob. "I'm just going to head home now. Sam has probably cooled off and went back home to Emily and I don't want to take up anymore space than I already have." She pushed her hair back behind her ear as she walked to the door. "Leah…. About, about earlier" he stammered.
"Don't worry about it," Leah stood there a bit uncomfortable to be actually talking about it with him.
Jacob's eyes didn't leave hers, "I wasn't thinking…"
She could help but smile at his nervousness, because she knew exactly what he was going through.
"Jake, really it's fine."
With that said Leah opened the door to Jake's room and headed to the front door, stopping only momentarily to kiss Billy on the cheek.
Leah made it home in no time, the wound on her neck was just a mere scratch now. As soon as she walked in the door Seth came running out of his room, "you're back!" She quickly "shushed" Seth, so that his excitement wouldn't wake up anyone in the house. He quickly pushed back Leah's hair to check the area of where she was bit by Jacob. "It's almost healed, good that means mom won't freak out much when she sees you in the morning." She just looked at him as she headed back to her room, "She didn't know I got hurt?" Seth just shook his head no and followed her back to her bedroom door. Leah stopped, placing her hand on the door knob and turning to Seth before opening and going inside. "What else doesn't she know?"
"She knows everything else. If I would have told her about that gash you had on your neck she would have freaked!" he replied quickly.
Leah shushed him again when he voice raised, "Good lets keep it that way. I don't want her worrying"
Seth nodded his agreement as Leah opened her door to her room, "Oh by the way Lee, Sam says you still have patrol tonight." With that said Seth grinned and returned to his room