Chapter ONE:
Realisation
It finally hit me. He was gone, gone forever, and the worst part was that when he left he took my life with him. My friendship with Alice, my laughs with my brothers, my foster parents, everything. As well as the engagement ring that he gave so lovingly to me. I knew that when the Cullens were not at school for a week but when Charlie told me that had left for some European country it hit me. I remember that day so well:
I walked into our house and felt the tension in the atmosphere. It was so thick. I took a deep breath and opened the door to see a red faced Charlie. His face contorted in anger, his breath laboured. His mouth finally opened, breaking the ongoing silence. The words coming from that mouth were shocking , unbelievable. They broke through the fog my mind had subconsciously created.
The fog that told me time and time again that the warm sun must have kept them away. His words were like a glass of cold water to my face. The Cullens had left for warmer better pastures his words told me. His face lowered in shame. The clogs in my mind spun to action, his next words barely registered. Billy had rung earlier to ask if Charlie wanted to eat diner at Sue's house because I had left with my fiancée.
That word rung clear throughout my mind. My fiancée? He thought that I had left with them. Why not? My mind's cynical side asked. I should have left with them or at least had some warning.
The worst part of this ordeal was that Charlie looked more emotional then I did, he shook me and asked if I had heard what he had just said. Of course I heard his heart-breaking words but deep down I knew. Knew that I wasn't enough for them.
My body functioned on autopilot as I went with Charlie to Sue's house. Three loud knocks shook me awake. Sue opened the door and greeted us warmly but her eyes told a different story. Shock and then sympathy raged through them, so strong I was forced to look away. Leah and Seth were at some boarding school and weren't due back till the holidays she told Charlie, her tone friendly and inviting . As she led us inside she repeatedly asked me if I was feeling all right. My family had just left me and I was meant to be feeling all right?