I want just him, and only him. Before I grow old and my eyesight fails me, I want to know he is mine. I want it so bad. My heart just wants to break. But now I have found out that in a matter of minutes, days, weeks, or months, I will die. I will no longer be able to live and feel. I will disappear into the nothingness that is the world. I won't be remembered. Because everyone can so easily live on without me. I will never tell anyone I will be dying soon. Why should I? I mean it's not like they can do anything right? I just might as well act like it's nothing. Look there is Ichigo, already worried.
"Well?"
"I am completely fine! I mean I thought they would say, "Hey you're gonna die!"" I joke
*Sharp intake of breath* "God don't scare me like that."
"Ichigo?"
"Yes Kyoko?"
"I am sorry in advance." I giggle though I really mean it.
Am I really not needed? I am glad I didn't tell him.
"Hey Kyoko?"
"Yes Ichigo?"
"Promise me you aren't going to die."
"I promise." I say but I cross my fingers. "I am going home bye!"
I say bolting off.
-Time skip-
I burst through my front door and can't even stop and breathe before I cry. Why me? I mean just why? I should end it now. quickly and quietly before anyone finds out. But Ichigo… No he doesn't matter at all. Nothing will ever happen anymore. I draw my sword. Breathe Kyoko, you need to calm down and get it over with. No more pain. All I have to do is.
*Ding*
Shit someone is here. I have to do it now. I rush to my room. Quickly. I have to do it fast and quick.
"Hey Kyoko it's Rangiku and Toshiro we have a surprise for you!"
I line it with my heart. 1, 2, 3 and.
"Kyoko come on we saw you come in here!" She yells again.
Come on in bitches. I am already gone. I plunge it. You know it really fucken hurts.
"Come on in!" I cheerily call. "It is sure to be wonderful!" I cough. I stagger over to my dresser. Coughing I grab my photo of me, Rangiku. Toshiro, and Ichigo along with his gang smiling and, wait no I can't die yet. Shit what was I thinking. I grab the picture and hug it as I pull out my zanpakuto.
"Kyoko were coming into your room!"
No they can't! But it's too late. They have already seen me. I just smile. How cruel. There surprise was EVERYONE. It was gonna be a party. Sorry Ichigo, I look him dead in the eye.
"I lied."
I fall and all my life force drains from my bones. I am really tired. You know I may just sleep. It seems, nice. The last thing I see is everyone laughing and smiling. I never realized that in the picture, Ichigo was trying to kiss me.