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Jerk-- that's what I always call you. You never seem to notice anything I do. You ignore me. You treat me like crap. I shower you with affection but you only push me away, literally. Then, you left without a word. Leaving me standing outside your door. I hated you but at the same time I loved you even more and I wished to find you. And I did. But again, you pushed me away. You told me to go home. You should've known better than that. We've been together for a while. Haven't you notice that I am stubborn? I guess not. After all, you never paid attention to me. Yes, a jerk. That's what you are.
You didn't care much about me. It's all about her. Yes, I am jealous but what can I do? It's not like I can force you to care. Well, I tried but all my efforts were in vain. After all, you're stubborn too. All the love I gave you, you threw away. My heart… it's not a piece of trash, you know. But for someone who does not want it, maybe trash is the exact word for it. Knowing that hurts. Only a jerk could hurt me this much.
But I know I'm a jerk too. I'm a jerk for hounding you this way. I'm a jerk for assuming that you are mine. I'm a jerk for being so jealous when I have no right to be. I'm a jerk for forcing you to give me something you can never give. So I might as well stop acting like a jerk and let you go. I better put a fake smile and tell you to forget about the way I acted. Then I'll run into some place where you wouldn't hear me crying as I realize one thing:
You are not a jerk after all. You just can't force yourself to love someone whom you can't love.