"When tears fall, even my smallest cherished memories don't know what to do

Because it hurts so much, we promised to let each other go

When I keep thinking about you

When its so hard that I can't take it

Please let me hear at least your breath"

- Breath, SM Ballad (종현 and 태연) version

The rain, the fog and the moon always reminded me of him.

Someone said that the song, the touch or the scent which deliberately wafted into the air can awaken a long-forgotten memories. The thought of you still lingering in the heart and mind, how I recalled them back from the earliest days, when the first time I met you . Long ago, I was always jealous of them. The world that only them who understand, the gaze that only them who knew, and the touch that only hinted between one another. A love so great that it simply couldn't keep blooming and nobody could ever replace it in their heart.

Such a tragedy.

20 years have passed since then. Memory by memory buried in the heart of invisible box. This beautiful red twilight felt warm and gentle breeze blowing against my face. I remembered my love, you always admired the beautiful red twilight like this. You said, "Did you know? twilight is very similar to him. Moments like this make me feel like I was in his arms, though its just a wishful thinking. I would never be able to feel.'

Ironic, two people who loved each other but couldn't be together. You, who have always been in my memories, just remembering you and it gives a life to every breathe that I take. Humans have always given choices in their lives. You can choose what you dreamed, what things you hate, but can you choose who you want to love? If reality can be as simple as that, maybe today I could see your smile, my love. One more time.

My love, are you happy now? It's been a while since I never hear the sound of your laughter anymore. Did you know? Now I'm sitting in a coffee shop where we used to spend a lot of time together after school. Sometimes, you are also invited him to spend more time with you just a little longer. Sometimes, you also asked him to sit beside you so you could see the glint of his eyes that occasionally stealing glances at you. However, he was very different from you. You were like the sun and the moon, you two are one. And I'm sure, you must be happy now, because only with his presence beside you, it would make you be the happiest person in the world.

When I walked in the streets that we've always been through, I have always looked forward to seeing you. Like now, maybe I would be a little happier if I heard the doorbell rang and I saw your silhouette enter this coffee shop. Every time I return to this city, I always do. But how far I've got my hope high? Like a fool, I always played my silly fantasies over and over that I already knew it's not going to happen. It hurts.

Time sure flies so fast, this coffee turned cold, I didn't even touch it. I just remembered you and him repeatedly. Ah, I felt my cheeks wet with tears. Seems like yesterday, I couldn't forget you. My love, you don't cry anymore right? When I saw you cry without being able to do something really made me feel useless. I could only see you wept over him whenever you remembered how fate so unfair to you. You also cried when you couldn't hold back your love so great to him. Every now and then you will said, 'It's so painful. I can't hold it anymore. Please, make a stop.' My love, if only you knew I felt the same way as you. Perhaps, as well as him.

"Let me hear your breath. Please. Just your breath was enough for me. Let me take these sins alone. I just need to hear your breath falls around me, then I could bear all of it all alone. "

I still remembered every word that he spoke to you when you were unable to hear. He, who is like the sun, he kept repeating those words like a spell that could make you understand. But, the sun once so bright and warm it has become a supernova, leaving only traces by trace of invisible life.

"Tell me you love me. You understand, don't you? I love you so much. It is very painful to see you looked at him the same way as I look at you."

I'm so jealous. At that time I hated him. But when I saw the pain in his eyes when he looked at you with great sadness, I knew, I'm just a selfish person. You have reached your own happiness now. I am glad. I also want to be happy like you and him.

20 years have passed since then. I still couldn't forget you and him. Our story. No, its just their love story. The sun and the moon. The boy with the burning red eyes and the boy with the gentle teal-hair.

it's my first time posting my story here. and here I am like a fool, trying to understand how to post this story. bleeh

forgive me for the grammatical errors, i really need a beta, but I barely knew anyone here. bleeh my fate~

let me hear your review my dear friends and follow and favorite would be really nice!

-Ringo

Note:

well, I think I'm done for editing finally. I sound like primitive here -_-

- I would like to say thank you so much for your nice review Shiro san :) Hmm, i'd like to leave reply here in my post. I usually put the lyrics in my story as quotes, and yesterday was kinda mess up because I don't know how to post and how to edit them. This site is rather more complicated than my usual sites,that's why now i look like a fool T_T well, it was just prologue Shiro san, i'm sorry if it was pretty short. i'll do my best next time :) again, thank you very much!

- And thank you for favoriting and following my so messed up story. I'll do my best!