"Your beautiful remains!" The final Black Veil brides song finished, my chest heaving from all the screaming. I looked up at the crowd before me, as they erupted in shouts and sheer excitement. I smiled, laughing to myself; I loved hearing the chants of my amazing fans, I love knowing I made a difference in some of their lives. "Andy, lets go." I felt Ashley grab onto my shoulder, I blushed, startled. I turned watching ash walk off the stage, my heart began to race, thought of Ashley floated through my mind… Uncomfortable thoughts….Sexual thoughts…
I ran off the stage, embarrassed out of my mind. Oh, God… Did I have feelings for him? No… I- I couldn't! I slammed the door to my dressing room, letting out a breath I had been holding since I got off the stage. "Andy, hey, me and the guys are going out after we meet some fans, wanna come with?"
"No, erm, Im kinda whipped….I'm just gonna…Ah, stay here and sleep…"
"Okay, suit yourself!" I heard the heavy clicks of Ash's boots as he walked away. Shit.
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"Nice to meet you. Thanks for coming!" The fifteen year old girl walked, well, more or less, ran away, I can't believe I made her that happy…
"Hey, Andy, you sure you don't want to come with us?" I felt Ash's warm hand on my shoulder, oh God, there goes my heart…
"Y- yea, Im sure…" I shrugged out of his grip, running backstage.
"Hey, Andy!" I saw Christian run up to me, "Is something wrong?"
"Hm? No, tired… Im going to go…Sleep…" I walked to my dressing room, falling on the couch, before long, I was in a deep sleep.
Andy was applying his war make up when he felt a pair of cool, wet lips on his bare shoulder. "A-ashley… What are you…?"
"Don't worry, Andy." He grabbed Andy's shoulders forcing him on the couch. He straddled Andy's hips, "Andy, you're sooo sexy…." He purred seductively in Andy's ear, causing him to shudder, Ashley chuckled, "You like this, don't you?" Andy swallowed hard as he felt Ashley's erection press against his stomach. Ashley began to kiss and bite Andy's neck, moving his was down, beginning to stroke between Andy's thighs slowly…
My eyes shot open, halfway through an escaped moan. I sat up quickly, feeling something run down my leg. I touched my thigh softly, shit. I stood up, going to my spare clothes, grabbing a clean pair of pants, stripping out of the semen soaked ones. I got in the shower, letting the water burn my cool skin.
"I can't want him… I can't!" I felt dirty and ashamed for dreaming about him that way, I wanted to see him, hear him, touch him…Taste him…Shut up, Andy!
God, was it true? Did I want all that? I leaned against the wall, sinking to my knees, letting the water run down my back. Yes, I did want to touch him… Make him mine, let him take me. But, above all that, I wanted to know he loved me, the way I loved him. I wanted him to know how I felt, but, I had no idea how to tell him, and I had no idea who would understand…