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A Wrong Decision

Wasn't this what I had always wanted? Then why did it seem so wrong? It had shattered my heart when I had to tell it to him. I still remember his face clearly, begging and pleading. I couldn't stay in the palace. My request to Maxon was simple but I hadn't realized how much the consequences would hurt. My request was one he could easily fulfill and he did, even though I could tell how much it pained him to do it. I had asked me to let me go. Isn't that what they said? If you love someone let them go, he loved me enough to let me go. So with a heavy heart he kicked me out of The Selection and here I was, back in Carolina with my family.

I was a Three now but that didn't really matter to me. Castes never bothered me, before The Selection I was ready to marry a six. Soon I would accept a new title, a Two. That is if I married Aspen. If. I thought I was sure of what I wanted that day when I left the palace. Now, I keep my eye on my bedroom door expecting Maxon to barge in with some exciting news or I catch myself trying to hear the sound of Maxon's laugh. I even miss the other Elite. I think I'll hear Celeste making another snarky comment or see Kriss walking gracefully. Of all people I miss Celeste! Celeste! All in all what I used to think was a cage had soon become my safe haven. It had become my home. I missed Queen Amberly's kind smiles cheering me on.

For as long as I can remember the arms I longed for were Aspen, when did those arms become Maxon's? When did Maxon become the best thing in my life? I was so sure I was ready to become a two, I have never been so wrong in my life. Now I catch myself trying to find Maxon in Aspen but I can never find him because they aren't the same person. I'll be the first to say I have made many mistakes that have cost me a lot but I have always been able to fix them. This time was a different story, there was no way back to Maxon, there was no way to fix the mess I'd put myself in. Just the thought of never being able to see Maxon again put me to tears. It's your fault America. Why didn't you realize this earlier? Now you get to pay for your mistake, you get to live with the fact that it was your fault. I am so stupid. There is no way to fix this.

Aspen wants me to marry him, he asks me everyday. I never say yes. He asks me over and over what is holding me back. I never tell him the real reason. The Selection changed me; I'm not that girl in the tree house head over heels for Aspen. The real reason I can't say yes to Aspen is because no matter how much I deny it, I am completely and irrevocably in love with the future leader of I'llea, Prince Maxon Schreve