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This is a kind of sad story, and basically is Sakura Talking to Kakashi, but he isnt there, if you get what i'm saying.. its hard to explain but you will catch the drift once you start to read it. so enjoy and review ok?
Disclaimer - A very wise person once said 'If I owned Naruto, it would be called Sasuke'
Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
After Sasuke left the village I felt like my life was over. My whole world evolved around him and several times I tried to get over him by dating again, but it was to no anvil, I just kept getting hurt over and over again.
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen
"This mission is of utmost importance, I don't trust anyone other then you two to get it done." Tsunade said as she folder her arms on her desk.
"Do you really want to send Sakura on a mission like this?" You asked with disbelief.
"I have no choice, she is the only one capable enough to get it done" was her reply before she dismissed us both.
It was a seduction mission, my goal was to seduce a disgusting man and then kill him when he try's to take advantage of me. But that was a lot easier said then done.
I couldn't handle the pressure and the man that I was supposed to seduce was moving to fast for me to comprehend anything. He seemed really eager to get his release and then get out of there.
I lost my cool and you had to come in and save me.
I just lay there on the ground, clothes ripped chest completely uncovered and crying like a child. But you knew just what to do, you just grabbed a sheet off the bed, wrapped it around me, picked me up and carried me towards our room while whispering sweet and comforting things in my ear.
But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melted into the ground
Found something true
After that night, my whole perspective changed. I looked at you through different eyes, not really knowing where this new found affection came from.
I had no idea what to do about it so I confronted you.
Half way through telling you that I thought I loved you, I burst out crying, afraid of getting rejected again, afraid of being alone all my life.
You just pulled me into your strong arms and stood there with me, holding me and stroking my hair in a calming way while gently swaying us back and forth just the slightest bit.
You then tilted my chin up to look at you and I noticed that you weren't wearing your mask anymore. My heart skipped a beat when I saw the beauty that you were hiding behind that wretched thing.
You slowly leant down, your lips hovering only inches away from mine. Then you leant in a bit closer, still not close enough to kiss me though. We stood like that for what seemed like forever, until I finally got the courage to lean in and close that gap, kissing you with all the passion and desire I had inside me.
And everyone's looking 'round
Thinking I'm going crazy
We would walk down the streets, hand in hand. You would be reading your book and seem oblivious to the stares and strange looks that we would get, but I would never forget them. They didn't understand, no one did, not even my own team mates. But you gave me the strength to keep going.
But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
There were many attempts at breaking us up, each one more interesting then the last, but they never succeeded. I loved you, you loved me, and soon, people were going to have to realise that, because we had both had just about enough of it.
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open
So we appealed to Tsunade's more romantic side and after weeks of trying to convince her, we finally got her support.
Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that their goal
Is to keep me from falling
But the others, all my other so called friends, refused to give their support, and slowly one by one I stopped talking to them. They were worried about me, I knew that. They thought they could protect me, that you would hurt me, but I thought you never would. It's strange how wrong I could be about something I was so sure about.
But nothing's greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
After a while we started to drift apart a bit, more and more each day. But then something unthinkable happened, Sasuke was found dead, and my whole world came crashing down. And through all of that, through everything you were there, and I remembered why I was with you. And just being able to lie there in your arms at night and look up at your beautiful mask less face was enough for me to get through it all.
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy
Maybe, maybe
But then they thought I would need counselling, like the only reason I was still with you was because I was in denial over Sasuke's death, but I wasn't, they were wrong again. I loved you.
But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
Then you were sent out on that mission with Naruto, it was an S – rank mission. You were going after the people that caused the death of Sasuke, but what you didn't realise was they weren't after Sasuke, they were after Naruto.
And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see
I spent day after day at that memorial stone, remembering back to the day when we first started training. You were cruel and worked us hard, but it paid off. And now as your name sits there on the list, with all of your family and friends, and I wonder why this keeps happening to me.
'Kakashi Hatake, KIA'
I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the pain
That I keep all closed in
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
But they will never realise, even though they were right, that you hurt me, and killed me inside, they will never know how much those happy moments meant to me. And if instead of constantly judging that, they supported me, this might not have happened, who knows?
You were a noble man, and died protecting your student, your friend. But in affect, when you died, so did I. I died inside.
I remember when Naruto walked through those gates, your body was limp in his arms and I couldn't believe my eyes. I don't remember starting to cry, but it was obvious that I had, as my vision was blurred. He took your body to the ANBU, so that they could go through the normal procedures.
On his way home, he stopped by the stone as I was there carving your name into it.
'Kakashi Hatake – KIA'
He pulled me into a hug and it was then that I realised that without you, I was nothing, I was dead inside.
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
Slowly I raise the Kunai to my chest. I'm sorry; I don't know what else I can do. I know you wouldn't want me to do this; you would want me to live on and enjoy the rest of my life. But how can I do that without you here with me? You were my life, and when you died, you took me with you.
Then in one swift movement I plunged it into my heart, and that was it.
I wasn't in pain, I didn't feel anything. I was numb. All I could think of was you. And my final image was of one I would never forget. Naruto was racing towards me with tears in his eyes, screaming out. But I couldn't hear him. Everything was going black.
And then I saw you standing there, with your mask off and a man by your side. I had no idea who he was, but then I realise from his looks, he was your father, and you were happy at last. You were smiling at me and I realised that I didn't belong here with you. I belonged at home with my family. Then you turned and walked away, and I tried to call out to you but I couldn't. I had lost everything because of you. And now I have nothing left. Nothing left but this dark and empty pit of black and the memories of what we used to be.
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
AN --
please tell me what you think. i have never written anything like this before, nor have i encorporated a song into a fic so please be nice and review and tell me what you think and how i could improve on it yeah?
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