Authors note: I really need a Beta Reader! Any offers? J This is really just an angsty songfic. I know it's a bit. crap. But give me a break! I'm trying!!! Please send me nice review, my self esteem is not exactly dodging the bludgers right now. I need you dear fellow Harry fans! This could be your random act of kindness for the day, hehe.
Disclaimer: J.K.Rowling has the imagination I will never have, darn it! Harry and Co and all hers. The song is also none of my doing. It belongs to. Bugger, I've forgotten the name of the Band! Please Forgive me oh great Singer of the Song (and their fans)! I know the song's called 'Iris', and it's a really, really cool song.
But now, on with the angst.
I wanted to hide the first night at Hogwarts. I wasn't shy, just... individual. I wanted to be left alone. But you changed that. The first time I saw you, you captured my gaze, even with hundreds of others milling around us. I was draw to you. Like some magic was pulling me toward you.
And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
Then across the long banquet hall, you turned and looked me straight in the eye.
You're the closest thing to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
Christmas. I stayed for the holidays because I knew you would be. And then one night we met in the library. You probably don't even remember. I carried your books for you. You thanked me. then kissed my cheek.
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
It was perfect. You were all I wanted. I didn't care about the wizadry that made me no taller or better looking. I hated the others who only laughed and called me 'Snivellus'. I wished it would all just go away and leave me. leave us. alone. Just you and me.
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
Then suddenly, you were gone. Not just gone to him. Not just gone to my enemy. But gone. Altogether. Completely. Gone.
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive
No one sees it under the long robes. No one has any inkling what happens at night when I'm alone and can't bear the emptiness. No one, not even Dumbledore, could ever guess that Voldemort's isn't the only mark on my arms.
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
Who am I? An image of the person you knew. I keep going only because I know you would have wanted it. I keep fighting the good fight. Helping the Order. Teaching the nasty brats who follow their parent's footsteps. Hating me, joking behind my back and always staring.
I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
They don't really know anything about me. Not the real me. But that's okay. Because you did. You did.
I just want you to know who I am
I miss you Lily.
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
A/n- Be kind please.