A/N: Well, this is what you get when I'm bored and listening to sad music. Poor Jake. :( Oh, and it's my first fic to post up on here.
Disclaimer: I do not own anything out of the Twilight series. And the song belongs to the Shiny Toy Guns.
Jacob's POV:
You're waking up
A part of me I've never known
And I've never felt
So invincible
Bella. She was the one that made me feel stronger. She said that I was her personal sun, the one that made her feel better. Knowing that made me feel powerful; perhaps even invincible. Maybe that's what made me so arrogant. But, she may never know just how I feel about her. She loves me. But, she loves that bloodsucker more. If only she could see how much I loved her; it's probably more than she loves the leech, and that's saying something.
What took you so far away?
Edward was the one that took you away. You were so close until you decided to go save him. Then you kept coming and going as you please, because I'm too much of a fool to realize it won't work.
Lost for tonight again
That's what you wanted
And when you cry at night because you tore my part of your heart off, just remember: it's what you wanted. But, as much as I wish it were the other way, I want you to be happy. So choose whoever you want, as much as I may disagree.
Your arms to your side again
Again
And when I think of the first time I kissed you, you simply stood there with you arms hanging to your side. Even though I felt awesome for actually kissing you, the fact that you didn't care -besides your anger, that is- that it hurt me. You didn't care how I felt when you didn't kiss back. And the second time, even though I manipulated you -which I hate myself so much for doing-, you asked for it and just stood there. That made me doubt everything. But, when you kissed back, it was the best thing ever. Even if you stole my happiness away hours later.
Just take away the words I say
Cause I know that you don't feel the same
Just go and say what's in your head
And I won't try to stop you
I knew this day was coming, but I didn't think so soon or so harsh. You told me you loved me, what I'd been wanting to here for such a long time, and then you still left me. But, I'll stay still and let you say what you need to. Say what you want, even though it's pretty much the opposite of what I want.
You hold the rights I'll never own
And I've never felt so alien
Don't tear us apart again
What is the use of it
Love was an unfamiliar, yet very welcome feeling. It made me feel so incomplete without you around, but perfect when you are there. And it shatters me when you tear us apart. But, why do you keep tearing us apart is it's just hurting both of us?
We're okay, it's nothing
It's all chemistry of a car crash
But, I just sigh and say, "It's okay. Being friends is better than nothing." You'll never know how much it hurts me to say that.
Just take away the words I say
Cause I know that you don't feel the same
Just go and say what's in your head
And I won't try so you'll stay
This time I won't try
And I won't change this time
I won't try to stop you
This time, I wont beg you choose me. I know it hurts you to have to choose and hurt me. I wont make you decide, you can go or stay on your own free will. Just stop hurting me so much, okay?
It's all chemistry of a car crash
And it hurts like Hell.