Trying not to love you.
This is something that came to mind when I was listening to a Nickleback song. I don't own the song nor the Once Upon a Time characters, I'm just borrowing them. I hope you guys like this and that it doesn't suck too much.
Emma is sitting at the bar at Granny's thinking about the best night of her life which brought about the worst morning of her life.
You call to me, and I fall at your feet
How could anyone ask for more?
It started when Emma walked into said restaurant seeing a forlorn looking Regina sitting on one of the stools, staring into her glass of liquor. "I'm not in the mood for a hope speech." The brunette grits, glaring into her drink.
"I'm not here for a pep talk; I think you need a drinking buddy right now." Emma smirks, taking a seat next to the broken woman next to her. "I'm thinking shots, you?"
"Sure, why not?" Regina sighs, smiling slightly at her friend? She wasn't even sure.
They drank and laughed for hours. "You know, Robin was an atrocious lover." The brunette whispers, but comes out louder than she would've intended.
Emma chuckles at the horrid look on Regina's face as she slurs about her lost lover. "Well, I figured as much." She grumbles, her jealousy rising at the thought of the gorgeous brunette with anyone but her.
"Is that jealousy I hear Miss Swan?" Regina teases, nudging a blushing Emma.
The blonde is quick to deflect. "No... I just think that he wasn't worth your time is all."
Regina smiles slightly at that. "And who do you think IS worth my time, Miss Swan?" She flirts in her uninhibited state of mind.
Emma stiffens at that remark, not wanting to blurt out what she really thinks, but the alcohol is making it hard to keep her from spilling her guts, that she has been in love with the Evil Queen since Neverland, maybe even before, she wasn't entirely sure. Plus since she regained her memories, that year apart from Regina was pure torture. "Maybe someone who knows the real you and is willing to love you for you, faults and all." She mumbles.
And our time apart, like knives in my heart
How could anyone ask for more?
The brunette gives her a side long glance, biting her lip. "Someone like you?"
"Maybe?" Emma gets out; afraid she may have ruined their fragile relationship.
"Then show me, Miss Swan." Regina purrs into her ear.
The rest of the night was kind of a blur to Emma. She remembers dragging an equally drunk Regina out of the Diner and pushing her up against a wall kissing her with abandon, hoping the other woman could feel how much she meant to her.
They had made it back to the ex-Evil Queen's house, groping and kissing the whole way. Regina had poofed them there. Emma laid her soon to be lover on the king sized bed, eyes dark with lust and love at the sight of Regina with her emotional walls completely down.
"Strip Sheriff." Regina says in her Queen voice.
Emma did as she was told, making a show out of slowly unbuttoning her shirt; she let it slide off of her shoulders onto the floor. As she was teasingly running her thumbs around the waistband of her jeans, she was surprised when her thumbs suddenly came into contact with her skin. "Hey…!"
The brunette gave her a smoldering look. "You were taking far too long, dear." Is said as Regina grabs her around the waist and pulls Emma onto her lap.
"Well my Queen, I think you are wearing way too many clothes." Emma smirks, making a move to slip her hands under Regina's white shirt. As soon as Emma's hands touch the brunette's skin, they both feel a small spark, but neither is deterred by it at the moment.
The blonde had the Mayor's shirt bunched up around her breasts as she slowly ran her hands up and over the silky fabric of the panting brunette's bra. Regina was getting impatient, the throb between her thighs becoming almost unbearable.
With a snap of her fingers, all of her clothes were removed, leaving both women completely naked. When Emma's hands once again suddenly came into contact with warm flesh, she smirked, squeezing the brunette's soft mounds. "Someone's impatient." She chuckles, leaning down taking a stiff bud into her mouth.
"Mmm, Emma." Regina moaned out, lacing her fingers through golden locks, bringing the Savior's head closer.
"You want the regular Em?" Ruby asked, breaking Emma from her thoughts of last night.
"Yeah, that'll be fine." Emma sighs, laying her head on top of her folded arms on the counter.
But if there's a pill to help me forget,
God knows I haven't found it yet
But I'm dying to, God I'm trying to
'Cause trying not to love you, only goes so far
Trying not to need you, is tearing me apart
Can't see the silver lining, from down here on the floor
And I just keep on trying, but I don't know what for
'Cause trying not to love you
Only makes me love you more
She stayed like that for a bit, a part of her wishing she could just forget what happened, but the other half knowing that even though it hurt like hell to be rejected after an amazing night with the woman she loves, it was worth the pain.
And this kind of pain, only time takes away
That's why it's harder to let you go
And nothing I can do, without thinking of you
That's why it's harder to let you go
"Here ya go Ems." Ruby said cheerily as she placed the cup of hot chocolate with cinnamon in front of the blonde. "You ok?" She asked concerned.
Emma lifted her head up, acknowledging her friend. "Yeah, it's nothing Rubes, just tired is all."
"Ok, but if ya need anything, you know I'm always here." Ruby said as she made her way over to the other customers.
Emma took a sip of her drink, staring off into space. "Harder Emma, please." Is moaned into her ear and she picks up the pace of her fingers that are buried in the brunette. "Y-yes!" Regina squealed, her orgasm fast approaching. At hearing her lover's vocalization, Emma curls her fingers and rubs against the spongy spot inside Regina, causing her eyes to roll into the back of her head and her back arch up from the bed, a silent scream on her lips.
But if there's a pill to help me forget,
God knows I haven't found it yet
But I'm dying to, God I'm trying to
'Cause trying not to love you, only goes so far
Trying not to need you, is tearing me apart
Can't see the silver lining, from down here on the floor
And I just keep on trying, but I don't know what for
'Cause trying not to love you
Only makes me love you more
"That was amazing." Regina panted, head falling back against her pillow. Emma laid her head on top of the brunette's chest and just listened to her slowly regulating heartbeat. She soon fell asleep with a smile on her lips as she listened to the evened out breaths of her lover.
So I sit here divided, just talking to myself
Emma stared into her drink, mumbling to herself. "Maybe Robin really is her soul mate."
Was it something that I did?
"Why are you laying on top of me Miss Swan?" Emma hears, she lifts her head off of Regina's chest and scrubs at her eyes.
"Hey." She mumbles sleepily, giving the other woman a wide smile, but falters at the cold glare Regina is sending her way. "I thought you… never mind." Emma sighs, getting out of the bed. She finds her clothes on the floor and dresses immediately.
Before she can leave, "Oh and Miss Swan, what happened here, does not leave this room. Understand?" Regina asks the broken blonde in an emotionless tone. She waits until she gets to her car to completely break down.
Was there somebody else?
"Fucking Robin Hood!" Emma seethes under her breath.
When a voice from behind me, that was fighting back tears
Sat right down beside me, and whispered right in my ear
Tonight I'm dying to tell you
The blonde is roused from her thoughts as she hears the voice she thought she wouldn't hear in a while. "I never loved Robin, Emma…" Regina starts, but chokes back a sob.
"So I was just a rebound then?" Emma asks, void of emotion.
Regina sits down next to her Sheriff. "No, you weren't… I-I felt bad for acting the way I did this morning; I never should've said what I did… I got scared, but no matter how much I want to fight these feelings for you, I can't. It only makes me love you more." The brunette admits, laying her heart on the line.
That trying not to love you, only went so far
Trying not to need you, was tearing me apart
Now I see the silver lining, from what we're fighting for
Emma turns towards Regina, "I won't lie and say you didn't hurt me, but I think that… I could, forgive you, in time." She replies honestly, flashing Regina a small smile.
The Mayor nods her head in acceptance. "I will do everything in my power to earn your forgiveness Emma." She tells her love with determination. "Maybe we could talk more over drinks at my place tonight?"
"Maybe." Emma smiles, lacing her fingers through Regina's, giving the dark woman's hand a small squeeze.
And if we just keep on trying, we could be much more
'Cause trying not to love you
Oh, yeah, trying not to love you
Only makes me love you more
Only makes me love you more