Ranma ½ does not belong to me. Some of the new characters that I will introduce will be mine AND ONLY MINE!!

This is not going to be an angst or an emo story. I hate em'. Hopefully I will make it as pleasant as possible. Please read the entire first chapter before you decide against it

Chapter 1

He gazed up into the starry sky as he lay on the roof, resting his back against the smoking chimney. It was cold yet he felt warm, at least warmer than the cold stares he had been receiving downstairs. He looked down at the half destroyed dojo and recalled the events of the last few hours. All that came to his mind was pain. He blinked as he felt something warm flow from his eyes. He put up his hand and stared at it against the background of the the dark, star filled sky. The night sky was something that calmed his mind. He liked to compare himself with it, which made all his troubles seem insignificant; which was a good thing. Staring at the sky was what that kept him sane in all the madness that surrounded him.

"Stupid Pervert!", he heard from somewhere. He put down his hand and tried to concentrate on the stars. He thought of using the mind of Ice from Hiryu Shoten Ha but that always made him feel lifeless and right now he wanted human comfort.

'Human comfort, huh!, when was the last time I felt it?', he thought and his eyes drifted towards his favorite constellation.

"Ugghh, No, can't think of you now….."

"Ranma—Wild Horse. I wonder why you gave me that name, Mom. Isn't a wild horse supposed to be free? Did you name me as a joke to the kind of life I was going to have? No but you wouldn't do that to me, Right! Mom?... I want to think that you love me, though you don't even give me a chance to be myself in front of you. Well it's not like anyone does…"

"Wrong!, Water does love me and Kuno…", he told himself sarcastically.

"Ranma-kun?" he heard a soft voice that always seemed to find him when he needed food.

"Yes Kasumi-ne", he tried to say but his voice cracked due to the lump in his throat.

"I have food for you if you'd like to eat. I don't think you have eaten anything since morning."

Ranma felt the hole in his stomach but, "Thanks…But..I am not hungry". He wanted his hunger to drown the pain in his heart.



After a long pause, "Alright than, I will put it in your usual place, away from you father. You can eat it when you want to"

Ranma heard Kasumi footsteps go away.

"Maybe…SHE loves me", he said aloud trying to push away the thought that to Kasumi it was all a sense of duty. "Atleast, she doesn't want anything from me"

"Hmmm, I don't know why I care about people loving me anymore. It's not like I have lived for myself since YOU", he blamed the group of stars he had been staring at.

"You'd probably say that I am the person to blame for most of my problems which I could have fixed if I wanted to. But all I want is people to not get hurt. People say that I am fickle and I don't want to choose anyone but you know that I don't love any of them. So I just left it for them to decide. I could probably end all this by saying three damn words. But it is the only thing in the world that I will never lie about. I tried it after Saffron but I realized I couldn't do it. It was too painful to say it even when I thought she wasn't listening. If only this wedding had somehow happened, at least I would have had some peace of mind if not freedom. But, stupid Nabiki had to decide she wasn't done with putting me through all the pain in the world. If, only my father dint freeload, I would have shown her place in her damn little world. Damn my honor, the only thing I still care about in this world, and it is the sole cause of my troubles. I can't give up on it as it the only thing that gives me a reason to live. Well I guess I can't complain, if I am not so stupidly attached to my honor I wouldn't be suffering this way. It's not like I can say that I am not in control of my destiny when I refuse to try and change it…"

Smack, bang, smack,

Ranma looked around the chimney and down to the dojo. Akane was pounding a very familiar looking doll with a pigtail. He cringed at the thought of how disfigured the doll would be once Akane was done through it. Not wanting to be spotted he went back to his hiding place behind the chimney. He remembered how he had barely escaped the punishment that the doll was going through now. That evening he had woken up in the middle of a destroyed dojo to find an angry Akane waiting for him to wake up so she could continue the pounding he had received from his other suitors. Luckily for him Kuno had shown up right at that moment to once again proclaim his love to Akane for the millionth time. Akane had gone ballistic on Kuno which had given Ranma enough time to crawl away and somehow escape to the roof. Akane had been searching for him for the past couple of hours but he had not shown himself up as he usually did. He felt that his body had had enough punishment for one day.

'Oink', 'Oink'; he heard a squeal. Ranma looked at the source and saw a cute piglet, with a bandana around its head and a steaming pot in its mouth, staring at him.

"What do you want? I am not in the mood for a fight.."



The piglet shook its head and pointed repeatedly at the pot which it had placed in front of Ranma.

"Alright I will change you but only if you promise to leave"

The piglet nodded and Ranma emptied the pot's contents over its head. He turned away as Ryouga started donning the clothes that he had somehow magically materialized (Both Ranma and Ryouga had mastered Mousse's technique to some extent), He did not particularly prefer seeing a naked male body besides his.

"Look man, I will leave but I actually came here to apologize. I have really given up on Akane and I only showed up to see if there was enough Nannichuan to cure me. I am sorry if I had caused you caused you any trouble"

Ranma gave him a strange look, "Are you sure you are not under any effects of the Phoenix?"

Rouga laughed, "Haha, If I was than it would be something that allowed me to see the truth. Look man, I had really given up on Akane and after what I saw today I really think that you don't deserve her either"

Ranma stared at Ryouga as if he misunderstood him but he shook his head and said, "Ryouga,I should tell you a truth. I don't really love Akane and or as a matter of fact any of my so called fiancés. If you really want Akane, you should propose to her and I will help you out too."

"Haha, thought you would misunderstand. Naww man! I dint mean it that way. I don't think anyone deserves Akane. I mean it in a bad way"

Ranma immediately stood up and started tapping on Ryouga's head.

Ryouga shoved Ranma's hand away, "Seriously, when I said that I could see the truth ,I wasn't just saying it. And you should sit down just in case so Akane doesn't spot you"

Ranma immediately sat down and Ryouga took a seat beside him.

"This is only going to take a minute so listen to me. I realized something when you were fighting with Saffron. When Saffron first awoke I was scared shitless but when you started fighting him I thought that you were doing it because you loved Akane. But, when I looked at your face I did not see a person fighting for love but a person who did not care. You felt like an emotionless assassin who did not fear his own death. You were fighting to kill because you wanted to save an innocent life. At first I thought that you had just been using your heart of Ice for Hiryuu Shoten Ha but I have been thinking for the past few days and from comparing your past actions I realized that you really didn't care about your life. I mean you wouldn't have let any of this madness continue unless you were incredibly stupid which I realize you are not. 

Another reason for me coming back was to confirm this. I thought I could help you out by telling Akane about this but I realized another truth after looking at her today. I don't know how I ever fell in love with her… Now I am scared about what strange things I might find about Akari.."

"Akari is a good girl…Except for her pig fetish. I think she really likes you. AND its NOT because you are a pig", Ranma said staring into the night sky again.

"Thanks man but I wanted to talk about you not me. But I don't think you want to discuss this…so I will leave. But, I will be there if you need a talk, if you can find me that is", Ryouga said as he got up.

Ranma nodded,

"I don't think I need to tell you this. But, whatever it is from the past that is making you suffer, you should try to live life a little more for yourself rather than your honor", Ryouga said as he jumped from the rooftop.

Ranma sighed, "If there was something that I ever wanted to live for I lost it with you, stupid HALEY. Why the heck did ya have to leave me", he said to himself and stared at Sagittaris's arrow as if it reminded him of some fond memories.

Hey people my first fanfic, though I have been reading them for quite a while. It's strange that a RanmaxAkane forever fan like me is writing a anti-Akane fic for his first one. But trust me she won't suffer from anything and she will undergo a change later in the story. I only made her bad cause I could not pair Ranma with someone else if she was good. The only character that might be put under serious punishment from me is Nabiki (never really like her) Oh ya and please review